Sigh... left-of-center, off the main...
Feb. 16th, 2004 01:04 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
shadowkatFirst...
Late on a Sunday, feeling a need to whine again.
Resist. Must Resist. Oh WTF!
Anyone remember Suzanne Vega? She was an alternative rock/folk singer in the 1980s and early 90s, sounded a bit like Sarah McLachlan mixed with Aimee Mann but with funkier lyrics. One of her songs was "left-of-center" - loved that song. Can't for the life of me remember the lyrics of it, just the theme and tune.
I'd kill for a Suzanne Vega CD with left of center on it about now. But alas all I have is dusty broken cassette of the song from Pretty in Pink - the John Hughes/Molly Ringwold film that the song was featured in - circa 1986. God I feel old.
I know I've always been a little left-of-center. When I was 8, one of my mother's friends looked at me and confided to my mother - that I well walked to a different drummer. Everybody else followed the trend, while I went in the opposite direction. Not because I didn't understand the trend - I did. I just thought it was frigging stupid. Stubborness is not one of my better qualities. Nor is the iron will. While it is possible to nudge me or even change my mind, apply force? And I'll walk away from you.
Yes, I know all good things must end...but! Dammit!
I want to see more James Marsters. Sigh. I'm afraid he's going to be one of those actors that's going to disappear on me. I've got to stop getting interested in the acting of cult actors - it only leads to heart-ache. They disappear. I'd be much better off if I was a Johnny Depp fan or a Tom Cruise fan or a fan of Ben Affleck - those guys seem to be making a film a month.
But I'm not. I adore the lesser knowns...the James Marsters, the Anthony Stewart Heads, the Hugh Jackmans...the Alexis Denisofs...those guys. Being a left-of-center, non-mainstream sort of gal has its pitfalls apparently.
One of those pitfalls is getting your favorite tv shows cancelled or lost in syndication hell where you can't locate them without expending lots of money on cable. Have to admit - it is surprising to me that BTVS made it for seven years - every year I was sure it would be cancelled. Always relieved when it got renewed. Same with ATS - every year I expected it to get cancelled, was always relieved it got renewed.
Why? Because shows I *really* find interesting have a tendency to get cancelled, lost, or re-done in a bad way after two years, assuming they make it that far.
Now and Again - one year - cancelled.
My So-Called Life - cancelled
The Kindred - cancelled
Firefly - cancelled
VR-5 - cancelled
Bablyon 5 - barely made it to five seasons and kept jumping about, you had to be really devoted to find the thing. I kept waiting for them to do it in.
Kimba The White Lion - went off the air, first favorite tv series, short-lived. Same with Battle of the Planets.
And so many others that I can no longer remember.
So I should be pleased ATS has lasted 5 seasons. That it's going out on top. It is for me. This is the first season that I identify with. See, I'm even left-of-center of fandom, who prefers the early seasons, which I wasn't all that invested in. If it had been cancelled in S1 or S2, not sure I would have been that upset. Don't know. I'm not the same person I was in 1999 and 2000, 2001 changed me in more ways than I can possibly figure out. Except of course for being left-of-center, not part of the main...that I still am, for better or worse. Right now? It feels for worse..since nothing seems to be going my way at the moment. But maybe that's a perspective thing? I may be focusing too much on a few trees and not the forest? Not sure.
Hard to tell from this angle.
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Late on a Sunday, feeling a need to whine again.
Resist. Must Resist. Oh WTF!
Anyone remember Suzanne Vega? She was an alternative rock/folk singer in the 1980s and early 90s, sounded a bit like Sarah McLachlan mixed with Aimee Mann but with funkier lyrics. One of her songs was "left-of-center" - loved that song. Can't for the life of me remember the lyrics of it, just the theme and tune.
I'd kill for a Suzanne Vega CD with left of center on it about now. But alas all I have is dusty broken cassette of the song from Pretty in Pink - the John Hughes/Molly Ringwold film that the song was featured in - circa 1986. God I feel old.
I know I've always been a little left-of-center. When I was 8, one of my mother's friends looked at me and confided to my mother - that I well walked to a different drummer. Everybody else followed the trend, while I went in the opposite direction. Not because I didn't understand the trend - I did. I just thought it was frigging stupid. Stubborness is not one of my better qualities. Nor is the iron will. While it is possible to nudge me or even change my mind, apply force? And I'll walk away from you.
Yes, I know all good things must end...but! Dammit!
I want to see more James Marsters. Sigh. I'm afraid he's going to be one of those actors that's going to disappear on me. I've got to stop getting interested in the acting of cult actors - it only leads to heart-ache. They disappear. I'd be much better off if I was a Johnny Depp fan or a Tom Cruise fan or a fan of Ben Affleck - those guys seem to be making a film a month.
But I'm not. I adore the lesser knowns...the James Marsters, the Anthony Stewart Heads, the Hugh Jackmans...the Alexis Denisofs...those guys. Being a left-of-center, non-mainstream sort of gal has its pitfalls apparently.
One of those pitfalls is getting your favorite tv shows cancelled or lost in syndication hell where you can't locate them without expending lots of money on cable. Have to admit - it is surprising to me that BTVS made it for seven years - every year I was sure it would be cancelled. Always relieved when it got renewed. Same with ATS - every year I expected it to get cancelled, was always relieved it got renewed.
Why? Because shows I *really* find interesting have a tendency to get cancelled, lost, or re-done in a bad way after two years, assuming they make it that far.
Now and Again - one year - cancelled.
My So-Called Life - cancelled
The Kindred - cancelled
Firefly - cancelled
VR-5 - cancelled
Bablyon 5 - barely made it to five seasons and kept jumping about, you had to be really devoted to find the thing. I kept waiting for them to do it in.
Kimba The White Lion - went off the air, first favorite tv series, short-lived. Same with Battle of the Planets.
And so many others that I can no longer remember.
So I should be pleased ATS has lasted 5 seasons. That it's going out on top. It is for me. This is the first season that I identify with. See, I'm even left-of-center of fandom, who prefers the early seasons, which I wasn't all that invested in. If it had been cancelled in S1 or S2, not sure I would have been that upset. Don't know. I'm not the same person I was in 1999 and 2000, 2001 changed me in more ways than I can possibly figure out. Except of course for being left-of-center, not part of the main...that I still am, for better or worse. Right now? It feels for worse..since nothing seems to be going my way at the moment. But maybe that's a perspective thing? I may be focusing too much on a few trees and not the forest? Not sure.
Hard to tell from this angle.
