(no subject)
Aug. 5th, 2019 09:53 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
shadowkat1. Well, talked myself into buying the Kindle versions of White Fragility and Black is my Body - Stories from my Grandmothers, my Mothers and my Time by Emily Bernard.
Flirted with the audio versions, but the Kindle were cheaper. Also I don't listen to books well...my attention wanders. I need to look at the words. My parents are the same way, as is my brother, so this my be a genetic thing?
I bought the books for Church Book Discussions. I've already read one of the three books they are discussing -- "Where the Crawdad's Sing".
Also reading the books will help with the novel I'm writing. I'm writing a book about an African-American female Iraqi/Afghanistan War Veteran, who defused bombs under a covert Government operation -- who was presumed dead by the man she loved.
The man is a queer white, highly successful sex therapist/nightclub owner.
I know, it's weird. I got annoyed at the contemporary romance novels I'd been reading, so began to create my own. I wanted to subvert the gender trope. Make the woman tough as nails, she's an auto mechanic, bomb defuser, and kick boxer. And he's a singer, therapist, and softer around the edges. Also she's black and he's white.
She's straight and he's queer. Both have inherited wealth -- so I threw the whole money/classicism thing out the window.
Probably doesn't work, most likely won't ever get published. But it won't let go of me, so I'm writing it regardless. Sometimes finishing a novel that may not work as a published novel, opens up another novel that will. That's what happened last time.
Also, it's worth noting that I tend to write for myself anyhow.
Of the two books, I purchased, the second one looks more interesting and less aggravating. We shall see if I can read either.
2. I don't know if I'm getting hot flashes...or something else. I get really warm one moment and cold the next, then it passes. I'd think it was a fever, but I sweat. So hot flashes? Had them before, but don't remember feeling chilled afterwards.
3. This is somewhat disconcerting -- I've been noticing that I've been increasingly typing the wrong word in posts. Such as "heard" instead of "hard", or "Fictional" instead of "fiction", or forgetting words here and there. And I don't realize it until long after the fact. As if some gremlin is typing this instead of me.
I do reread everything as I type. Which is why I can't type fast -- I'm constantly checking the words that come out. So, how did I type the wrong one and not see it? Is it some sort of brain glitch? Does my brain need to be rebooted like a computer -- which uh no.
I already know that it is poorly indexed. As I told a coworker recently, I have a lot of weird information in my brain and it is horribly indexed. Also, a lot of the information is inherently useless. Such as the fact that I can pretty much tell you most if not all the Buffy episodes by name off the top of my head, as well as give you an encyclopedic history of the X-men. But I can't remember most of the French I learned, and I can't remember my multiplication tables to save my life. I think my memory requires a logical rational visual image to hook to - or pattern. If there isn't one, it will forget. And multiplication tables for the most part aren't really visually logical or have a pattern. Some do. Most don't. According to my brain. I'm not saying my brain is necessarily correct in this thinking, just that it is convinced it is and there you go.
Flirted with the audio versions, but the Kindle were cheaper. Also I don't listen to books well...my attention wanders. I need to look at the words. My parents are the same way, as is my brother, so this my be a genetic thing?
I bought the books for Church Book Discussions. I've already read one of the three books they are discussing -- "Where the Crawdad's Sing".
Also reading the books will help with the novel I'm writing. I'm writing a book about an African-American female Iraqi/Afghanistan War Veteran, who defused bombs under a covert Government operation -- who was presumed dead by the man she loved.
The man is a queer white, highly successful sex therapist/nightclub owner.
I know, it's weird. I got annoyed at the contemporary romance novels I'd been reading, so began to create my own. I wanted to subvert the gender trope. Make the woman tough as nails, she's an auto mechanic, bomb defuser, and kick boxer. And he's a singer, therapist, and softer around the edges. Also she's black and he's white.
She's straight and he's queer. Both have inherited wealth -- so I threw the whole money/classicism thing out the window.
Probably doesn't work, most likely won't ever get published. But it won't let go of me, so I'm writing it regardless. Sometimes finishing a novel that may not work as a published novel, opens up another novel that will. That's what happened last time.
Also, it's worth noting that I tend to write for myself anyhow.
Of the two books, I purchased, the second one looks more interesting and less aggravating. We shall see if I can read either.
2. I don't know if I'm getting hot flashes...or something else. I get really warm one moment and cold the next, then it passes. I'd think it was a fever, but I sweat. So hot flashes? Had them before, but don't remember feeling chilled afterwards.
3. This is somewhat disconcerting -- I've been noticing that I've been increasingly typing the wrong word in posts. Such as "heard" instead of "hard", or "Fictional" instead of "fiction", or forgetting words here and there. And I don't realize it until long after the fact. As if some gremlin is typing this instead of me.
I do reread everything as I type. Which is why I can't type fast -- I'm constantly checking the words that come out. So, how did I type the wrong one and not see it? Is it some sort of brain glitch? Does my brain need to be rebooted like a computer -- which uh no.
I already know that it is poorly indexed. As I told a coworker recently, I have a lot of weird information in my brain and it is horribly indexed. Also, a lot of the information is inherently useless. Such as the fact that I can pretty much tell you most if not all the Buffy episodes by name off the top of my head, as well as give you an encyclopedic history of the X-men. But I can't remember most of the French I learned, and I can't remember my multiplication tables to save my life. I think my memory requires a logical rational visual image to hook to - or pattern. If there isn't one, it will forget. And multiplication tables for the most part aren't really visually logical or have a pattern. Some do. Most don't. According to my brain. I'm not saying my brain is necessarily correct in this thinking, just that it is convinced it is and there you go.