Body wars

[shadowkat]

Been at war with my body the last couple of weeks. In pain now, a dull tired ache that makes you want to sleep but you can't because you feel just slightly nausaus, not completely just slightly. Hard to explain.

This weekend - the entire right side just aches, dull throb right between lower back and shoulder blade, the area just below the bra strap that fastens around the back above the rib cage -to the right of vertebra, extending to shoulder neck. Dull throb. Nothing major. Like someone hit you really hard and left a bruise which continues to ache and make you feel tired. Then there's the right side around my knee - started aching since Wed - tendentisis - I think. Not sure what I did, I think I pulled something when bending to pick something up underneath my desk at work. Hoping it will go away...this weekend it got bad enough that I went and purchased one of those pain patch things to try to numb it a bit. It's giving me a sick headache at any rate. I've lived with back pain most of my life, so this is nothing new. Usually it will show up for a few days than dissipatiate. Hoping this does the same. A tad worried about the knee though - had tendenitis a few years back which resulted in six months of physical therapy and several days off of work due to the pain. Do not need a reoccurrence right now. Stomach also seems to be having issues - heartburn, constipation, upset stomache for the last two weekends in a row. In any event - I've been staying away from the computer as much as possible, and sitting propped up by pillows on my couch, and for a few hours today did not hurt. But it's aggravating - since it cut into my ability to clean house this weekend and run errands. I did a little straightening but decided to curtail any major cleaning which requires bending over. Also still need to buy a coat and a TV/DVD stand to put DVD when I get it. Didn't find a thing at the last place I looked. Damn.

Could this all be stress-related, I wonder? Worrying about new job? Possibly.
Each day at new job feels like a test for some reason, I'm always worried. Worried I'll make a mistake that will get me fired (highly unlikely as it is), I'll piss someone off, say the wrong thing, screw up. I double-check everything. Natural I suppose - this constant worrying. Just wish it would go away. Wish I could relax. Maybe with time...but time feels as if it is seeping through my fingers somehow. It's exhausting keeping all of these fears and feelings inside all day long - (venter here)- so when I get home, I find myself
just collasping.

Not sure any of that ramble made a whit of sense ... feeling very disconnected from the universe lately. As if it and everyone with it is going right and I'm going left.



Have made it up to 3.12 on Farscape. . Agree
with the folks who said Meltdown was skippable. As much as I adore the Crichton/Aeryn romance, Meltdown didn't work for me. The best episodes were
the one's that delved into Aeryn/Crais/Scorpius' backgrounds: "Incubator" - which does a wonderful job of flipping the Crichton/Scorpius relationship. Here
Crichton is inside Scorpius's head. And we get to see who Scorpie really is.
Possibly the most complex villian I've ever seen on TV. You can see why he does what he does, and more important his justifications, which from a certain perspective - an ends justify the means perspective - make sense. Scorpius in some aspects reminds me of Wesely and Giles on ATS and BTVS in his justifications. Except much darker. "Relativity" takes us inside the head of Aeryn and why she is drawn to Talon/Crais and struggles with her love for Crichton. Aeryn's mother in a sense is Aeryn's dark side - her Scorpius.
There are weaker episodes within that, but all are still watchable. The only one that made me roll my eyes was Meltdown - but that may have been due to overload - I'd seen 8 hours of the show in a row by that point.

Still loving the cultural references - this show literally references everything and the references work within the context of the series and the character - they are John Cricton's means of staying connected to his culture and homeworld earth - keeping where he came from alive inside him and not letting this new world consume him entirely. Keeping himself sane in an insane universe so to speak.

Taping "The PeaceKeeper Wars" tonight and tomorrow night - since watching it would be a bit like reading the last chapter of a book you're half way through.
Besides the series gets fairly complicated I'm told - it would be impossible for me to make sense of the miniseries without seeing the rest of the series first.

If you are taping like I am? (Assuming anyone is reading this post outside of me)Part I is on at 9pm-11pm tonight. It is re-shown again on Monday night at 7pm-9pm. Then part 2 is shown from 9pm-11pm. I think both are reprised after the first showing. Not positive. So don't get bummed if you miss tonight's airing. Sci-fi likes to re-show miniseries several times within the first week of airing. Not quite sure why.



Okay off - hands cold and need to see if I can get a bite to eat before resting back some more. Maybe an ice pack will help?