Becoming Closer to Fine

Ever find a song or poem that explains everything you feel at the moment? Better than anything you can think up yourself?

I'm trying to tell you something about my life
Maybe give me insight between black and white
The best thing you've ever done for me
Is to help me take my life less seriously, it's only life afterall
Well darkness has a hunger that's insatiable
And lightness has a call that's hard to hear
I wrap my fear around me like a blanket
I sailed my ship of safety till I sank it, I'm crawling on your shore

Chorus:
I went to the doctor, I went to the mountains
I looked to the children, I drank from the fountain
There's more than one answer to these questions pointing me
in a crooked line
The less I seek my source for some definitive
The closer I am to fine

I went to see the doctor of philosophy
With a poster of Rasputin and a beard down to his knee
He never did marry or see a B-grade movie
I spent four years prostrate to the higher mind, got my paper
And I was free

I stopped by the bar at 3 am
To seek solace in a bottle or possibly a friend
I woke up with a headache like my head against a board
Twice as cloudy as I'd been the night before
I went in seeking clarity

Chorus:
We go to the bible, we go through the workout
We read up on revival and we stand up for the lookout
There's more than one answer to these questions pointing me in a crooked line
The less I seek my source for some definitive
The closer I am to fine

E. Sailers - The Indigo Girls

Saw a couple of interesting TV shows this week that made me think and wonder about heroes. The heroic acts our society seems to focus on are the melodramatic ones, the successes, or the blazes of glory worthy of plaques and metals and rewards.
Our society also appears to expect a great deal out of a hero - they must be perfect, with no blemishes in their past, no scars. The underrated Dustin Hoffman movie Hero is a good exploration of this theme. In that movie, a petty thief and all around loser, saves a plane-load of people without asking for anything in return. The reporter hunting for the Hero that saved the people – wants someone upstanding, pretty, media-savvy. And is disappointed when she eventually discovers Hoffman. I think it would shock us to our core if someone we saw as a horrible person, a complete devil - did something heroic. Just as it would shock us if someone heroic did something twisted. I also wonder about all the people in between, the people who fall flat on their face attempting to do the right thing. The everyday heroes amongst us, who deal with our failures and somehow struggle on. Sometimes I think we can display heroism in how we deal with life’s little disappointments, as much if not more than how we handle the successes.

( spoilers for ATS 5.6, Miss Match & Joan of Arcadia )

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Thanks so much for the responses to my Fear post on Friday morning. I really appreciated it. Your hugs, commiserations, and kind words made my day. Thank you. I'll let you know what happens, writing about it did help.

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Tara

"Tell me if I said something wrong. Otherwise I know I'll say it again -- probably often and in public."

What "Buffy" Character Are You?

Interesting. Finally a result that actually makes sense. Yep, outside of the being gay bit, the awful family, the Scooby I resemble the most is probably Tara. That is if Tara was 5'11 and a brunette.
But tall actresses don't tend to appear on these shows for some reason.