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Mar. 27th, 2019 09:11 pmA couple of things..
1. I have a very dry sense of humor. One online friend, D'Herblay from the ATPO Board, after meeting him in person -- told me that I had one of the funniest driest wits that he'd ever come across. It is a defense mechanism. And I inherited from my father and brother. Unfortunately it does not always come across very well online -- a lot of people take my self-deprecating dry humor literally or seriously. I mock myself all the time. But as my father puts it -- dry sardonic senses of humor aren't necessarily appreciated by fellow humans. I state this by way of an apology -- also you probably shouldn't take half my personal posts seriously, particularly if they are somewhat snarky in character. Some people find me hilarious, others...my wit goes over their heads and they get offended. Don't.
I've also been told that I'm hard to get close to or get to know, which perplexes me, because I think I overshare, and need to apply filters.
2. Fan Conventions.
I was thinking about this today. I can't do them. If I was going to do them it would have been between 2002-2010, when I was obsessed with Buffy, or obsessed with Farscape and BSG. Although really only Buffy and Angel.
For one thing, crowds and me are unmixy things. I spend the entire time hunting the exit ramp. I don't do lines well. Hate big groups of people -- anything over twenty people is going to make me crazy. Actually prefer groups limited to five - ten. I remember a friend being bummed out that fifty people weren't coming to her party, only about ten-twenty were, I was relieved. I don't hold parties -- the idea of throwing a party scares me. It probably has a lot to do with my mother who had anxiety attacks every time she entertained.
I also do not like meeting famous people. I've met a lot of them -- it makes me uncomfortable. I'm talking to someone whom I know more about than they know me, talk about uneven playing field. And the idea of having them sign an autograph -- ack. I can't do this -- I had to have a friend get an autograph for me.
I also can't abide being worshipped or worshipping things -- fame scares me. There's something almost cultish about it.
So conventions scare me. It may because I haven't had the best of experiences at the business ones that I had to attend in the 1990s. I don't know.
How do you feel about them? Do you go? If you do -- do you meet new people or just stick with people you already know?
1. I have a very dry sense of humor. One online friend, D'Herblay from the ATPO Board, after meeting him in person -- told me that I had one of the funniest driest wits that he'd ever come across. It is a defense mechanism. And I inherited from my father and brother. Unfortunately it does not always come across very well online -- a lot of people take my self-deprecating dry humor literally or seriously. I mock myself all the time. But as my father puts it -- dry sardonic senses of humor aren't necessarily appreciated by fellow humans. I state this by way of an apology -- also you probably shouldn't take half my personal posts seriously, particularly if they are somewhat snarky in character. Some people find me hilarious, others...my wit goes over their heads and they get offended. Don't.
I've also been told that I'm hard to get close to or get to know, which perplexes me, because I think I overshare, and need to apply filters.
2. Fan Conventions.
I was thinking about this today. I can't do them. If I was going to do them it would have been between 2002-2010, when I was obsessed with Buffy, or obsessed with Farscape and BSG. Although really only Buffy and Angel.
For one thing, crowds and me are unmixy things. I spend the entire time hunting the exit ramp. I don't do lines well. Hate big groups of people -- anything over twenty people is going to make me crazy. Actually prefer groups limited to five - ten. I remember a friend being bummed out that fifty people weren't coming to her party, only about ten-twenty were, I was relieved. I don't hold parties -- the idea of throwing a party scares me. It probably has a lot to do with my mother who had anxiety attacks every time she entertained.
I also do not like meeting famous people. I've met a lot of them -- it makes me uncomfortable. I'm talking to someone whom I know more about than they know me, talk about uneven playing field. And the idea of having them sign an autograph -- ack. I can't do this -- I had to have a friend get an autograph for me.
I also can't abide being worshipped or worshipping things -- fame scares me. There's something almost cultish about it.
So conventions scare me. It may because I haven't had the best of experiences at the business ones that I had to attend in the 1990s. I don't know.
How do you feel about them? Do you go? If you do -- do you meet new people or just stick with people you already know?