Day #114

I may or may not need to explain this - but will anyhow...because that's how I roll, I guess. Sometime around March, I decided to do a daily chronicle of what it is like to live in a major city, the epicenter, of a pandemic. I tried to write about the aftermath of a pandemic in the past, and I've read others do the same - also about the threat of one through most of the 1990s. So I wanted to keep a record of it. Also writing about it daily, I've found at least, to be helpful for my own mental health. When I write - and this may not be true of everyone - it feels at times like a purging. A means of pouring out the pain, frustration, stress, concern, uncertainty onto the page, and somehow making sense of it in the process. I'm a venter. I need to vent. I don't do ostrich or bear well - I want to look at what is happening, analyze it, make sense of it, and write about it.
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Why am I afraid of the Coronavirus? ( Read more... )

Between Crazy Company, National Politics and the Coronavirus...

I'm resenting folks who can take a week or two off from all of this. ( Read more... )

I'd take a week off, but I've no where I can really go without problems. Massive problems. Most of my family lives in the red zone. The only one who doesn't isn't having visitors. And my friends, same. It is what it is.

The best thing I can do right now is what I've been doing to date which is live in the moment, and be grateful for what I have. Not easy sometimes.

Crazy Company

Crazy Company is broke. NY State is broke. Boss told us today that we are in the worst financial situation that we've been in....well in his lifetime at any rate. Both Operating and Capital funds are impacted. Usually it's just one or the other. And they are hunting cost efficiencies and reductions wherever they can find them.

Yes, Boss scared the beejesus out of his entire staff again. He's really good at stressing out his staff. Now we're all terrified of losing our jobs, on top of the virus, returning to work, and well everything else.

We're also all annoyed. See? This is why I don't buy very much and establish a safety net. And live well below my means.

NY State vs. the Coronavirus, the rest of the United States, and the Doofus, mostly the Doofus who appears to be an agent of the virus

The Governor went on another one of his rants today - amusing the heck out of Wales apparently. She called me during his rant.

Wales: Are you watching the Governor?
ME: Wait are you actually at your workplace, calling from work?
Wales: Yes, yes, the Governor is cracking me up. He's hilarious.
Me: Well, yes, he's comical I suppose but I also agree with him.
Wales: I'll talk to you later - I just felt I had to tell you that.

The Governor's rant was regarding our idiotic President and well:
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I'm resisting the urge to do another Foodkick order, I did go grocery shopping this week. Also am getting an Imperfect Foods order tomorrow.

It was raining earlier - so couldn't take my walk, and almost too late now to do it - Greenwood closes at 7PM. I could technically do the Park, but I've been steering clear or Courtelyou - also steering clear for the time being.

Been a bit depressed and anxious today. It'll pass. I hope. Was going to write a lengthy review of Hamilton, but it's hard to care at the moment.