Day #10 of Year 2...sigh headaches...ugh

I'm being plagued with sinus pressure headaches from hell. They wake me up in the middle of the night, and plague me off and on all day. I'm fending off the vertigo headaches with antihistamines, decongestants, and tynenol, which probably doesn't help with the blood pressure.

It's spring, the pollen is out, and my sinuses are driving me nuts. Also I have a pet mouse who lives in the apartment next to mine, and visits me in the evenings. I think I'll name him Jerry. I posted this on FB and pesky uncle decided to scare me with a population explosion story. Except I've had the mice for a while now. I know because I was finding dead ones when they had to paint my ceiling and wall. I have pesky relatives on FB.

The mint tea bags don't appear to be helping, besides getting caught by the robot vacuum.



Spring - see? Above is picture of a daffodile sprouting outside our building.

I took a long walk around Greenwood Cemetery this evening. Upon arriving at 4:20pm, and thinking I'd only get a thirty minute walk in, if that, I learned they were open now until 6pm. Thrilled, I walked around the cemetery for about an hour. So two hour walk this evening or thereabouts. I left at 4:10 pm and arrived home at 5:45 pm. So, almost three miles - it was 2.8 miles.



Listened to a bit more of Michelle OBama's book - which is insightful, if a tad long. Particularly after reading her husband's book - it kind of show's her end of everything - and what it is like being the wife of a driven, ambitious, and charismatic man. (I don't envy her at all on that point.)

I do wonder sometimes how it is that some folks find multiple partners, and others none at all. Her brother got divorced and found someone else. And on a fan board, women were talking about family members who had been married multiple times.

I seem doomed to be solo. Not necessarily a bad thing. But there are days..
or weeks rather. I wish I could find someone who loved to drive. Also was handy. Basically, I want someone who can do all the things my brother does but without his personality or looks.



It was a weirdly warm day today. No wonder I've been battling a headache through most of it. It got up to 80 degrees - I kid you not. I'm in NYC, in mid-March, and it got up to 80 today, and is supposed to jump down to the 40s tonight. We also had 50 mph winds - which were lovely, considering it's the first day of Passover and the crazy conservative Jewish community around me feels the need to "burn" things in their yards and driveways. As a result, smoke was in the air for a good portion of the day. Not quite so bad near me - the Jews near me aren't quite that nutty. But it did wonders to our air quality for a portion of the day.

Got nothing done workwise. After the last few days, I kind of found myself paralyzed with not caring that much. I fiddled on stuff.

Also I was a battling a headache - it's hard to work on a small laptop when you are battling a sinus headache.

When the headache passed, and I got bored - I fiddled with the below Justice League Dialogue Comparison. Be curious if anyone reads it or chooses to comment. I won't be offended if they don't. I've learned people are wonky on how they respond to stuff or what interests them. It's usually things I wouldn't think they'd want to respond to. My Meta on Buffy always surprised me, and the meta that gets the most kudos on Ao3 (my meta not others), is surprising as well. It's not the stuff that I'd praise. Like I said, people are wonky. I have no clue what they are going to do or why. There's no discernible pattern that I can see. So I've given up trying to figure it out.



My mother is scared. The stupid medical personnel, and Aunt K, have scared the poor woman, and me by extension. I'd like to smack them upside the head. My guess is my brother probably feels the same way. I don't know if he does or not - and I'm not going to ask. By mutual agreement - we're not discussing the situation at the moment. I think we're both kind of coping with it by not discussing it.

She doesn't know why her femur bone isn't healing. Why her leg hurts. Why it broke. Why they didn't see it on the X-ray initially. If she's doing any of the right things. And she's terrified she won't be able to walk again, live with my father again, or drive again. She's bored, stir-crazy, lonely and frustrated. And I worry about her. But there's zip I can do.

This not being able to do anything bit - is hard.

I'm also scared. I'm scared I won't be able to see my parents again. But I hope. I have hope that it will get better and by June or July, maybe August, I can fly down and see them.

There's not enough people I feel comfortable visiting. And I feel weirdly trapped in my life. And weirdly angry at myself about it. But alas, not a lot I can do - outside of what I'm already doing, I suppose.

Day by day. Moment by moment. Today I got exercise taking a walk by myself around a cemetery. Today was a good day - not many people walking for whatever reason.




I didn't bring my binoculars with me this trip around the Cemetery- partly due to the wind. Partly due to the fact that I thought the Cemetery closed at 5.

I am struggling to lose weight. My current plan is to cut out desserts. No more ice cream, candy (basically chocolate bars, and chocolate covered Easter candy - I don't eat the rest), etc. Also cut back on cheese (bit harder). And just have fruit. Walk more. Maybe try to ride a bike. We have Citibikes near me now.

I'm lonely but not at the same time. My friends live inside my computer. My mother lives inside my phone.

I'd like to see a friend or family member in person - as opposed to merely co-workers, and the strangers living in my building and area. It's hard to meet new people. It shouldn't be, but it is. At least for me, and at least recently. I've learned not to say too much. Less is more.

People are wonky.

You never know how they will react.



Should go to bed. Because of headaches, have not been sleeping well. Hope to straighten apartment this weekend. I'm getting lazy, I think.

Hmmm..after a quick perusal of the Evening update...
( literary deaths )

I'm trying to ignore the political news. It turns me into a ranting banshee.

But I am wondering about the news that the far-right disinformation machine has now abandoned the Big Steal in favor of convincing folks not to take the vaccine. So, this begs the question - do these idiots want to kill their own followers?

New York meanwhile has launched another new program...
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That's it for tonight, going to bed. To nurse the headache.