Year 2-Day 69 - Malaise..

Humid overcast day. Took a walk around noon, since the Super is supposed to pop up sometime this evening to fix the drain on the bath tub. (It's the old 1920s style drain, that is next to the tub, not in it. I tried explaining it to mother and got a headache.)

It was in the sixities, but perimenopause and humidity are un-mixy things - and I was soaking wet when I came back, so changed. Also due to the shifts in temperature and weather, I'm still getting the sick headaches. Plus hot flashes. I can't decide if I'm hot because of the weather, the air conditioner not being high enough, or the hot flashes. Will state that a cold pack on my chest does help, tremendously.

While I took said walk, I took photos of flowers again. I like taking photos of flowers - it cheers me up.



1. Work nonsense

I spent most of my day spinning my wheels with illogical folks. Via either teams or email.

Anyhow, crazy workplace has big town-hall meetings this week on the "big transformation" and the "return to the office" project lifting off in June.

2. Governor and NYS vs. COVID

* Today during his live briefing Governor advised that more people needed to get vaccinated. We have approximately half of the state fully vaccinated now.

* Mayor and Governor both advised that in September - school would be fully back in session with no remote learning. (Mainly because the remote learning bit was hardly equal, there were a lot of kids who were unable to get access.)

( the Governor's Email )

Protect Yourself & Your Family - a Vaccinate NY Women's Health Forum

I don't know if I'll attend that or not. I'm already vaccinated and I doubt they know why some women's periods start after the vaccine and others don't. Which is really all I'm concerned about. Also, two teams events in one day is about all I can stomach. But they really are going above and beyond in their effort to convince folks to get vaccinated. They've bribed them with lottery tickets, park passes, free tickets to ball games, and subway/train passes.

3. Television Sci-Fi Tropes that irritate me...

Someone on FB was curious about the television tropes that irritate me, in reference to a television series which unfortunately had most of them.
( tropes that irritate me )

4. Sinuses are making me crazy. Also I'm edgy waiting for my super. I don't know why anticipating things makes me edgy and nervous. Or anxious. It's silly really. Meditation has helped reduce this - but not completely.

I don't understand myself. Perhaps it's some unresolved trauma from my youth? God knows. I've been hearing the words Somatic Therapy a lot lately. Claudia Black brought it up in an article, and today a therapist on a podcast that I was listening to - brought it up. Both are unrelated to each other. I may look into it. The theory is that we hold the energy from past traumas in our bodies, and it festers if unreleased, leading to pain.
And the trauma may not seem like a trauma to many, but it is to the person who experienced it. Trauma can be any thing really.

Somatic Therapy - I actually kind of saw a mind/body therapist for a bit - helped me a great deal. Got a lot of the energy released.

I heard recently, not sure where - that no one is okay right now. Even those who say they are - aren't really. They are just kind of pushing it to one side, which I've been doing for quite some time now.

But how else do we deal? Public screaming?

Frigging anti-vaxxers...

Ugh. Just spoke with Super, who came to fix the drain, he refuses to get vaccinated. He's convinced he's more likely to die or get sick from the vaccine than COVID.

I've been vaccinated and I did not get sick. My niece didn't get sick. My co-workers didn't get sick - and two of them did get sick from COVID, deathly ill from COVID, but not from the vaccine. My friends - the most that happened to them was a day or two of the flu. No one died.

Me: are you getting vaccinated?
Super: why should I get vaccinated?
Me: so you don't get COVID? I've been vaccinated.
Super: I'm not sick - so why do I need it? Besides do you know how many people died from the second dose?
Me: I don't know of anyone who died from the second dose. Who?
Super: Two people from my home country, one a teacher and one a doctor.
Me: My entire family - over twenty people, no deaths. We're fine.
Super: People in this building have. You only know 20 who haven't.
Me: I know millions who haven't. I have co-workers, etc. You have any idea of how many people have died of COVID?
Super: Lots of people die of cancer too.
ME: Fine, I get to not wear a mask, you have to. [I know, I know I should have handled that better, but my super annoys me. Every time he shows up, we argue about what he's responsibilities are, what should be done, etc. I get along better with his wife. We argued for ten minutes about the drain - he wanted me to use the mesh - which is useless, as opposed to a tub shroom which worked very well for three years. This is not helped by a language barrier - he doesn't really speak English, he's Polish, and English is the third language. He's fluent in Russian, but not English. ]

So this begs the question? Do I move? OR just hang tough here? I figure it won't matter, no matter where I go - I'll run into idiots.

When asked if he could mandate vaccines, the Governor explained it was not legal to mandate it - if the vaccine was provided under an emergency clause.

The line between the vaccinated and non-vaccinated seems to be whether you are intelligent, a critical thinker, and have education.

ETA: Found the culprit.

Anti-Vaccine Activists Peddle Theories That COVID Shots are Deadly Undermining Vaccination
( excerpts )