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Spent most of the day cleaning out the clothes in the bags beneath my bed, sweater containers, night stand, dresser, closet and storage containers in the bed room. Which basically took five hours with breaks in between to talk to Wales (who needed to vent about her family) and mother (who called to see how I was doing). Also breakfast, a shower, and lunch.

Oh, I also spent two-three hours organizing the collection of cloth and plastic tote bags in the kitchen. Dear god, I have a lot of cloth tote bags. Carnival alone - has provided me with a hundred of them. I seem to have moved from a vast collection of plastic bags to a vast collection of tote and cloth grocery bags of all sizes and materials. I needed to go through all the bags in order to obtain one or two bags to insert clothes that I could no longer wear and had no intentions on wearing again.

Wales interrupted the bag sort. And managed to give me the beginnings of a headache. I decided I needed lunch and would finish bag sort afterwards, since it was already 1:30 by that point. Mother interrupted lunch. So I had a mess of clothes on my bed (it looked like clothes bomb exploded in my bedroom) and a mess of bags in the kitchen (it looked like a bag bomb exploded in the kitchen). Made it difficult to concentrate on either phone call - I wanted to get back to fixing the bag and clothes problem, and time was a-wasting.

Somewhere during all of this - it occurred to me that I could listen to an audio book which would make the time go a lot faster. So, I turned on Ancillary Justice by Anne Leckie which I'd downloaded and gotten for free about a year or so ago.
( Ancillary Justice )

Now? After all that? I have a sinus headache from hell. Also very thirsty.

Also, the difficulty with "spring cleaning" or going through clothing, is I discovered how fat I've become - and it all appears to be in the torso (either that or I've done a better job of buying pants that fit me over the years, one or the other). The problem with menopause - is it all goes to the belly and the bust, and will not leave. I'm going to try somatic yoga and walking more, eating less, and see if that helps.

So, not sure this happens to anyone else but I try on something - and I think, wait, I fit into that last summer - WTF? Or I was able to fit into that a few months back? UGH! Or okay, who am I kidding I'm never going to fit into that again and why did I buy that to begin with? What was I thinking? This is ugly. Probably a desperation buy. (I hate clothes shopping - and have a tendency to buy when desperate, which is never a good idea. I buy crappy clothes when I'm desperate. )

Now I feel the oddest need to buy clothes - that I've nothing to wear.

Tomorrow? The game plan is to do laundry, make the bed up clean, and possibly clean out the cabinets and fridge. But we'll see if that happens.