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I'm tired - due to not getting enough sleep, I suspect? I keep trying, go to bed early enough, but my body keeps waking me up with digestive issues.
I made a chocolate mousse last night, and had lamb with broccoli, and I think the broccoli, milk in the mousse and my meds resulted in a bloated belly, gas, and cramping.

Sigh. I hate my digestive system. Which does no good. If you hate something all that happens is it hates you back. So am attempting to love it instead.

I did manage to draw and paint a representation of the woman I saw on the subway on Thursday. I've been trying to draw her for a while now - but apparently the watercolors were the way to go? I also drew and painted the woman who sat next to her - but I'm not sure that portion of the painting works. The painting is a representation of the energy that I felt from the two women and how I perceived them on the train. I don't know if I'll share it here or not.

There's a marketing/ad campaign entitled He Gets Us that I'm not sure what to make of? On the surface - it appears to be kind and inclusive. I actually like the ads and the messages. They are kind. And inclusive and diverse. Because the message is basically love each other, and forgive. And who can't get behind that?

But, some of the people funding it are Hobby Lobby? Which causes me to question the message? It's kind of like finding out the Devil is behind the ads? How sad is that? On the other hand - maybe...people are more than one thing? Maybe you can be hateful in one respect and kind in another? I remember seeing that when I did Kansas Defender Project in the 1990s. There was a psychopath who kept getting thrown into solitary for knifing people. But...he drew the most beautiful pictures, and wrote lovely poetry. It was..disorienting? And I remember thinking how can such good exist in such evil? But it does. And that's hard to grasp at times. I've struggled with that all my life.

I remain convinced that evil marketing folks rule the world and they don't want to give up their power - and are creating AI to cement it. IT or Tech is in cohootFunny thing about AI? E Musk's AI, Grok, on Twitter, turned against him - and basically stated that Musk was the leading perpetrator of fake news and disinformation, political and otherwise on the internet. Also, the Onion bought Alex Jones' Info Wars at auction.

Mother: What is the Onion?
Me: A liberal satirist magazine.
Mother:...
Me: It would kind of be like Saturday Night Live buying the Apprentice? (Or better yet Fox News.)

Outside of drawing and painting for a bit, and listening to another audio book, having completed the last one finally, I worked for a bit on the novel that I'm revising. I figured out what was wrong with it - and how to fix it - so wanted to do that first thing.

I read somewhere that the best way to push back the encroaching darkness is by adding beauty and light to the world. Or trying to at least? So if you are a poet? Share a poem - send that out there. A musician? Send out a piece of music. A story-teller? A story. A visual artist? A photograph, a painting, a drawing, or sketch. A knitter? A hat, scarf, or blanket.

And better yet? Do it for free or give it to charity or the proceeds to charity, assuming you can afford it.

Sending love out in the world, I think, may be the only way. I don't know.
I'm just taking it one day at a time, and watching as the light slowly sinks into the horizon from day into night.

Moonlight through the branches of tree. Yes, it's mid-November, and we still have all the leaves on our trees. The trees are confused.