Personal Day
Jul. 2nd, 2024 05:13 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
shadowkatGood news? PC Richards came and installed my new A/C and took away the broken one. It's the same model and brand - because I had to replace it with a comparable version. Which is fine - it was working, until the apartment stripped and re-painted the fire escape. But I didn't tell PC Richards that. And the technician - when I did tell him, pooh-poohed it stating that wasn't the cause it was the faulty Freeon.
Anyhow, the new A/C plus the tower fan, keeps my apartment cool - at 76 F/24.4 C degrees in the living room with 35% humidity - wich is comfortable, you don't want to be less than that. It's 81 F/27.77 C outside with 42% humidity - so feels like 80. Was clear for most of the day...until now, when it's become overcast.
PC Richards has the worst customer service.
PC Richards: We'll text at 7pm and leave an email stating the window that the installers will arrive.
Me: At 7? Okay, you said that for the service guy and didn't do it -
PC Richards: well that's the service center and they're different.
Did they text and email? Nope.
Me (calling them at 7:30 pm last night): Hi, you said you'd text and email the window?
PC Richards: Oh well, it's not guaranteed. But it will be any time between 9 am and 1 pm, and they'll call you twenty minutes before they arrive.
Next day.
It's almost 12 noon. I decide, okay, maybe I should call them?
PC Richards: Our men are outside and no on is answering the buzzer.
Me: No one has rung it? Maybe it's not working? Okay, I'll come down and get them.
I go down - there is no one. I think, maybe they got in and are coming up?
Nope. Buzzer rings, I run back down (three flights) and they grumpily look at me, someone else let them in. And whine about me not answering. I said no one had buzzed and I just got the call.
Installers: We called.
Me: What number did you use?
Installers: We don't know. They don't give us a number. Just a code that we call.
ME: Hence the problem.
Installer glare at me.
And I thought the Super was difficult. Sigh.
Installer: And it's actually running. Seriously? What's wrong with it?
ME: There's a pack of ice in it, and it's leaking, and the Freeon is shot? The technician told me to keep it running, and take out the filter.
(I show him).
He was an ass. I wanted to smack his grumpy ass. And considering I was paying them over $200 for this. If someone pays you to do a job? You be nice. Actually you should be nice regardless.
But it is over. Yay. And I saved over $400 dollars, so yay team. Also, I should be able to sleep well tonight. Couldn't sleep at all last night. Afterwards I took a walk to a little community garden in Windsor Terrace, which I hoped was open. It was.
After walking through it. I sat in one of the little green chairs and meditated by the pond for a bit.
And then took a stroll, taking photos of flowers, which makes me happy:
And...
On the way home, I passed the flowers near my apartment building or in the front yard of the house directly behind it.
I also passed a sculpture garden of sorts, in the front yard of one of the houses...
And a couple of houses had the sign "Cease Fire" on them...
While in front of the library were little posters of children's rhymes..
The library also has a knitting circle which meets on Tuesdays, and a Writing Group that meets monthly, and is open to everyone.
Read this on instagram:
"You aren't lazy. You just have a certain amount of energy and right now you are using it all to survive."
And Lou from the Grief Project states: "When we are going through BIG moments in life, whether that be a death or some other form of loss, it’s easy to feel like we aren’t achieving enough, grieving for “too long” or just using our grief as an “excuse” to be lazy. But it’s true-we only have a certain amount of energy. We only have so much bandwidth. We can only put on a happy face for so many hours a day. If you have survived something, you will go through a period of ‘survival’. If you are in this space currently, please know that you are not lazy. Your body is dealing with your stress and sadness. Use your energy sparingly, spend time only with people who bring you up, nap if your brain needs a break, drink water, take baths, sit and process, and most importantly…. Be gentle with you."
I read it and thought, but I'm not grieving anything at the moment, I've not been through any trauma. Then the Universe smacked me upside the head.
Because of course I am and I have. A pandemic. 9/11. Various job losses. Losses of loved ones. Just to name a few. My father. The political situation. My church. And I feel exhausted and disappointed so much of the time.
I think I have a tendency to compare myself to others - more than I should.
And I think - well they have it worse, I should be grateful. My losses are minor and few compared to theirs. I'm very good at beating myself up.
My father told me once - in aggravation - that I was so good at beating myself up, that I made it difficult for him to chastise me for anything. He was aggravated, I think, because I reminded him - of himself. We had that in common. Too self-aware, too self-conscious, too-self-critical.
I'm trying to do better.
Anyhow, the new A/C plus the tower fan, keeps my apartment cool - at 76 F/24.4 C degrees in the living room with 35% humidity - wich is comfortable, you don't want to be less than that. It's 81 F/27.77 C outside with 42% humidity - so feels like 80. Was clear for most of the day...until now, when it's become overcast.
PC Richards has the worst customer service.
PC Richards: We'll text at 7pm and leave an email stating the window that the installers will arrive.
Me: At 7? Okay, you said that for the service guy and didn't do it -
PC Richards: well that's the service center and they're different.
Did they text and email? Nope.
Me (calling them at 7:30 pm last night): Hi, you said you'd text and email the window?
PC Richards: Oh well, it's not guaranteed. But it will be any time between 9 am and 1 pm, and they'll call you twenty minutes before they arrive.
Next day.
It's almost 12 noon. I decide, okay, maybe I should call them?
PC Richards: Our men are outside and no on is answering the buzzer.
Me: No one has rung it? Maybe it's not working? Okay, I'll come down and get them.
I go down - there is no one. I think, maybe they got in and are coming up?
Nope. Buzzer rings, I run back down (three flights) and they grumpily look at me, someone else let them in. And whine about me not answering. I said no one had buzzed and I just got the call.
Installers: We called.
Me: What number did you use?
Installers: We don't know. They don't give us a number. Just a code that we call.
ME: Hence the problem.
Installer glare at me.
And I thought the Super was difficult. Sigh.
Installer: And it's actually running. Seriously? What's wrong with it?
ME: There's a pack of ice in it, and it's leaking, and the Freeon is shot? The technician told me to keep it running, and take out the filter.
(I show him).
He was an ass. I wanted to smack his grumpy ass. And considering I was paying them over $200 for this. If someone pays you to do a job? You be nice. Actually you should be nice regardless.
But it is over. Yay. And I saved over $400 dollars, so yay team. Also, I should be able to sleep well tonight. Couldn't sleep at all last night. Afterwards I took a walk to a little community garden in Windsor Terrace, which I hoped was open. It was.
After walking through it. I sat in one of the little green chairs and meditated by the pond for a bit.
And then took a stroll, taking photos of flowers, which makes me happy:
And...
On the way home, I passed the flowers near my apartment building or in the front yard of the house directly behind it.
I also passed a sculpture garden of sorts, in the front yard of one of the houses...
And a couple of houses had the sign "Cease Fire" on them...
While in front of the library were little posters of children's rhymes..
The library also has a knitting circle which meets on Tuesdays, and a Writing Group that meets monthly, and is open to everyone.
Read this on instagram:
"You aren't lazy. You just have a certain amount of energy and right now you are using it all to survive."
And Lou from the Grief Project states: "When we are going through BIG moments in life, whether that be a death or some other form of loss, it’s easy to feel like we aren’t achieving enough, grieving for “too long” or just using our grief as an “excuse” to be lazy. But it’s true-we only have a certain amount of energy. We only have so much bandwidth. We can only put on a happy face for so many hours a day. If you have survived something, you will go through a period of ‘survival’. If you are in this space currently, please know that you are not lazy. Your body is dealing with your stress and sadness. Use your energy sparingly, spend time only with people who bring you up, nap if your brain needs a break, drink water, take baths, sit and process, and most importantly…. Be gentle with you."
I read it and thought, but I'm not grieving anything at the moment, I've not been through any trauma. Then the Universe smacked me upside the head.
Because of course I am and I have. A pandemic. 9/11. Various job losses. Losses of loved ones. Just to name a few. My father. The political situation. My church. And I feel exhausted and disappointed so much of the time.
I think I have a tendency to compare myself to others - more than I should.
And I think - well they have it worse, I should be grateful. My losses are minor and few compared to theirs. I'm very good at beating myself up.
My father told me once - in aggravation - that I was so good at beating myself up, that I made it difficult for him to chastise me for anything. He was aggravated, I think, because I reminded him - of himself. We had that in common. Too self-aware, too self-conscious, too-self-critical.
I'm trying to do better.
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Date: 2024-07-03 05:31 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2024-07-03 12:09 pm (UTC)That community garden looks lovely.
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Date: 2024-07-03 05:04 pm (UTC)Go HERE
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Date: 2024-07-03 07:01 pm (UTC)Lovely photos; that silvery sculpture was particularly interesting.
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Date: 2024-07-03 09:49 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2024-07-05 12:47 am (UTC)And thank you. I thought the sculptures were interesting too.