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shadowkatRainy, stormy day, complete with a possible tornado warning. Hmmm...what I wonder will I do if a tornado hits Brooklyn? Hide in the tub? It's not like we have a storm cellar or a basement exactly. Actually I think the duplex below me does - I just can't access it.
Ah well, not to worry - to get to me, it has to cross two rivers and the island Manhattan. I can not even begin to contemplate the type of damage a tornado could do to Manhattan. Shudder.
More personal snarky ramblings...on blood, mosquitos, dreams...
Frustrating day. Appears my blood copper level is elevated, whatever that means. Sort of reminds me of Spike's comment in the Gift - of course it's blood, it's always about the blood. Seems the vamp has a point. Fiction and reality blurs...how unnerving.
So the neruologist wants to test my brother's blood copper level to rule out a genetic disorder. (Ah- again I think of BTVS and Blood Ties - we have the same blood, Summer's blood...or Spike and Angel, Blood Brothers. )
Apparently the copper level in my blood might have something to do with the tremor, shaky hands, which get shakier whenever I get emotionally distraught, one of the many reasons I no longer read certain posters on fanboards - one post this summer had my right hand shaking for fifteen minutes. I couldn't write. I just sat there and stared at it like it was a foreign appendage. Then and there I decided it made more sense not to read certain posts, since I couldn't exactly respond to them anyway, well not without a lot of typos.
So wait, if I have elevated copper, does this mean it's not an essential/famialar tremor after all? Interesting. Except now I have to lug myself and now my brother back to the doctor next week, then possibly off to a specialist. Fun. Brother is being amazingly cooperative, not only is he willing to get his blood tested for copper, he's willing to high-tail it to my neruologist with me, next week, if need be. Makes me feel guilty for haranging him in my head for being a fan of the OC.
A little worried about the OC going up against ATS. Why? My brother loves the OC. This is not a good sign. My brother is what is called an "innovator" or trend-setter. He grasps and follows trends before anyone else. I can tell if something will be popular just by whether he a) has heard of it, b)likes it and c) his friends do. Worse? He used to love Angel. And he's the frigging demographic: 18-34 year old males (bro is 33). Bro and I are well, akin to Angel and Spike when you put us in a room together. We get along, for very short periods of time. Lots of love, but lots of clashing. Yet - we share certain genetic traits that connect us. Hidden traits, you can't see. Hidden in blood. Sort of like Spike and Angel, come to think of it, or Dawn and Buffy.
Incredibly tired today - was attacked by a mosiquto last night in my apartment. Six bites. Wonder if the copper in my blood will kill it? Bwwahahhah! Now that would be an advantage. Had to coat myself with mosquito repellent to sleep, otherwise I'd shut out the lights, pull up the covers and hear buzz, buzz, buzz...frantically slap at nothing, flip on the lights, see nothing and end up grabbing the anti-itch cream. Honestly, you'd think I lived in the tropics and needed mosquito netting.
At any rate, when I finally did drift off to sleep had the weirdest dream - one of the few I actually remember. Most of my dreams are so confusing and such a hodge-podge of my anxieties and whatever information I've crammed into my head that they make 0 sense. This one sort of made sense. In it - I had resigned from evil company, yet was still working there on a consulting basis - ie. no benefits, but a salary of sorts - except my job wasn't at the company - it was in a place with all these refugees who needed my help. I think Africa, but can't be sure. (Hmmm did I combine ATS and ER in my head again?) At any rate, I'm helping these people, not being paid very much and fretting about whether I should quit evil company completely and help the people on my own. I woke up this morning half convinced I was still working for the evil company. Not sure what it meant, except I suddenly have this desire to join the Peace Corps. Not sure what I'd do in the Peace Corps - don't really have any skills they want, unfortunately. But the idea is intriguing. (Probably just combining Alias, ER and Angel with all my job search worries. I've become sort of skeptical regarding the significance of dream analysis - most of my dreams tend to be anxiety related, usually have to do with traveling somewhere and the logistics getting screwed up. Have had a few dreams here and there that I turned into stories, but very few.)
Not much else to report - except that I just read a really cool summary review of Conviction/Just Rewards/and Unleashed in Rahael's live journal. The sort of review that makes one re-evaluate and appreciate the episodes. Plin's review on Hell Bound is equally lovely and highly recommended - it can be found on her live journal. What she says about Angel is really interesting. Have to say I'm agreeing with the folks who've commented that Angel has gotten more interesting this year. He has. This is the most interesting I've found Angel since Reunion- Reprise in Season 2. Although he did go through an interesting period in S3 Forgiving - Deep Down, which made S4's Angelus arc seem lame by comparison. I'm one of those people who finds the character more interesting when they are complex - neither good nor bad, heroic or anti-heroic, that wonderful crunchy area of gray. At this point in time, I think Angel may actually be more interesting to me than Spike or Wesely, been a while since that happened. Oh - DB? I changed my mind about his acting ability when I re-watched him in Sanctuary, very understated, layered performance. Watch the actor's face in the close-up's with Buffy, she's telling him about Riley and he's literally flinching with his eyes, refusing to look at her. It's brilliant. So I don't blame DB for the lame/somewhat hammy mugging of Angelus in Salvage, Release, and Orpheus - I blame the director and writer. Just as I don't blame Marsters for some of the weird Spike bits -I blame the director and writers. Loving ATS this season - first time in a while that I loved all the regular characters on a show, I even sort of like some of the recurring ones. Oh I joined the listserve Sunnydale U. Not easy to get on that one - you have to be a fan of BTVS, ATS and Dorothy Dunnett. They even ask you a Dunnett related question to make sure you fit the criteria. Very academic and civilized list-serve. Promises to provide me with lots of analytical opportunities whenever I get bored and none of the juvenile sniping that has taken over the fanboards of late. (Maybe it's always been one the boards and I'm just less tolerant this year? Can't tell.)
Back to studying.
Ah well, not to worry - to get to me, it has to cross two rivers and the island Manhattan. I can not even begin to contemplate the type of damage a tornado could do to Manhattan. Shudder.
More personal snarky ramblings...on blood, mosquitos, dreams...
Frustrating day. Appears my blood copper level is elevated, whatever that means. Sort of reminds me of Spike's comment in the Gift - of course it's blood, it's always about the blood. Seems the vamp has a point. Fiction and reality blurs...how unnerving.
So the neruologist wants to test my brother's blood copper level to rule out a genetic disorder. (Ah- again I think of BTVS and Blood Ties - we have the same blood, Summer's blood...or Spike and Angel, Blood Brothers. )
Apparently the copper level in my blood might have something to do with the tremor, shaky hands, which get shakier whenever I get emotionally distraught, one of the many reasons I no longer read certain posters on fanboards - one post this summer had my right hand shaking for fifteen minutes. I couldn't write. I just sat there and stared at it like it was a foreign appendage. Then and there I decided it made more sense not to read certain posts, since I couldn't exactly respond to them anyway, well not without a lot of typos.
So wait, if I have elevated copper, does this mean it's not an essential/famialar tremor after all? Interesting. Except now I have to lug myself and now my brother back to the doctor next week, then possibly off to a specialist. Fun. Brother is being amazingly cooperative, not only is he willing to get his blood tested for copper, he's willing to high-tail it to my neruologist with me, next week, if need be. Makes me feel guilty for haranging him in my head for being a fan of the OC.
A little worried about the OC going up against ATS. Why? My brother loves the OC. This is not a good sign. My brother is what is called an "innovator" or trend-setter. He grasps and follows trends before anyone else. I can tell if something will be popular just by whether he a) has heard of it, b)likes it and c) his friends do. Worse? He used to love Angel. And he's the frigging demographic: 18-34 year old males (bro is 33). Bro and I are well, akin to Angel and Spike when you put us in a room together. We get along, for very short periods of time. Lots of love, but lots of clashing. Yet - we share certain genetic traits that connect us. Hidden traits, you can't see. Hidden in blood. Sort of like Spike and Angel, come to think of it, or Dawn and Buffy.
Incredibly tired today - was attacked by a mosiquto last night in my apartment. Six bites. Wonder if the copper in my blood will kill it? Bwwahahhah! Now that would be an advantage. Had to coat myself with mosquito repellent to sleep, otherwise I'd shut out the lights, pull up the covers and hear buzz, buzz, buzz...frantically slap at nothing, flip on the lights, see nothing and end up grabbing the anti-itch cream. Honestly, you'd think I lived in the tropics and needed mosquito netting.
At any rate, when I finally did drift off to sleep had the weirdest dream - one of the few I actually remember. Most of my dreams are so confusing and such a hodge-podge of my anxieties and whatever information I've crammed into my head that they make 0 sense. This one sort of made sense. In it - I had resigned from evil company, yet was still working there on a consulting basis - ie. no benefits, but a salary of sorts - except my job wasn't at the company - it was in a place with all these refugees who needed my help. I think Africa, but can't be sure. (Hmmm did I combine ATS and ER in my head again?) At any rate, I'm helping these people, not being paid very much and fretting about whether I should quit evil company completely and help the people on my own. I woke up this morning half convinced I was still working for the evil company. Not sure what it meant, except I suddenly have this desire to join the Peace Corps. Not sure what I'd do in the Peace Corps - don't really have any skills they want, unfortunately. But the idea is intriguing. (Probably just combining Alias, ER and Angel with all my job search worries. I've become sort of skeptical regarding the significance of dream analysis - most of my dreams tend to be anxiety related, usually have to do with traveling somewhere and the logistics getting screwed up. Have had a few dreams here and there that I turned into stories, but very few.)
Not much else to report - except that I just read a really cool summary review of Conviction/Just Rewards/and Unleashed in Rahael's live journal. The sort of review that makes one re-evaluate and appreciate the episodes. Plin's review on Hell Bound is equally lovely and highly recommended - it can be found on her live journal. What she says about Angel is really interesting. Have to say I'm agreeing with the folks who've commented that Angel has gotten more interesting this year. He has. This is the most interesting I've found Angel since Reunion- Reprise in Season 2. Although he did go through an interesting period in S3 Forgiving - Deep Down, which made S4's Angelus arc seem lame by comparison. I'm one of those people who finds the character more interesting when they are complex - neither good nor bad, heroic or anti-heroic, that wonderful crunchy area of gray. At this point in time, I think Angel may actually be more interesting to me than Spike or Wesely, been a while since that happened. Oh - DB? I changed my mind about his acting ability when I re-watched him in Sanctuary, very understated, layered performance. Watch the actor's face in the close-up's with Buffy, she's telling him about Riley and he's literally flinching with his eyes, refusing to look at her. It's brilliant. So I don't blame DB for the lame/somewhat hammy mugging of Angelus in Salvage, Release, and Orpheus - I blame the director and writer. Just as I don't blame Marsters for some of the weird Spike bits -I blame the director and writers. Loving ATS this season - first time in a while that I loved all the regular characters on a show, I even sort of like some of the recurring ones. Oh I joined the listserve Sunnydale U. Not easy to get on that one - you have to be a fan of BTVS, ATS and Dorothy Dunnett. They even ask you a Dunnett related question to make sure you fit the criteria. Very academic and civilized list-serve. Promises to provide me with lots of analytical opportunities whenever I get bored and none of the juvenile sniping that has taken over the fanboards of late. (Maybe it's always been one the boards and I'm just less tolerant this year? Can't tell.)
Back to studying.
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Date: 2003-10-29 03:49 am (UTC)(And I agree, when Db tries, he can really act his socks off. I was really impressed whenever he did stuff with Connor. Those two actors were great together)