Odds and ends..

[shadowkat]

Am avoiding doing the quizzilla things which have apparently taken over my friends list - have they taken over live journal as well? Can't tell. Would have to hop around other's friend's lists to do that and who has the time or the energy? Anyhoo - don't expect to see any here - takes far too long for me to do them on this dial-up now, the test takes forever to process and the images download slowly...not mention the fact that I get disconnected from the internet at least twice while doing them. Just too aggravating. Much better to skip.

Time...ugh. Feel as if time is passing me by and far too quickly. Probably because I have a birthday coming that I sort of don't want to come. It's not that I don't want to celebrate it (don't mind that)so much as I just wish it would not come. I'm not ready to be 37, damn it. Along with my mother visiting, a brother's baby shower (which she's coming for), and well...this is going to be a very tough two weeks, we'll see if I get through them. Especially since my mother has decided to go on the South Beach diet - which means she can't have any bread or carb products. Which wouldn't be a problem, except I'm sort of living off pasta and crackers right now - because it's cheap. Plus I'm terrified she'll take one look at my apartment and how I live, actually she's staying with me for five days...so it doesn't have to be limited to one look, and think, okay that's it, we're moving you in with us until you find a job. (Like I'm going to have an easier time finding a frigging job in human resources management on Hilton Head Island, SC? Ugh! I'm too old for this nonsense. How many frigging jobs do I have to apply for and interview with to find one? A billion?)

I'm just grousing because I had yet another nightmare about the evil company. This time, I had been rehired by them on a part-time basis and was brought in to the evil boss's office where he derided me for not bringing in content. I still had 0 budget to bring in the content. But he didn't care.
And I was demoted or something. Lots of long hallways in this dream and cave-like offices. No wonder I'm loving Angel S5, I completely identify with the situation. Methinks my subconscious is reminding me that no matter how bad things get, quitting evil company was a good thing.

Oh a bit of humor for anyone following the whole Caveman vs. Astronaut debates on the fanboards. Origin of the cavemen vs. astronaute debate.
Apparently the debate originated with the Mutant Enemy writers specifically David Fury and Stephen De Knight, who mentioned it while doing the Comic-con 2003 Writers Panel and actually launched into the debate right there on stage. Apparently in real life the ME writers argued over this for an entire hour. (This according to a reviewer at Dark Horse who was there.) Now, what I want to know is which writer was arguing cave-men and which astronauts? My current guess? Fury was arguing for the cavemen and Deknight for the astronauts. I can just see Whedon explaining all this to JM and DB while directing them for this episode. Oh to be a fly on the wall during that one. Hmmm...so Deknight and Fury are fighting over it. Whedon comes in and asks the Wes question: "do they have weapons..." after Bell warns him to stay far away from it. (Anyone else really want Whedon to do commentary for Hole in The World for S5 ATS DVD?)
What's even funnier...is I can totally imagine this fight, and they probably had it around the time they were co-writing either Awakenings or Destiny. Possibly Destiny. Since they argued during the writing of Destiny about who should win the Angel/Spike fight. Pretty heatedly. Fury won that one. (Being co-showrunner does help.)


In other news? A shred of hope for us Angel fans, according to whedonesque 19 of WB's affiliates are as pissed off about the news concerning Angel's cancellation as we are. And they are major league ones - in big urban areas. Hee Hee.

Comments

Evil company

[hankat.livejournal.com]

Yup it was a good thing and you will continue to dream about it til you work it out enough to make the old subconscious move onto new dreams. I worked for an evil company where I was sexually harassed and treated badly cause I refused to sleep around. Never did I know that if you don't sleep with someone they will tell all their buddies you did then the story goes on and gets better if not more remote from reality. What most folks didn't know is I was just starting my battle with an auto-immune disorder and sleeping around was the furthest thing from my mind....survival right up there. Add insult to injury I was going through a nasty divorce from a stalker type guy with a gun collection. Well, I proceeded with the divorce even if it meant going on Welfare, quit the evil job and dreamed about all that crap for a long time. To show how far I got I saw my ex years after the divorce and he was still fixated even though he got remarried. His thing was if I wasn't with him he would tell everyone I was.....you quessed it...sleeping around. He told me that men from the evil company still spoke about me 10 years later. Well this is where all those dreams paid off. Instead of falling for his crap I told him that he had some serious problems if he was talking about me after so many years, that also extended to anyone real or imagined who would find me interesting years after the last time they saw me.

Those years aren't happy ones as my illness left me under a hundred pounds for years, unable to do much more than sleep and eat. People can do horrible things to you but in the end they only hurt themselves. I know what the truth is and anyone who ever took the time to get to know me do as well. The hurt lessened after some years but to this day I'm very uncomfortable around men. Turning 50 soon has been great for me cause I can become just an invisible old broad. What would have happened to me if I stayed with the evil company...I don't even go there cause I'm dead certain that I did the right thing. You did too. You will find a job that time just isn't right now, but you will find one. As for your mother moving in with you, you're on your own.......;)

Rufus

Re: Evil company

[arethusa2.livejournal.com]

O God, I could be bounded in a nut shell and count
myself a king of infinite space, were it not that I
have bad dreams.

That's why I call my journal In A Nutshell; I have bad dreams too. I wonder what the dreams of these horrible people are like. I suspect they're even worse than ours because we can wake up and have our better lives, while their nightmare never end. Which is a really good reason to let our dreams wrestle with past and let our waking ours enjoy the present. It's far from perfect (or even good sometimes) but at least we're not as bad off as we used to be. And nobody's messing with our heads anymore, which is always the worst part.

Re: Evil company

[arethusa2.livejournal.com]

"waking hours" lol

Re: Evil company

[shadowkat67.livejournal.com]

What an incredibly horrible experience, thank you for feeling you could share it with me. It's inspiring as well, since you survived and did not allow yourself to sink their level.

My situation was *very* different, I wasn't sexually harassed for one thing (at least not as far as I'm aware, but I'm a *extreemly* hard person to sexually harass, since I tower over most people and have an intimidating physical and personal presence, b/c of my size and tendency to feel claustrophobic I tend to be *very* careful about personal space), partly because there's a little voice inside me that still wonders if I wasn't to blame, if I didn't do enough, if I was *too* emotional or *too* rude as the evil boss claimed. I know it's not true, a colleague, who is still with the company, informed me that he was doing all that in order to get me to leave so he could downsize the position - which he would have done anyway. But...the feeling of failure haunts me. And I keep worrying if the reason I haven't been hired is they've called evil boss and well...(I know that's silly, he has 0 motivation to do that, one of my references is a good friend who still works at the company along with a former boss who liked me and well no one really checks references any more any way...). Why all these thoughts? Well, see this isn't the first time I've gone through this. It's not a *new* experience for me. I *really* do identify with Angel in that way. No, I didn't necessarily have evil bosses in the past, just situations that didn't work for a host of reasons which led to me being without work for close to 14-23 months at a time. In fact I've *never* in my life gotten a job easily or gotten the job I really wanted - usually I end up grabbing whatever gets offerred after 14-15 months of hunting. Which may be my mistake, so I'm trying not to fall into that trap this round but it's hard not to. It's hard not to wonder if there's something wrong with me, if I'm doing something wrong...not sure any of that makes sense. Because like I said, it's a *very* different situation from what you described.

Thank again for sharing your experience. It was inspiring - not what happened to you, how you made it out of it.