Random bits on my mind
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shadowkat1. I haven't spoken to Wales aka former BFF in a while...we're debating seeing Antigone in Ferguson, but reservations are needed, and well...that doesn't work with Wales.
Wales finally quit evil law firm after about fifteen years. And as far as I know is unemployed at the moment.
Wales: So, I turned in my two weeks notice. Then I freaked out and went back. Thinking I'd go broke and become a homeless person. So I went back.
Me: So you're still at work?
Wales: No. I went back and they accused me of losing a transcription that I put on a lawyers chair back in March that they can't find now. And I had nervous breakdown in HR. So they told me to just leave. That they'd just send me my stuff. No two weeks pay, no benefits, they wouldn't even let me pick up my stuff. I think they think I'm nuts.
ME: What stuff did you have there?
Wales: Some shoes, some books..
Me: Is it irreplaceable?
Wales: I suppose not, and they said they'd send it to me but I doubt it.
Me: I can't imagine they'd want it.
Wales: I won't be able to get another job.
Me: Why? You can type 100 words a minute, take shorthand, and have legal secretary skills.
Wales: they'll blackball me.
Me: doubtful. I don't think they care. As long as you don't bug them.
Wales: No. No. They hate me. I know you went through something similar -
ME: Well not really, but okay. When did this happen?
Wales: I'm traumatized. I need some mental health time.
Me: So take a week or two.
Wales: I quit three weeks ago.
Me: I can't help you with this.
Wales: I know. Just thanks for letting me vent.
Wales: So, I've decided to become a librarian. I think I'd like that. Do you know where I can apply? I guess I could just go up to a library and apply right?
ME: No. You can't just become a librarian, you have to get a degree in it. It's professional career.
Wales: Oh that's right. I forgot.
Me: Usually a Masters in Library Science is required.
Wales: Oh.
Me: It's not impossible -- but I'd suggest getting some temp work and maybe trying an online program -
Wales: I guess I could just volunteer in a library...
ME: Well, true, but it doesn't pay...but that would let you know if you want to do it. (People have a tendency to romanticize library work.)
Wales: Are you certain you can't take my cats?
Me: Allergic.
Wales: Oh right. It's just they seem to want something from me and I don't know what it is..
Me: Cats want to be feed, left alone, allowed outside, and given a place to poop. They also might like attention...and to be played with on occasion, depends on the cat.
Wales: no, you don't understand they sit and stare at me -- like, like..
Me: the Siamese Cats in Lady and the Tramp?
Wales: No, the twin girls from the Shining.
Me: The twin girls in the Shining? They're cats.
Wales: You remember -- the twin girls?
Me: Yes. But they are cats.
Wales: You don't understand. I am sitting in bed or on the stool and they just sit a few feet from me and stare at me...but they won't tell me what they want. Why? It's like they expect me to just know! I feel like they are stalking me and unless I give them what they want..they will...
Me: Give it time, they might become friendlier. Maybe they are just adjusting to their new home.
Wales: It's been a year and a half! Seriously, they are exactly like the twin girls in the Shining. They expect something from me, but I've no clue what.
2. Well, it was only a matter of time...but.. Lifetime is making a movie based on the NXIVM Sex Cult
3. What Was in the added footage in the re-release of The Avengers: Endgame
Apparently just a Stan Lee Tribute (shows footage of him filming all his cameos), a half-assed Hulk clip -- it's a bird, it's a plane, no, it's Professor Hulk leaping in to save the day. And, footage from recent release Far From Home -- where Maria Hill and Nick Fury run across a monster that is a cyclone, and a hero fighting him who warns them not to try and help.
And, yes, I'm very glad I resisted the temptation to rewatch it for the footage. (I didn't have to work that hard -- I may be a Marvel fan, but I'm not that much of a Marvel fan.) So not worth rewatching a three and half hour film (including previews and credits, and now thirty minutes of additional footage -- so actually four hour film.)
4. In the WTF is fandom thinking department...there's this charmer from the Buffy fandom, well answered by itsnotmymind (cool name by the way) Why Angel deciding to wipe all her memories, and become a vampire again is not the same as Spike deciding to get a soul
Apparently somebody attempted to compare the two? I can see it now...
Spuffy shipper: "Angel decided to turn back time, wipe Buffy's memories, and return to his vampire self without asking her opinion or talking to Buffy first."
BANGLE Shipper: "Well, Spike's not so great either...he went and got a soul without telling Buffy, so there!"
Rest of fandom: WTF? Really? They are obviously NOT the same thing.
5. Been sleeping erratically lately, also have digestive issues -- hence the erratic sleeping. Working on that. Hormones are wonky again (sigh time of life, time of month, sucks being female and getting older, yadda, yadda, yadda, and you can't really talk about it -- for reasons that escape me, but still.) Anyhow makes me ever so slightly irritable. And my right hand is shaking more than usual, so possibly need to check myself on caffeine.
6. Halfway through "Where Crawdads Sing by Delia Owens" -- I'm enjoying it. The Good Reads reviews are all over the place. A couple of reviewers had issues with the believability of a ten year old girl surviving all alone in Marshland, and no one doing anything about it. (Actually they thought she was six when her father left, but it's clear she's closer to ten. The brother and mother left when she was six.)
I mentioned this to my mother, who rec'd the book to me, and she agreed with me that this is actually believable. People get lost all the time. Small children can disappear and live on their own. Where The Crawdads Sing, while inspiring at times, isn't exactly a kind depiction of people in general. Nature yes. People not so much.
The book does make me angry at times or triggers my anger. So, that is a problem.
That said it is beautifully written in places, I love the characters and depictions of the marshland, also how the writer deftly describes loneliness.
At one point, the statement is made in the book -- of how our connections to others make things easier and more worthwhile -- which underlies the loneliness. Yet, the character has made connections to people. Meaningful ones. Which is inspiring and in a way comforting.
I think we all have connections -- often ones you aren't mindful of, take for granted or don't see. People who are far away, yet feel close by at the same time.
Or too far away and too close -- in the case of this journal. I may never meet most of you face to face, or know your names, or know you if we were to pass on the street, and yet...I feel you know me in a way many may not through this journal.
A not always effective, yet more effective than most, method of communicating.
7. New icon is me as a peanuts character -- they had this thing on the internet where you could design your own peanuts avatar based on your general physical description and yes, I know, I look like Marcy. Although I think I have more in common with Linus. Or possibly Woodstock.
Wales finally quit evil law firm after about fifteen years. And as far as I know is unemployed at the moment.
Wales: So, I turned in my two weeks notice. Then I freaked out and went back. Thinking I'd go broke and become a homeless person. So I went back.
Me: So you're still at work?
Wales: No. I went back and they accused me of losing a transcription that I put on a lawyers chair back in March that they can't find now. And I had nervous breakdown in HR. So they told me to just leave. That they'd just send me my stuff. No two weeks pay, no benefits, they wouldn't even let me pick up my stuff. I think they think I'm nuts.
ME: What stuff did you have there?
Wales: Some shoes, some books..
Me: Is it irreplaceable?
Wales: I suppose not, and they said they'd send it to me but I doubt it.
Me: I can't imagine they'd want it.
Wales: I won't be able to get another job.
Me: Why? You can type 100 words a minute, take shorthand, and have legal secretary skills.
Wales: they'll blackball me.
Me: doubtful. I don't think they care. As long as you don't bug them.
Wales: No. No. They hate me. I know you went through something similar -
ME: Well not really, but okay. When did this happen?
Wales: I'm traumatized. I need some mental health time.
Me: So take a week or two.
Wales: I quit three weeks ago.
Me: I can't help you with this.
Wales: I know. Just thanks for letting me vent.
Wales: So, I've decided to become a librarian. I think I'd like that. Do you know where I can apply? I guess I could just go up to a library and apply right?
ME: No. You can't just become a librarian, you have to get a degree in it. It's professional career.
Wales: Oh that's right. I forgot.
Me: Usually a Masters in Library Science is required.
Wales: Oh.
Me: It's not impossible -- but I'd suggest getting some temp work and maybe trying an online program -
Wales: I guess I could just volunteer in a library...
ME: Well, true, but it doesn't pay...but that would let you know if you want to do it. (People have a tendency to romanticize library work.)
Wales: Are you certain you can't take my cats?
Me: Allergic.
Wales: Oh right. It's just they seem to want something from me and I don't know what it is..
Me: Cats want to be feed, left alone, allowed outside, and given a place to poop. They also might like attention...and to be played with on occasion, depends on the cat.
Wales: no, you don't understand they sit and stare at me -- like, like..
Me: the Siamese Cats in Lady and the Tramp?
Wales: No, the twin girls from the Shining.
Me: The twin girls in the Shining? They're cats.
Wales: You remember -- the twin girls?
Me: Yes. But they are cats.
Wales: You don't understand. I am sitting in bed or on the stool and they just sit a few feet from me and stare at me...but they won't tell me what they want. Why? It's like they expect me to just know! I feel like they are stalking me and unless I give them what they want..they will...
Me: Give it time, they might become friendlier. Maybe they are just adjusting to their new home.
Wales: It's been a year and a half! Seriously, they are exactly like the twin girls in the Shining. They expect something from me, but I've no clue what.
2. Well, it was only a matter of time...but.. Lifetime is making a movie based on the NXIVM Sex Cult
3. What Was in the added footage in the re-release of The Avengers: Endgame
Apparently just a Stan Lee Tribute (shows footage of him filming all his cameos), a half-assed Hulk clip -- it's a bird, it's a plane, no, it's Professor Hulk leaping in to save the day. And, footage from recent release Far From Home -- where Maria Hill and Nick Fury run across a monster that is a cyclone, and a hero fighting him who warns them not to try and help.
And, yes, I'm very glad I resisted the temptation to rewatch it for the footage. (I didn't have to work that hard -- I may be a Marvel fan, but I'm not that much of a Marvel fan.) So not worth rewatching a three and half hour film (including previews and credits, and now thirty minutes of additional footage -- so actually four hour film.)
4. In the WTF is fandom thinking department...there's this charmer from the Buffy fandom, well answered by itsnotmymind (cool name by the way) Why Angel deciding to wipe all her memories, and become a vampire again is not the same as Spike deciding to get a soul
Apparently somebody attempted to compare the two? I can see it now...
Spuffy shipper: "Angel decided to turn back time, wipe Buffy's memories, and return to his vampire self without asking her opinion or talking to Buffy first."
BANGLE Shipper: "Well, Spike's not so great either...he went and got a soul without telling Buffy, so there!"
Rest of fandom: WTF? Really? They are obviously NOT the same thing.
5. Been sleeping erratically lately, also have digestive issues -- hence the erratic sleeping. Working on that. Hormones are wonky again (sigh time of life, time of month, sucks being female and getting older, yadda, yadda, yadda, and you can't really talk about it -- for reasons that escape me, but still.) Anyhow makes me ever so slightly irritable. And my right hand is shaking more than usual, so possibly need to check myself on caffeine.
6. Halfway through "Where Crawdads Sing by Delia Owens" -- I'm enjoying it. The Good Reads reviews are all over the place. A couple of reviewers had issues with the believability of a ten year old girl surviving all alone in Marshland, and no one doing anything about it. (Actually they thought she was six when her father left, but it's clear she's closer to ten. The brother and mother left when she was six.)
I mentioned this to my mother, who rec'd the book to me, and she agreed with me that this is actually believable. People get lost all the time. Small children can disappear and live on their own. Where The Crawdads Sing, while inspiring at times, isn't exactly a kind depiction of people in general. Nature yes. People not so much.
The book does make me angry at times or triggers my anger. So, that is a problem.
That said it is beautifully written in places, I love the characters and depictions of the marshland, also how the writer deftly describes loneliness.
At one point, the statement is made in the book -- of how our connections to others make things easier and more worthwhile -- which underlies the loneliness. Yet, the character has made connections to people. Meaningful ones. Which is inspiring and in a way comforting.
I think we all have connections -- often ones you aren't mindful of, take for granted or don't see. People who are far away, yet feel close by at the same time.
Or too far away and too close -- in the case of this journal. I may never meet most of you face to face, or know your names, or know you if we were to pass on the street, and yet...I feel you know me in a way many may not through this journal.
A not always effective, yet more effective than most, method of communicating.
7. New icon is me as a peanuts character -- they had this thing on the internet where you could design your own peanuts avatar based on your general physical description and yes, I know, I look like Marcy. Although I think I have more in common with Linus. Or possibly Woodstock.
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Date: 2019-07-03 10:59 am (UTC)I hope your digestive problems resolve. I have IBS, and I know how just damned annoying they can be.
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