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shadowkatAnyone else losing count of the days...that we've been in isolation, well of sorts. My State is re-opening, but I'm still more or less in the same lock-down that I've been in since March.
Anyhow, took a two hour walk around Greenwood Cemetery this morning, instead of in the afternoon, in the hopes that it would be cooler. I don't know if it was - it was definitely humid. Felt a bit like walking through water, actually. Also the weather forecast stated possible storms this afternoon. There weren't any. It reached the upper 80s today, and according to my phone and the news, felt like 90 with the humidity. So going early on - might have been a good idea. I left 8:15 am or thereabouts and got back around 10 am. Had breakfast at 7:45. It was about 2.7 mile hike. Too hot to do much more than that. By the time I got home, I was drenched and ended up taking another shower.
Spent the day laying about eating chocolate and watching Last Airbender on Netflix
Outside of checking email and the television recs on DW, I took the day off from social media and the internet, and my computer and chose to watch Avatar: The Last Air Bender on Netflix. Netflix has three seasons of it, the first one is about 20 episodes long, the next 18, and the last 16 episodes - kind of typical of animated series on broadcast television actually or any television service. They start out with a ton of episodes, then dwindle.
After this week, especially yesterday, I wanted something light and fluffy. (I did a lot yesterday, made up my bed clean, tested intercom, did laundry, worked, wrote...tried not to have an anxiety attack over doing laundry - LOL!) So today, I wanted to watch something cute and comforting and not "directly" relevant to ANYTHING happening at the moment. Metaphorically it may be - but then just about everything is, so this was about as good as I could get in that department.
So far, I'm enjoying it, even if I keep wanting to smack two of the main characters upside the head - Prince Zuko (the Firebender) and Ange (the Air Bender). (I think the spelling is correct on that? I don't do phonetic spelling well - if I don't see it several times, I can't spell it. Most words in my perspective are not spelled the way they sound - particularly names. Names are never spelled the way they sound - it's very confusing. Again from my perspective. It's not lost on me that I may be mishearing the name to begin with.) I feel very sorry for Katara and her brother. Also I want more of the earth-bender, Hiro, who I'm afraid is a one-time character.
The animation is quite good. It's the type of animation that I prefer - sort of a blend of anime and non-anime formats. I'm not a fan of the cartoon animation style featured in most American cartoons - Steven Universe - I struggled with, in part because of that. I think it's because I grew up with artists and animators, and am overly picky as a result. Most people aren't that picky when it comes to animation.
Made it through seven episodes so far. I find it comforting. So thank you for recs folks. I chose it - because it got the most positive reviews from DW list. It requires some effort to rec something, so when about five people who don't normally respond to my posts - go out of their way to rec it to me, I take notice.
(As an aside, I'm also sticking with Black Sails, What We Do in the Shadows, Steven Universe, and going to try Legend of Korra (assuming of course that I can find it again), Warrior Nun, and Maladorian. It's not like there's anything compelling on broadcast television at the moment, well outside of Beechem House on PBS, and GH reruns (yes, we actually have reruns of daytime soaps being broadcast out of order for the first time in history. They are allegedly going back into production on July 20th, which makes sense since that's about the time Disney is opening their amusement parks. Disney owns the soap.).)
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Me: I keep thinking I should be doing more with my community. If it weren't for my fears and anxieties, I would be able to do all this. If they didn't stand in my way. You know, getting more involved with the community outreach, doing something -outside of donating money -
Mother (in a very stern voice - or as stern as she can get over the phone from South Carolina): No. Please do NOT do that. Please. The last thing you should be doing right now is getting involved with community outreach. I'm worried enough about you. Please don't go out there and become an essential worker.
Me: Well, I wouldn't really - it's just delivering food to folks in need, and putting up signs, and -
Mother: No. That's the last thing you should be doing. Don't do that. Don't put yourself at risk in this way.
Me: Look don't worry - I'm too scared of the virus to do any of it. Although I'm beginning to wonder if I'm being silly - other people are out and about as if there's nothing to be concerned over.
Mother: Don't do it. Stay safe. I can't worry about you too. Any more than you want me doing community outreach. Because, I could do it too -
Me: Okay that's a good point. No need to threaten.
Apparently one of the residents at mother's retirement community has contracted the virus. No one she knew or has come into contact with. Never met the woman. But the woman does live the same apartment complex that her friends do - so she's a bit concerned about her friends and feels for them, they are 95 and 103 respectfully (her friends, not my mother). The woman who contracted the virus was living her life as if it didn't exist. Doing everything normally. She's apparently come down with a mild case - and may well have infected others. They've isolated her. At the least the complex is doing whatever it can to protect people.
My mother also apprised me of my brother's situation. He'd invited folks up that had been out on Fire Island, and were interacting socially, without much concern for the virus. He chose not to judge them. But he told them to respect his concerns, and to social distance and respect his family's health. Kind of similar to how I've been handling people in my apartment complex and laundry room.
But honestly, I don't think it is judgemental to tell someone they are being an inconsiderate for not wearing a mask and following the protocol.
Other than the virus, my family is doing fine. But that's kind of true of everyone at the moment isn't it? I mean we really are a "we" in this situation not an "I". To get out of it - we need to start thinking like a "We" and not an "I" and I think this is a very difficult concept for a lot of folks to wrap their heads around, particularly Americans, who are frustratingly individualist in their views and not really used to thinking in "we" terms.
What I don't understand - is all the people who walk around Greenwood Cemetery with their eyes on their cell phones. I mean - I get doing that on the subway, it's the subway, but in a beautiful green space, with birds, and wildlife, and statues...why?
People continue to bewilder me.
Other things..
Besides talking to my mother, I took a nap, kind of. I just rested my eyes. Also meditated, which is helping me keep the anxiety, depression and all those other toxic emotions in check. Envy is a toxic emotion, as is rage. But the meditation really helps. I do it through a Headspace app - that is run by a Tibetan Monk by way of Australia. I find his voice very comforting and calming.
Intercom is apparently fixed now - according to a sign on the door. I don't know if mine is - but I assume so. I don't really use it that often, most of the time, people leave the main entrance open - so when I do need to let someone in - it's not an issue. Also up until recently, I wasn't home long enough to get deliveries in this fashion.
I want more Saturday and less of Monday. Mondays are long, Saturdays always feel short. Even in the middle of a pandemic. Of course, I've been working through it - so that could be part of it. I'm debating giving myself a four day weekend at the end of July. But it would be a stay-cation, so I don't know. Maybe I should take three weeks in November - self-quarantine for fourteen days in a B&B or my brother's barn, then do Thanksgiving with him?
I'm trying not to think too far ahead, it's really hard to plan anything at the moment. [Oh, methinks I see and feel storm clouds rolling in.]
Leave you with..flowers..
Anyhow, took a two hour walk around Greenwood Cemetery this morning, instead of in the afternoon, in the hopes that it would be cooler. I don't know if it was - it was definitely humid. Felt a bit like walking through water, actually. Also the weather forecast stated possible storms this afternoon. There weren't any. It reached the upper 80s today, and according to my phone and the news, felt like 90 with the humidity. So going early on - might have been a good idea. I left 8:15 am or thereabouts and got back around 10 am. Had breakfast at 7:45. It was about 2.7 mile hike. Too hot to do much more than that. By the time I got home, I was drenched and ended up taking another shower.
Spent the day laying about eating chocolate and watching Last Airbender on Netflix
Outside of checking email and the television recs on DW, I took the day off from social media and the internet, and my computer and chose to watch Avatar: The Last Air Bender on Netflix. Netflix has three seasons of it, the first one is about 20 episodes long, the next 18, and the last 16 episodes - kind of typical of animated series on broadcast television actually or any television service. They start out with a ton of episodes, then dwindle.
After this week, especially yesterday, I wanted something light and fluffy. (I did a lot yesterday, made up my bed clean, tested intercom, did laundry, worked, wrote...tried not to have an anxiety attack over doing laundry - LOL!) So today, I wanted to watch something cute and comforting and not "directly" relevant to ANYTHING happening at the moment. Metaphorically it may be - but then just about everything is, so this was about as good as I could get in that department.
So far, I'm enjoying it, even if I keep wanting to smack two of the main characters upside the head - Prince Zuko (the Firebender) and Ange (the Air Bender). (I think the spelling is correct on that? I don't do phonetic spelling well - if I don't see it several times, I can't spell it. Most words in my perspective are not spelled the way they sound - particularly names. Names are never spelled the way they sound - it's very confusing. Again from my perspective. It's not lost on me that I may be mishearing the name to begin with.) I feel very sorry for Katara and her brother. Also I want more of the earth-bender, Hiro, who I'm afraid is a one-time character.
The animation is quite good. It's the type of animation that I prefer - sort of a blend of anime and non-anime formats. I'm not a fan of the cartoon animation style featured in most American cartoons - Steven Universe - I struggled with, in part because of that. I think it's because I grew up with artists and animators, and am overly picky as a result. Most people aren't that picky when it comes to animation.
Made it through seven episodes so far. I find it comforting. So thank you for recs folks. I chose it - because it got the most positive reviews from DW list. It requires some effort to rec something, so when about five people who don't normally respond to my posts - go out of their way to rec it to me, I take notice.
(As an aside, I'm also sticking with Black Sails, What We Do in the Shadows, Steven Universe, and going to try Legend of Korra (assuming of course that I can find it again), Warrior Nun, and Maladorian. It's not like there's anything compelling on broadcast television at the moment, well outside of Beechem House on PBS, and GH reruns (yes, we actually have reruns of daytime soaps being broadcast out of order for the first time in history. They are allegedly going back into production on July 20th, which makes sense since that's about the time Disney is opening their amusement parks. Disney owns the soap.).)
Family
Me: I keep thinking I should be doing more with my community. If it weren't for my fears and anxieties, I would be able to do all this. If they didn't stand in my way. You know, getting more involved with the community outreach, doing something -outside of donating money -
Mother (in a very stern voice - or as stern as she can get over the phone from South Carolina): No. Please do NOT do that. Please. The last thing you should be doing right now is getting involved with community outreach. I'm worried enough about you. Please don't go out there and become an essential worker.
Me: Well, I wouldn't really - it's just delivering food to folks in need, and putting up signs, and -
Mother: No. That's the last thing you should be doing. Don't do that. Don't put yourself at risk in this way.
Me: Look don't worry - I'm too scared of the virus to do any of it. Although I'm beginning to wonder if I'm being silly - other people are out and about as if there's nothing to be concerned over.
Mother: Don't do it. Stay safe. I can't worry about you too. Any more than you want me doing community outreach. Because, I could do it too -
Me: Okay that's a good point. No need to threaten.
Apparently one of the residents at mother's retirement community has contracted the virus. No one she knew or has come into contact with. Never met the woman. But the woman does live the same apartment complex that her friends do - so she's a bit concerned about her friends and feels for them, they are 95 and 103 respectfully (her friends, not my mother). The woman who contracted the virus was living her life as if it didn't exist. Doing everything normally. She's apparently come down with a mild case - and may well have infected others. They've isolated her. At the least the complex is doing whatever it can to protect people.
My mother also apprised me of my brother's situation. He'd invited folks up that had been out on Fire Island, and were interacting socially, without much concern for the virus. He chose not to judge them. But he told them to respect his concerns, and to social distance and respect his family's health. Kind of similar to how I've been handling people in my apartment complex and laundry room.
But honestly, I don't think it is judgemental to tell someone they are being an inconsiderate for not wearing a mask and following the protocol.
Other than the virus, my family is doing fine. But that's kind of true of everyone at the moment isn't it? I mean we really are a "we" in this situation not an "I". To get out of it - we need to start thinking like a "We" and not an "I" and I think this is a very difficult concept for a lot of folks to wrap their heads around, particularly Americans, who are frustratingly individualist in their views and not really used to thinking in "we" terms.
What I don't understand - is all the people who walk around Greenwood Cemetery with their eyes on their cell phones. I mean - I get doing that on the subway, it's the subway, but in a beautiful green space, with birds, and wildlife, and statues...why?
People continue to bewilder me.
Other things..
Besides talking to my mother, I took a nap, kind of. I just rested my eyes. Also meditated, which is helping me keep the anxiety, depression and all those other toxic emotions in check. Envy is a toxic emotion, as is rage. But the meditation really helps. I do it through a Headspace app - that is run by a Tibetan Monk by way of Australia. I find his voice very comforting and calming.
Intercom is apparently fixed now - according to a sign on the door. I don't know if mine is - but I assume so. I don't really use it that often, most of the time, people leave the main entrance open - so when I do need to let someone in - it's not an issue. Also up until recently, I wasn't home long enough to get deliveries in this fashion.
I want more Saturday and less of Monday. Mondays are long, Saturdays always feel short. Even in the middle of a pandemic. Of course, I've been working through it - so that could be part of it. I'm debating giving myself a four day weekend at the end of July. But it would be a stay-cation, so I don't know. Maybe I should take three weeks in November - self-quarantine for fourteen days in a B&B or my brother's barn, then do Thanksgiving with him?
I'm trying not to think too far ahead, it's really hard to plan anything at the moment. [Oh, methinks I see and feel storm clouds rolling in.]
Leave you with..flowers..
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Date: 2020-07-12 02:53 pm (UTC)I've made it to the doctor, and gone grocery shopping, to the pharmacy, and spoken to the super's wife quite a bit. But I did everything but the doctor during the lock-down.