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shadowkatA good question - the Governor would state it is day 150 ...and others are going by weeks. I have no idea what week it is - I can count days, weeks is somehow beyond me. It took me a minute to figure out how many months - five. I'm on my fifth month in this seemingly endless situation, and I'd say seventh month on the roller-coaster ride from hell otherwise known as 2020.
I took a walk around Greenwood Cemetery tonight - seeing things that I hadn't seen before, such as the Steinway Mausoleum (for the piano) and the memorial for the TWA and United air collision that took over 386 souls in 1961 - with unidentifiable remains buried with name plaques above them and bushes commemorating each.
I found it oddly comforting and moving to look them, and had a tear in my eye. Human life valued and commemorated with bushes and green grass.
The walk for the most part was calm and peaceful, in the 80s with a bit of the breeze. I sweated through my mask, which I pulled down since no one was around, except for a few scattered souls that I'd stumble across occasionally, but sparse and easy enough to keep ten or more feet away from. (It's a rare thing to find an open green space without many New Yorkers traipsing about.) When we came into contact we pulled up or put on masks. The only noise outside of the birds was at one point a honking car horn...
Crazy Workplace
We were supposed to have two staff meetings today. A Safety Focus meeting which was hosted by the co-worker turned manager that is the frustrated screenwriter/Beatles fan (and also notable for writing rave reviews of my novel on Amazon and Barnes and Noble - he loved my book, which is high praise indeed, since he's a playwrite and frustrated screenwriter.) He's also the one who talked me into watching Breaking Bad. He also has a very dry sardonic wit and likes to make fun of things (in short he has the same sense of humor that I have, so generally speaking we get along rather well.). I don't know what to call him - possibly Walt, and leave it at that. That would amuse him, I suspect. The other meeting, during the Safety Focus Meeting, was postponed by boss to Friday morning - in the hopes that he would have actual results/news on critical events to update us on. (ie. Whether or not we're going to be forced to go back into the office en mass or something else equally dire. My poor traumatized department. At this point, we're all kind of numb.)
Walt: Before you come to the office, you have to do a self-check at home. Take your temperature, determine you are well and have none of the symptoms, although considering that they keep adding symptoms every day, I'm not sure how we'll avoid having symptoms. Soon it's going to include whether you get up in the morning and go to the bathroom. Or can sleep through the night. Also, they don't exactly ask you if you did it or keep track, nor do they really have any way of knowing that you actually did it.
Walt: They are somewhat paranoid - they take your temperature, and then you go up to the floor, there's hand sanitizers everywhere.And any building owned by the MTA that you enter - it's the same thing. [Yet, it has been proven that you can get this thing from people who have no symptoms.]
B: I read they did a recall on all the hand sanitizers with methol.
Walt: I'll just have to go back to using Whiskey then.
Me: Or Vodka.
Walt: Yeah, better yet Vodka - wasn't that what Trump told us all to drink to be clear of the virus?
Walt: We only have fifteen people on the floor, everyone is evenly spaced out every other row. No one next to each other. And we wear masks if we are near anyone.
Me: If we all came back would social distancing be possible?
Walt: No, definitely not. We aren't going to do that - we'll stick to the A&B plan. Half come in one week - the other half the next.
B: Safety said the cubicles were six feet apart.
Walt: Except if you share a cubicle wall with someone, it's not. So, no not really. And the cubical walls aren't that high. We have shared air.
Someone else: Some of the departments aren't following the protocol at all.
Various people: Yes, it's really weird. There's no consistency at all.
Walt: We've been so successful at the whole telecommuting thing - that I think it will be really odd if they don't continue it. Also, it's safer.
B: Yes, why would anyone want all these germ carriers that don't pay back on the trains?
Walt: Well, that's a PR thing - they all think we have to go back to work in solidarity - as if we aren't working now - they see us as lazy, and laying about home.
B: Yes, we've gone from hero to zero again.
Walt: Course the way this thing keeps mutating, we may never see each other again. Read in the paper this morning that there are four different strains.
B: I read six.
Walt: See, unlikely we'll ever get back in the office.
All: Thanks for the briefing Walt.
Walt: It's not really much of a briefing. I know nothing. I am the last to find out anything the agency does. (I had to tell Walt that boss had rescheduled the second staff meeting for Friday during the meeting, because Walt hadn't picked up on it - nor had someone else. ) We could all very well end up in the office next week..no clue.
I'm praying that Walt is right, and we don't.
Also, lovely, now I have two conference calls on Friday while men are tearing my kitchen wall apart and rewiring it. They aren't exactly quiet.
I'm dreading Friday at the moment. Decided to get a Foodkick order for Thursday, so I could use one of the prepared salads for Friday. I'll have no access to the kitchen on Friday.
I'd go up and visit my brother on Friday - and do the conference calls from his barn - but I don't know what his wifi is like up there. Also, it takes a full day to get up there.
I told all this to my mother.
Mother: Damn. If you go back into the office - then you can't really go visit your brother without risking bringing it to them.
Me: Yep.
Mother: You should go up this weekend.
Me: I can't. Two conference calls, and I'd be stressed out all weekend, he doesn't deserve my anxiety.
Mother: You're stuck. And you have no control over any of it.
Me: Nope. It's very disconcerting.
Meanwhile Dimi, co-worker who is an immigrant from Moscow, shared his vacation photos in Arcadia National Park, Maine with five of us.
ME: He went to Arcadia National Park Maine. Didn't we visit it one year?
Mother: We did, we stayed in the national park, in Bar Harbor.
Me: Right. I'd love to go. But can't.
Mother: You can't even get up to visit your brother.
ME: I wish I was a different person and had a car and could drive there.
But I would have to be a different person to do it. Damn it. Then of course I wouldn't be the wonderful person that I am, so never mind.
Ugh. I feel I did not prepare correctly for this crisis. I'd move, but I can't. I'd change jobs, but I can't. I'm kind of stuck.
Crazy Apartment Complex
I found out after I scheduled the Foodkick order that people around the building are having issues with the intercom. I thought it was fixed now - since I keep hearing buzzing. But apparently I can hear it but can't buzz people in or talk.
There's no a sign in the lobby stating that "Soon" we'll have a new intercom system for the entire building. I was reading it when someone came through the door in front of me and told me (with mask in place) that the intercoms aren't working - he appeared to be opening the door for me. I told him - that I knew that - I was reading the announcements on the door.
Also, apparently the exterminator - who was supposed to come yesterday is rescheduled for Friday - he came at 9:30 pm last night, so the Super cancelled him and rescheduled it.
Lovely, everything is happening on Friday. I put down my apt # and mice next to it. In the hopes that maybe he can do something about the mice - if not the guys working in the kitchen most likely will. That's where the mouse was discovered. I've been told that they barricade me in my apartment and seal off the kitchen and hall from me. With a wall of plastic between us. Mother suggested I grab cleansers and after they leave thoroughly clean stuff with bleach.
The good news is my work station is more than six feet away from the entrance to the kitchen, as is the bathroom and bedroom and armchair and tv. But I really was hoping I'd be in the office when they did it. (Yes, I know the timing couldn't be more ironic.)
Plus two stressful and confusing conference calls. The morning staff meeting, and the Rail Yard Change Order discussion. Ugga Bugga. One day at a time. One day at a time. Thursday is busy on its own since the plan is to clean out kitchen, get food delivery, and do laundry, along with work and hopefully a walk. I may have to ditch the walk.
There was also a really loud, yet muffled disagreement in the hallway tonight between a tenant and the Super - where the tenant stated that he'd been threatened by the landlord, and people had knocked on his door in the middle of the night - threatening to evict him and his family, and threatening to call the police. He had a family with five children - you can't do that. The acoustics in the hallways make it possible for you to hear anything in them - which is why no one talks or does anything in the hallways normally. It's actually a very quite complex.
To cheer myself up today, I listened to the top songs in South Korea on Apple Music, then got bored of Taylor Swift (which for some reason is popular over there) and switched to various singers and songwriters playlists. Swift's new album folklore has a much better title than her songs. In short her songs do not live up to the promise of the album. Swift, as one co-worker put it, songs all sound alike - she's either breaking up with her boyfriend, or in love with her boyfriend. The only halfway interesting one is "cardigan". I can quickly tell if an artist is worth my time - based on how varied their songs are. A lot of songs are better than the artist - in that I like one or two songs they wrote, and often better if sung by someone else. But not much else. That's Swift, I like about one or two songs that she wrote, and that's about it. Parton, like Dylan is one of those artists that writes great songs but honestly has a horrible singing voice, and I'd rather listen to other people sing them, with few exceptions. But both are great and versatile artists.
Sorry for the segue. [I wanted to use segway, but apparently that's a trademarked name for an electronic vehicular device and not the correct usage.] I listen to music all day long - it keeps me focused and sane. I got into the habit of listening to music while working or studying in Junior High School, possibly earlier than that.
I have these little coping mechanisms that I've adopted for anxiety, etc.
* Meditation every morning
* Stick to a routine
* Write in a journal
* Call family members - mother, niece, text brother
* Go to Zoom church services
* CBD gummies and happy pills
They are working. So far. We'll see what happens when the routine gets disrupted again.
New York vs. the Corona Virus
As predicted, the number of deaths from the virus in the US has topped 150,000, which I knew it was going to do before the end of July. My prediction is by the end of August/September, we'll be at 200,000. I wish I was wrong about this - but any fool who can read a pattern - can predict it, well except for the idiots running things. We really need to stop electing dumb white men and women with military fetishes to office.
In an effort to help - In response to Florida's current surge in COVID cases, New York sent the City of St. Petersburg thousands of pieces of PPE along with teams to set up a new testing site.
The testing site is located at Pinellas Community Church and will provide up to 500 tests per day. St. Pete residents can make an appointment to get tested by calling 833-697-4352. New York will continue to offer our assistance to states and cities in need — just as others helped us when we needed it most.
And I donated more money to McGrath's campaign against McConnell, whom I've decided is the demon spawn. This was actually to help her get the ballot process changed in Kentucky. We really need to do mail in ballots across the board - Colorado did it and was successful. November is going to be a nightmare.
1. The men's U.S. Open Championship will be held at Winged Food Golf Club in Mamaroneck from Sept. 14-20 without fans. The USGA will put protocols in place to protect players and staff, including rigorous procedures for testing, cleaning, use of face coverings and social distancing. [I'm not sure if this is the Golf or Tennis, guessing Golf.]
2. DMV-licensed driving schools can now conduct Pre-Licensing Courses online. Due to the COVID-19 public health crisis, driving schools across the state have been unable to offer the Pre-Licensing Course — also known as the five-hour course — to students. In order to safely meet the demand for driver training while adhering to social distancing guidelines, the DMV has issued guidance to driving schools allowing them to conduct the driver's ed courses using technology such as Zoom and WebEx.[My niece got her permit. My brother told his wife that she got to take over the driving lessons with niece, to which, sister-in-law balked.]
3. The number of total hospitalizations fell slightly. Yesterday, there were 619 total hospitalizations. The State conducted 62,276 tests, of which 715, or 1.14%, were positive. Sadly, we lost 5 New Yorkers to the virus. [So if there are 715 cases in NY, and went into lockdown with 612.....then again, our testing capacity wasn't very high back then, we could only test 400 people at time, so out of 1000, it was 612, this is out of 62,276.]
4. Today, I issued a letter to New York's Congressional Delegation calling on them to ensure $500 billion in unrestricted state aid is included in any Senate passed relief package. States need federal assistance to help fight against this virus and I urge our representatives in Washington to make sure that states receive this critical funding. Read my letter here. [Yes, we need $500 Billion - my agency is 16 billion in debt. 500 billion would save the States. Stop giving it to greedy weapons makers and killers, please.]
5. This week is Census Week. It's important that every New Yorker responds to the Census and tomorrow, July 30th, is "Friends and Family Day." I urge you to not only fill out the Census yourself (you can do it online), but to text or call 10 people and remind them to complete the Census too. Let's make sure every New Yorker is counted. [This is beginning to give me a complex - I did it back in March. Honestly, if you've done it - shouldn't they give you a sticker or something? So you don't accidentally do it again.]
Tonight's "Deep Breath Moment": Albany has its very own Spider-Man, but it's not Peter Parker — it's Ben Bohl, a Spider-Man impersonator from Schenectady. Bohl has been dressing up as the web slinger since he was a child, and would make appearances at children's birthday parties as a teenager. To stay active during the pandemic, he started doing tricks on street signs throughout the county. [LOL! Tricks on street signs?]
I leave you with...
I took a walk around Greenwood Cemetery tonight - seeing things that I hadn't seen before, such as the Steinway Mausoleum (for the piano) and the memorial for the TWA and United air collision that took over 386 souls in 1961 - with unidentifiable remains buried with name plaques above them and bushes commemorating each.
I found it oddly comforting and moving to look them, and had a tear in my eye. Human life valued and commemorated with bushes and green grass.
The walk for the most part was calm and peaceful, in the 80s with a bit of the breeze. I sweated through my mask, which I pulled down since no one was around, except for a few scattered souls that I'd stumble across occasionally, but sparse and easy enough to keep ten or more feet away from. (It's a rare thing to find an open green space without many New Yorkers traipsing about.) When we came into contact we pulled up or put on masks. The only noise outside of the birds was at one point a honking car horn...
Crazy Workplace
We were supposed to have two staff meetings today. A Safety Focus meeting which was hosted by the co-worker turned manager that is the frustrated screenwriter/Beatles fan (and also notable for writing rave reviews of my novel on Amazon and Barnes and Noble - he loved my book, which is high praise indeed, since he's a playwrite and frustrated screenwriter.) He's also the one who talked me into watching Breaking Bad. He also has a very dry sardonic wit and likes to make fun of things (in short he has the same sense of humor that I have, so generally speaking we get along rather well.). I don't know what to call him - possibly Walt, and leave it at that. That would amuse him, I suspect. The other meeting, during the Safety Focus Meeting, was postponed by boss to Friday morning - in the hopes that he would have actual results/news on critical events to update us on. (ie. Whether or not we're going to be forced to go back into the office en mass or something else equally dire. My poor traumatized department. At this point, we're all kind of numb.)
Walt: Before you come to the office, you have to do a self-check at home. Take your temperature, determine you are well and have none of the symptoms, although considering that they keep adding symptoms every day, I'm not sure how we'll avoid having symptoms. Soon it's going to include whether you get up in the morning and go to the bathroom. Or can sleep through the night. Also, they don't exactly ask you if you did it or keep track, nor do they really have any way of knowing that you actually did it.
Walt: They are somewhat paranoid - they take your temperature, and then you go up to the floor, there's hand sanitizers everywhere.And any building owned by the MTA that you enter - it's the same thing. [Yet, it has been proven that you can get this thing from people who have no symptoms.]
B: I read they did a recall on all the hand sanitizers with methol.
Walt: I'll just have to go back to using Whiskey then.
Me: Or Vodka.
Walt: Yeah, better yet Vodka - wasn't that what Trump told us all to drink to be clear of the virus?
Walt: We only have fifteen people on the floor, everyone is evenly spaced out every other row. No one next to each other. And we wear masks if we are near anyone.
Me: If we all came back would social distancing be possible?
Walt: No, definitely not. We aren't going to do that - we'll stick to the A&B plan. Half come in one week - the other half the next.
B: Safety said the cubicles were six feet apart.
Walt: Except if you share a cubicle wall with someone, it's not. So, no not really. And the cubical walls aren't that high. We have shared air.
Someone else: Some of the departments aren't following the protocol at all.
Various people: Yes, it's really weird. There's no consistency at all.
Walt: We've been so successful at the whole telecommuting thing - that I think it will be really odd if they don't continue it. Also, it's safer.
B: Yes, why would anyone want all these germ carriers that don't pay back on the trains?
Walt: Well, that's a PR thing - they all think we have to go back to work in solidarity - as if we aren't working now - they see us as lazy, and laying about home.
B: Yes, we've gone from hero to zero again.
Walt: Course the way this thing keeps mutating, we may never see each other again. Read in the paper this morning that there are four different strains.
B: I read six.
Walt: See, unlikely we'll ever get back in the office.
All: Thanks for the briefing Walt.
Walt: It's not really much of a briefing. I know nothing. I am the last to find out anything the agency does. (I had to tell Walt that boss had rescheduled the second staff meeting for Friday during the meeting, because Walt hadn't picked up on it - nor had someone else. ) We could all very well end up in the office next week..no clue.
I'm praying that Walt is right, and we don't.
Also, lovely, now I have two conference calls on Friday while men are tearing my kitchen wall apart and rewiring it. They aren't exactly quiet.
I'm dreading Friday at the moment. Decided to get a Foodkick order for Thursday, so I could use one of the prepared salads for Friday. I'll have no access to the kitchen on Friday.
I'd go up and visit my brother on Friday - and do the conference calls from his barn - but I don't know what his wifi is like up there. Also, it takes a full day to get up there.
I told all this to my mother.
Mother: Damn. If you go back into the office - then you can't really go visit your brother without risking bringing it to them.
Me: Yep.
Mother: You should go up this weekend.
Me: I can't. Two conference calls, and I'd be stressed out all weekend, he doesn't deserve my anxiety.
Mother: You're stuck. And you have no control over any of it.
Me: Nope. It's very disconcerting.
Meanwhile Dimi, co-worker who is an immigrant from Moscow, shared his vacation photos in Arcadia National Park, Maine with five of us.
ME: He went to Arcadia National Park Maine. Didn't we visit it one year?
Mother: We did, we stayed in the national park, in Bar Harbor.
Me: Right. I'd love to go. But can't.
Mother: You can't even get up to visit your brother.
ME: I wish I was a different person and had a car and could drive there.
But I would have to be a different person to do it. Damn it. Then of course I wouldn't be the wonderful person that I am, so never mind.
Ugh. I feel I did not prepare correctly for this crisis. I'd move, but I can't. I'd change jobs, but I can't. I'm kind of stuck.
Crazy Apartment Complex
I found out after I scheduled the Foodkick order that people around the building are having issues with the intercom. I thought it was fixed now - since I keep hearing buzzing. But apparently I can hear it but can't buzz people in or talk.
There's no a sign in the lobby stating that "Soon" we'll have a new intercom system for the entire building. I was reading it when someone came through the door in front of me and told me (with mask in place) that the intercoms aren't working - he appeared to be opening the door for me. I told him - that I knew that - I was reading the announcements on the door.
Also, apparently the exterminator - who was supposed to come yesterday is rescheduled for Friday - he came at 9:30 pm last night, so the Super cancelled him and rescheduled it.
Lovely, everything is happening on Friday. I put down my apt # and mice next to it. In the hopes that maybe he can do something about the mice - if not the guys working in the kitchen most likely will. That's where the mouse was discovered. I've been told that they barricade me in my apartment and seal off the kitchen and hall from me. With a wall of plastic between us. Mother suggested I grab cleansers and after they leave thoroughly clean stuff with bleach.
The good news is my work station is more than six feet away from the entrance to the kitchen, as is the bathroom and bedroom and armchair and tv. But I really was hoping I'd be in the office when they did it. (Yes, I know the timing couldn't be more ironic.)
Plus two stressful and confusing conference calls. The morning staff meeting, and the Rail Yard Change Order discussion. Ugga Bugga. One day at a time. One day at a time. Thursday is busy on its own since the plan is to clean out kitchen, get food delivery, and do laundry, along with work and hopefully a walk. I may have to ditch the walk.
There was also a really loud, yet muffled disagreement in the hallway tonight between a tenant and the Super - where the tenant stated that he'd been threatened by the landlord, and people had knocked on his door in the middle of the night - threatening to evict him and his family, and threatening to call the police. He had a family with five children - you can't do that. The acoustics in the hallways make it possible for you to hear anything in them - which is why no one talks or does anything in the hallways normally. It's actually a very quite complex.
To cheer myself up today, I listened to the top songs in South Korea on Apple Music, then got bored of Taylor Swift (which for some reason is popular over there) and switched to various singers and songwriters playlists. Swift's new album folklore has a much better title than her songs. In short her songs do not live up to the promise of the album. Swift, as one co-worker put it, songs all sound alike - she's either breaking up with her boyfriend, or in love with her boyfriend. The only halfway interesting one is "cardigan". I can quickly tell if an artist is worth my time - based on how varied their songs are. A lot of songs are better than the artist - in that I like one or two songs they wrote, and often better if sung by someone else. But not much else. That's Swift, I like about one or two songs that she wrote, and that's about it. Parton, like Dylan is one of those artists that writes great songs but honestly has a horrible singing voice, and I'd rather listen to other people sing them, with few exceptions. But both are great and versatile artists.
Sorry for the segue. [I wanted to use segway, but apparently that's a trademarked name for an electronic vehicular device and not the correct usage.] I listen to music all day long - it keeps me focused and sane. I got into the habit of listening to music while working or studying in Junior High School, possibly earlier than that.
I have these little coping mechanisms that I've adopted for anxiety, etc.
* Meditation every morning
* Stick to a routine
* Write in a journal
* Call family members - mother, niece, text brother
* Go to Zoom church services
* CBD gummies and happy pills
They are working. So far. We'll see what happens when the routine gets disrupted again.
New York vs. the Corona Virus
As predicted, the number of deaths from the virus in the US has topped 150,000, which I knew it was going to do before the end of July. My prediction is by the end of August/September, we'll be at 200,000. I wish I was wrong about this - but any fool who can read a pattern - can predict it, well except for the idiots running things. We really need to stop electing dumb white men and women with military fetishes to office.
In an effort to help - In response to Florida's current surge in COVID cases, New York sent the City of St. Petersburg thousands of pieces of PPE along with teams to set up a new testing site.
The testing site is located at Pinellas Community Church and will provide up to 500 tests per day. St. Pete residents can make an appointment to get tested by calling 833-697-4352. New York will continue to offer our assistance to states and cities in need — just as others helped us when we needed it most.
And I donated more money to McGrath's campaign against McConnell, whom I've decided is the demon spawn. This was actually to help her get the ballot process changed in Kentucky. We really need to do mail in ballots across the board - Colorado did it and was successful. November is going to be a nightmare.
1. The men's U.S. Open Championship will be held at Winged Food Golf Club in Mamaroneck from Sept. 14-20 without fans. The USGA will put protocols in place to protect players and staff, including rigorous procedures for testing, cleaning, use of face coverings and social distancing. [I'm not sure if this is the Golf or Tennis, guessing Golf.]
2. DMV-licensed driving schools can now conduct Pre-Licensing Courses online. Due to the COVID-19 public health crisis, driving schools across the state have been unable to offer the Pre-Licensing Course — also known as the five-hour course — to students. In order to safely meet the demand for driver training while adhering to social distancing guidelines, the DMV has issued guidance to driving schools allowing them to conduct the driver's ed courses using technology such as Zoom and WebEx.[My niece got her permit. My brother told his wife that she got to take over the driving lessons with niece, to which, sister-in-law balked.]
3. The number of total hospitalizations fell slightly. Yesterday, there were 619 total hospitalizations. The State conducted 62,276 tests, of which 715, or 1.14%, were positive. Sadly, we lost 5 New Yorkers to the virus. [So if there are 715 cases in NY, and went into lockdown with 612.....then again, our testing capacity wasn't very high back then, we could only test 400 people at time, so out of 1000, it was 612, this is out of 62,276.]
4. Today, I issued a letter to New York's Congressional Delegation calling on them to ensure $500 billion in unrestricted state aid is included in any Senate passed relief package. States need federal assistance to help fight against this virus and I urge our representatives in Washington to make sure that states receive this critical funding. Read my letter here. [Yes, we need $500 Billion - my agency is 16 billion in debt. 500 billion would save the States. Stop giving it to greedy weapons makers and killers, please.]
5. This week is Census Week. It's important that every New Yorker responds to the Census and tomorrow, July 30th, is "Friends and Family Day." I urge you to not only fill out the Census yourself (you can do it online), but to text or call 10 people and remind them to complete the Census too. Let's make sure every New Yorker is counted. [This is beginning to give me a complex - I did it back in March. Honestly, if you've done it - shouldn't they give you a sticker or something? So you don't accidentally do it again.]
Tonight's "Deep Breath Moment": Albany has its very own Spider-Man, but it's not Peter Parker — it's Ben Bohl, a Spider-Man impersonator from Schenectady. Bohl has been dressing up as the web slinger since he was a child, and would make appearances at children's birthday parties as a teenager. To stay active during the pandemic, he started doing tricks on street signs throughout the county. [LOL! Tricks on street signs?]
I leave you with...
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Date: 2020-07-30 02:29 am (UTC)I do it every morning now. I used to do it after work, but now that I'm working from home - I do it before work.
And routine helps. Work is giving me a routine and I've stuck to the imposed routine that I had at work - just cut out the commute.
Without it? I think I'd spiral. I was starting to spiral last week - when we were told that we might have to go back into the office. I started having panic attacks. But with the help of meditation, long walks, yoga, and CBD, I was able to get it under control. (Winged has great CBD gummies.)
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Date: 2020-07-30 08:50 am (UTC)