Day #332...Still Here, Kind of...
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shadowkatI suppose I should say Happy Valentine's Day to those who practice? My neighbor wished me one, so I wished her one back. She's an old Russian Woman who speaks very little English.
I took a very brief walk around the block today - it was gray and ugly out, with melting snow glaciers, and slush. Not a good day for the Cemetery.
Still having troubles focusing - I think I've finally hit a wall of sorts? Mother called, and I told her I was depressed. Lonely and depressed. Valentine's Day is kind of hard when you are single, alone, during a pandemic. It's not exactly easily normally.
Mother called father, and wished him a happy Valentine's Day.
Father: I didn't get you anything.
Mother: No worries, I didn't get you anything either. But I wanted you to know that you are still my Valentine.
Father: And you are still mine.
They are separated by about a mile. He's in lockdown at a rehab/nursing care facility, while she's in lockdown at her home, with home health care aids.
It's all rather painful and depressing. But I still have them. And they are in a nice place, and it could be so much worse.
Mother also talked to sis-in-law today - and discovered that her post about losing people during a pandemic on Instagram wasn't about this pandemic but the AIDS pandemic. This one was reminding her of how many she lost in the last one.
The AIDS pandemic was heart-breaking, in part, because a lot of people were selfish assholes during it and did not care.
Human default appears to be selfish asshole. But many do choose not to give in to that. I have a friend who is working to help give out vaccines in her POD. And bakes meals for folks. I kind of feel pathetic. Did see the mouse again. He's kind of cute. Little brown mouse, with little ears, and a little tail. I put down more mint tea-bags. They hate mint.
Catching him is beyond me. And no, I don't want to invest in mice traps or sound thingies - been there done that. It didn't work.
Mother is watching the Mandalorian - primarily for Baby Yoda. LOL!
I'm kind of dreading work next week. New project may be more problematic than expected, not sure yet. Today, I'm just vegging mostly. And feeling grateful that I'm not famous, have only a few followers on Twitter (I have more on Instagram - because I'm better at taking photos than mean snarky one-liners.).
This week reminded me once again ...of something my church's Minister said ages ago..."Be careful who you worship - because you will worship something." I worship the Universe (although I've never been much into worshipping anything and have issues with the word). It's amazing. And all encompassing, and connects all of us. And inside every soul on the planet.
People? Are flawed. And will disappoint. They will always disappoint. We can all be assholes - given the correct circumstances.
That said, people can also be kind and stand up for each other in difficult circumstances. I get hope from that.
I leave you with a close up of the feral cat that I've nicknamed Spunky Kitty - who lurks in the backyard of my apartment complex, and I got out on the street today.
I took a very brief walk around the block today - it was gray and ugly out, with melting snow glaciers, and slush. Not a good day for the Cemetery.
Still having troubles focusing - I think I've finally hit a wall of sorts? Mother called, and I told her I was depressed. Lonely and depressed. Valentine's Day is kind of hard when you are single, alone, during a pandemic. It's not exactly easily normally.
Mother called father, and wished him a happy Valentine's Day.
Father: I didn't get you anything.
Mother: No worries, I didn't get you anything either. But I wanted you to know that you are still my Valentine.
Father: And you are still mine.
They are separated by about a mile. He's in lockdown at a rehab/nursing care facility, while she's in lockdown at her home, with home health care aids.
It's all rather painful and depressing. But I still have them. And they are in a nice place, and it could be so much worse.
Mother also talked to sis-in-law today - and discovered that her post about losing people during a pandemic on Instagram wasn't about this pandemic but the AIDS pandemic. This one was reminding her of how many she lost in the last one.
The AIDS pandemic was heart-breaking, in part, because a lot of people were selfish assholes during it and did not care.
Human default appears to be selfish asshole. But many do choose not to give in to that. I have a friend who is working to help give out vaccines in her POD. And bakes meals for folks. I kind of feel pathetic. Did see the mouse again. He's kind of cute. Little brown mouse, with little ears, and a little tail. I put down more mint tea-bags. They hate mint.
Catching him is beyond me. And no, I don't want to invest in mice traps or sound thingies - been there done that. It didn't work.
Mother is watching the Mandalorian - primarily for Baby Yoda. LOL!
I'm kind of dreading work next week. New project may be more problematic than expected, not sure yet. Today, I'm just vegging mostly. And feeling grateful that I'm not famous, have only a few followers on Twitter (I have more on Instagram - because I'm better at taking photos than mean snarky one-liners.).
This week reminded me once again ...of something my church's Minister said ages ago..."Be careful who you worship - because you will worship something." I worship the Universe (although I've never been much into worshipping anything and have issues with the word). It's amazing. And all encompassing, and connects all of us. And inside every soul on the planet.
People? Are flawed. And will disappoint. They will always disappoint. We can all be assholes - given the correct circumstances.
That said, people can also be kind and stand up for each other in difficult circumstances. I get hope from that.
I leave you with a close up of the feral cat that I've nicknamed Spunky Kitty - who lurks in the backyard of my apartment complex, and I got out on the street today.
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