State of me, kind of...
Nov. 2nd, 2022 09:42 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
shadowkatChidi: You blew me away with your analysis on the film TAR.
Me: Really? Okay...
Chidi:You figured out who Krysta was - and that she was the other assistant, and how she was texting with Francesca at the beginning of the film - that just blew me away. How'd you even begin to figure that out on first viewing?
ME: It's how I think? I did a process of elimination, and picked up on various pieces of dialogue, and the pattern - and saw it...
Also the film is written logically.
I continue to be surprised by people's reactions to things that I do, which to me are kind of ordinary or come naturally? I was to a degree taught to think like this by my parents and family, also college.
But analysis comes easily to me, along with strategic analysis. It's kind of like walking. I have an facility for it. Like some folk do with languages?
I have to remind myself that not everyone thinks logically and/or analytically.
**
Ex-college boy friend keeps posting pictures of himself in a blond whig, and velvet blue suite with cravat. I think he went as Fred from Scooby Doo for Halloween? In actuality he looks like Keanu Reeves pretending to be a 1960s rock star from the Glam Days.
Ex-college boyfriend bares a very close resemblance to Keanu Reeves and always has - which is why I have issues with Keanu Reeves. (Not at all fair to Keanu.)
Things ex-college boyfriend had ruined for me for years:
Flex Shampoo
Keanu Reeves
The Grateful Dead (he was a Dead Head)
Bob Dylan
I moved past most of that about twenty years ago, well except for Keanu Reeves.
I know, weird, but there you go.
Meanwhile Spike reminds me of various people I loved as a kid. My Aunt's boyfriend with the leather jacket, a neighborhood boy who was cute, and a guy in college who I wrote my thesis beside in the library at 2 am in the morning.
It's funny how we can like or dislike actors and/or fictional characters based on current or past relationships with folks they resemble.
***
Everything aches. I'm considering a hot shower. I blame being hunched over my computer and phone all day long under pressure.
I feel overwhelmed by the world and my life at the moment. There's too much of everything it seems, and not enough of anything that provides true comfort. Also far too much change, constantly. It's as if everyone is constantly trying to improve things - I wish they'd just stop for a bit. Things are getting worse. It's not working. Stop trying to fix it or improve it. You are fucking it up. And just making it worse.
I woke up at 5:37 am this morning, before the alarm at 5:45 am. I decided to just get up, going back to sleep wasn't going to help. I keep waking up two or three times in the night. I think it was just twice last night - so progress. Combination of digestive issues, leg cramps (most likely related to digestive issues) and hot flashes (which may or may not be related to digestive issues.) Also shooting pain in bunion just below left big toe during the day. And inside left knee - clearly the digestive nerve. And restless legs now - also digestive issues. Sigh - the gut causes all my worries. I need to re-evaluate what I'm eating.
Need to figure out doctor's appointments next Tuesday. I had to move my eye doctor from October to November 8, election day, right after the primary care doctor - or rather an hour and a half after. They are an 11 minute walk from each other, so there's that. But, I have to fast for the primary care - so I'll need to get something to eat immediately afterwards, then jog down to the other doctor. I wanted to take the following day off work as well - but can't. Doing the Monday before Election Day, and hopefully this Friday instead. Fudge, work is making it tough to plan vacation or personal time. I can't even schedule my days any longer. I feel as if I'm caught in the middle of a gale storm at work and can't maneuver my way out.
Me: Really? Okay...
Chidi:You figured out who Krysta was - and that she was the other assistant, and how she was texting with Francesca at the beginning of the film - that just blew me away. How'd you even begin to figure that out on first viewing?
ME: It's how I think? I did a process of elimination, and picked up on various pieces of dialogue, and the pattern - and saw it...
Also the film is written logically.
I continue to be surprised by people's reactions to things that I do, which to me are kind of ordinary or come naturally? I was to a degree taught to think like this by my parents and family, also college.
But analysis comes easily to me, along with strategic analysis. It's kind of like walking. I have an facility for it. Like some folk do with languages?
I have to remind myself that not everyone thinks logically and/or analytically.
**
Ex-college boy friend keeps posting pictures of himself in a blond whig, and velvet blue suite with cravat. I think he went as Fred from Scooby Doo for Halloween? In actuality he looks like Keanu Reeves pretending to be a 1960s rock star from the Glam Days.
Ex-college boyfriend bares a very close resemblance to Keanu Reeves and always has - which is why I have issues with Keanu Reeves. (Not at all fair to Keanu.)
Things ex-college boyfriend had ruined for me for years:
Flex Shampoo
Keanu Reeves
The Grateful Dead (he was a Dead Head)
Bob Dylan
I moved past most of that about twenty years ago, well except for Keanu Reeves.
I know, weird, but there you go.
Meanwhile Spike reminds me of various people I loved as a kid. My Aunt's boyfriend with the leather jacket, a neighborhood boy who was cute, and a guy in college who I wrote my thesis beside in the library at 2 am in the morning.
It's funny how we can like or dislike actors and/or fictional characters based on current or past relationships with folks they resemble.
***
Everything aches. I'm considering a hot shower. I blame being hunched over my computer and phone all day long under pressure.
I feel overwhelmed by the world and my life at the moment. There's too much of everything it seems, and not enough of anything that provides true comfort. Also far too much change, constantly. It's as if everyone is constantly trying to improve things - I wish they'd just stop for a bit. Things are getting worse. It's not working. Stop trying to fix it or improve it. You are fucking it up. And just making it worse.
I woke up at 5:37 am this morning, before the alarm at 5:45 am. I decided to just get up, going back to sleep wasn't going to help. I keep waking up two or three times in the night. I think it was just twice last night - so progress. Combination of digestive issues, leg cramps (most likely related to digestive issues) and hot flashes (which may or may not be related to digestive issues.) Also shooting pain in bunion just below left big toe during the day. And inside left knee - clearly the digestive nerve. And restless legs now - also digestive issues. Sigh - the gut causes all my worries. I need to re-evaluate what I'm eating.
Need to figure out doctor's appointments next Tuesday. I had to move my eye doctor from October to November 8, election day, right after the primary care doctor - or rather an hour and a half after. They are an 11 minute walk from each other, so there's that. But, I have to fast for the primary care - so I'll need to get something to eat immediately afterwards, then jog down to the other doctor. I wanted to take the following day off work as well - but can't. Doing the Monday before Election Day, and hopefully this Friday instead. Fudge, work is making it tough to plan vacation or personal time. I can't even schedule my days any longer. I feel as if I'm caught in the middle of a gale storm at work and can't maneuver my way out.
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Date: 2022-11-03 10:24 am (UTC)I find that hard to overlook! What a wonderful world it would be, if they did.