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shadowkatWales: You aren't ...what's the word? Showboat? You know a boat, it makes waves..
Me: Not into being the center of attention? Shows?
Wales: Making waves. You don't want to make waves. You just want to be left alone to do your job and write your books on the side...and I totally get that, because I'm like that too - well not the writing part.
Me: I also want to help people. Why is this so difficult to do?
Wales: I don't know. Be nice if they let us.
Me: Too many frigging narcissists in this world craving attention.
Mother called today, several times. Anyhow, apparently my niece got back together with her boyfriend. They missed each other - and he came up to NYC and they got together, had fun, and made up. He also backed off of the whole DC thing.
Again, not that surprising. She wants to travel - and she doesn't really have anyone else to do it with but him. Alone isn't what she wants to do. (Like I did and still do. It's doable, just difficult.) Plus as I told mother, they traveled extensively together. Not only that, they traveled with each others families. If you can do that - you are pretty solid. That's how you find out if things work - traveling with the other person.
Ex-college boyfriend and I broke up after we took an insane road trip to California on my dollar. (Ironic considering his parents had more money than mine and he had more.) I wrote a short story about it for a class - my creative writing professor told me it was interesting and well done, but almost too easy for me. He knew I could do better. (I've gotten these bizarre back-handed complaints on my writing my entire life. It makes me wonder about people sometimes. It's almost as if they love my writing but are annoyed that I'm not writing the story they want to read or is in their heads. Well, of course not, I'm writing the story I want to read and is in my head. I'm not telepathic.)
Anyhow, what happened? We decided to do a ride-share from Colorado to California for spring break. It was a volkswagon rabbit pickup that had seen better days, but without seats in the back and a screwed on metal cover. We used blankets and pillows in the back, and kind built ourselves a traveling bed. I think we did have an air mattress. The ride was 13-16 hours across Colorado, Utah, Nevada,and through the Donner Pass. Actually the volkswagon broke down on the Donner Pass, and we had to wait for it to be fixed or get picked up to be taken to Sacramento. Then his friend picked us up and took us to Santa Cruz - where we did shrooms. (I never understood the appeal - I've had similar and far better highs running five miles. ) During which, I overheard a conversation with his friend - where he accused me of playing mind-games. (Note - ex-college boyfriend grew up to become a psychologist - basically he now plays mind-games for a living. He's very good at it - that guy was emotionally and mentally manipulative. If it weren't for his roommate back in Colorado, I'd never have been paid back.) The ride back was bizarre, one minute he was talking about breaking up with me, the next making out.
I no longer remember much more than that - the fact that I do remember it clearly - has more to do with the fact that I wrote a story about it, then that it was memorable. It was painful at the time. Now, it's just an amusing story.
The Crown S4
Been binge-watching S4 of the Crown today. Mainly because I couldn't get into it last year, not in the mood. But now - I was. It fit my mood perfectly. Also, I found it to be oddly comforting. Mainly because - it gets across how temporary everything is. In the Crown, there's several conversations between members of the royal family that get across...how many Prime Ministers they've seen come and go. That things change. And we go on.
Everything in life is temporary. It doesn't last. Have a bad day today? Don't worry too much - you'll most likely forget it in a week or two, or even a year.
Relationships shift and change, work places do, environment, buildings, weather, climate, politics, everything. It's kind of reassuring in a way.
If I don't like something - I needn't worry too much about it - it'll be gone tomorrow - even if that tomorrow is ten years from now or longer.
For Now from Avenue Q
"Life may be scary but it's only temporary..."
"Don't stress,
Relax,
Let life roll off your backs
Except for death and paying taxes,
Everything in life is only for now!"
And it's one of the things that age teaches me and everyone, I guess, that it is temporary. My father's death brought that home to me. As has all of the retirements and changes in my work place.
So, watching the Crown, is comforting in a way. Partly because it gets across how much things change over time, and partly because I am very glad I'm not in the Royal Family.
BTW - the casting in S4 of Prince Charles and Diana is spot on. They really resemble both. Also both are tall and hunch over a lot. I'm not sure how the actress in S5 will work -- she's 6'3 playing a Diana who is 5'10. Of course, Prince Charles is also 5'10, and Dominic West is 6 foot.
***
Mother also called to tell me about my cousin's funeral. (She'd gotten hold of my Aunt C, who related the details.)
Apparently they had it on the beach. Aunt K's son M, and his two boys made paper airplanes and sent them out to sea. They also had a boat, with flowers on it. About three uncles, two aunts, outside of K, and her sons were in attendance.
Mother also informed me that Aunt C's kid (the one who animated Baby Yoda for Disney) wants to get a breast reduction.
Me: Only way I'm getting surgery is if it is a life or death situation -
Mother: Or you need a knee replacement -
Me: Or I can't walk
Mother: Or cataracts -
Me: Or it's either that or I can't see.
But it's not going to be for anything cosmetic or elective. It must be necessary. Too many things can go wrong. Heaven forbid, the surgeon has a bad day or a bully for a boss.
**
On diabetes bit, I've been informed that I need to have a carb and a protein at every meal, or my blood sugar could crash. Also, I should have a carb or something in between - little things, to keep the sugar from crashing. My grandmother had graham crackers late in the day.
I can't be on a paeolo or keto related diet - it will kill me. Diabetics can't do no-carb diets, we need carbs to keep our blood sugar regulated.
So, bought broccoli, yams (a kind of sweet potato - they didn't have straight sweet potatoes), dandelion greens, green onion, red onion, gluten-free english muffins, gluten-free quinoa and ancient grain sourdough bread,
gluten-free almond flour pancake mix, oatmeal, almond flour ravioli, and a small thing of grapefruit juice.
Hopefully that'll help. May need to go again on Monday.
Off to bed. Getting late.
Me: Not into being the center of attention? Shows?
Wales: Making waves. You don't want to make waves. You just want to be left alone to do your job and write your books on the side...and I totally get that, because I'm like that too - well not the writing part.
Me: I also want to help people. Why is this so difficult to do?
Wales: I don't know. Be nice if they let us.
Me: Too many frigging narcissists in this world craving attention.
Mother called today, several times. Anyhow, apparently my niece got back together with her boyfriend. They missed each other - and he came up to NYC and they got together, had fun, and made up. He also backed off of the whole DC thing.
Again, not that surprising. She wants to travel - and she doesn't really have anyone else to do it with but him. Alone isn't what she wants to do. (Like I did and still do. It's doable, just difficult.) Plus as I told mother, they traveled extensively together. Not only that, they traveled with each others families. If you can do that - you are pretty solid. That's how you find out if things work - traveling with the other person.
Ex-college boyfriend and I broke up after we took an insane road trip to California on my dollar. (Ironic considering his parents had more money than mine and he had more.) I wrote a short story about it for a class - my creative writing professor told me it was interesting and well done, but almost too easy for me. He knew I could do better. (I've gotten these bizarre back-handed complaints on my writing my entire life. It makes me wonder about people sometimes. It's almost as if they love my writing but are annoyed that I'm not writing the story they want to read or is in their heads. Well, of course not, I'm writing the story I want to read and is in my head. I'm not telepathic.)
Anyhow, what happened? We decided to do a ride-share from Colorado to California for spring break. It was a volkswagon rabbit pickup that had seen better days, but without seats in the back and a screwed on metal cover. We used blankets and pillows in the back, and kind built ourselves a traveling bed. I think we did have an air mattress. The ride was 13-16 hours across Colorado, Utah, Nevada,and through the Donner Pass. Actually the volkswagon broke down on the Donner Pass, and we had to wait for it to be fixed or get picked up to be taken to Sacramento. Then his friend picked us up and took us to Santa Cruz - where we did shrooms. (I never understood the appeal - I've had similar and far better highs running five miles. ) During which, I overheard a conversation with his friend - where he accused me of playing mind-games. (Note - ex-college boyfriend grew up to become a psychologist - basically he now plays mind-games for a living. He's very good at it - that guy was emotionally and mentally manipulative. If it weren't for his roommate back in Colorado, I'd never have been paid back.) The ride back was bizarre, one minute he was talking about breaking up with me, the next making out.
I no longer remember much more than that - the fact that I do remember it clearly - has more to do with the fact that I wrote a story about it, then that it was memorable. It was painful at the time. Now, it's just an amusing story.
The Crown S4
Been binge-watching S4 of the Crown today. Mainly because I couldn't get into it last year, not in the mood. But now - I was. It fit my mood perfectly. Also, I found it to be oddly comforting. Mainly because - it gets across how temporary everything is. In the Crown, there's several conversations between members of the royal family that get across...how many Prime Ministers they've seen come and go. That things change. And we go on.
Everything in life is temporary. It doesn't last. Have a bad day today? Don't worry too much - you'll most likely forget it in a week or two, or even a year.
Relationships shift and change, work places do, environment, buildings, weather, climate, politics, everything. It's kind of reassuring in a way.
If I don't like something - I needn't worry too much about it - it'll be gone tomorrow - even if that tomorrow is ten years from now or longer.
For Now from Avenue Q
"Life may be scary but it's only temporary..."
"Don't stress,
Relax,
Let life roll off your backs
Except for death and paying taxes,
Everything in life is only for now!"
And it's one of the things that age teaches me and everyone, I guess, that it is temporary. My father's death brought that home to me. As has all of the retirements and changes in my work place.
So, watching the Crown, is comforting in a way. Partly because it gets across how much things change over time, and partly because I am very glad I'm not in the Royal Family.
BTW - the casting in S4 of Prince Charles and Diana is spot on. They really resemble both. Also both are tall and hunch over a lot. I'm not sure how the actress in S5 will work -- she's 6'3 playing a Diana who is 5'10. Of course, Prince Charles is also 5'10, and Dominic West is 6 foot.
***
Mother also called to tell me about my cousin's funeral. (She'd gotten hold of my Aunt C, who related the details.)
Apparently they had it on the beach. Aunt K's son M, and his two boys made paper airplanes and sent them out to sea. They also had a boat, with flowers on it. About three uncles, two aunts, outside of K, and her sons were in attendance.
Mother also informed me that Aunt C's kid (the one who animated Baby Yoda for Disney) wants to get a breast reduction.
Me: Only way I'm getting surgery is if it is a life or death situation -
Mother: Or you need a knee replacement -
Me: Or I can't walk
Mother: Or cataracts -
Me: Or it's either that or I can't see.
But it's not going to be for anything cosmetic or elective. It must be necessary. Too many things can go wrong. Heaven forbid, the surgeon has a bad day or a bully for a boss.
**
On diabetes bit, I've been informed that I need to have a carb and a protein at every meal, or my blood sugar could crash. Also, I should have a carb or something in between - little things, to keep the sugar from crashing. My grandmother had graham crackers late in the day.
I can't be on a paeolo or keto related diet - it will kill me. Diabetics can't do no-carb diets, we need carbs to keep our blood sugar regulated.
So, bought broccoli, yams (a kind of sweet potato - they didn't have straight sweet potatoes), dandelion greens, green onion, red onion, gluten-free english muffins, gluten-free quinoa and ancient grain sourdough bread,
gluten-free almond flour pancake mix, oatmeal, almond flour ravioli, and a small thing of grapefruit juice.
Hopefully that'll help. May need to go again on Monday.
Off to bed. Getting late.
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Date: 2022-11-13 10:36 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2022-11-14 03:39 am (UTC)What was helpful to me was learning which vegetables and fruits are going to impact blood sugars more than others.
Hah - I just looked - and apparently the South Beach people now have a book of gluten-free recipes and a whole "gluten solution" variant of the South Beach program.