Sunday Wrapup
Feb. 5th, 2023 09:24 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
shadowkat1. Started watching Picard on Paramount Plus. It's better than I expected. I had tried it previously, but started on the wrong season and got confused. So I decided to go to something else (Discovery) and come back to it (a year later). It's better than I remembered. Takes a while to get into - but once it gets rolling, quite well done. More focused on character than the other series appear to be - and the new characters are interesting. They are also handling the AI and Robotic Ethical issue in an interesting way. Once again tackling the question - "just because you can, does it necessarily mean you should?" And while "revenge" is tempting, is it the best course?
The series stars and focuses on Jean-Luc Picard, but has guest appearances from Data, Seven of Nine, etc. And introduces various new and interesting characters. It's about ten episodes per season and the final, third season, is being released on Paramount Plus soon.
2. Reading X-Men Red - it's become kind of like the Marvel version of Game of Thrones. The X-men series feels like Game of Thrones meets Terminator at the moment, but more interesting and better written? Weird, but there it is. Plus lots of interesting art.
3. Been feeling sorry for myself today. Looked at or tried Brene Brown's Atlas of the Heart - which is a documentary/self-help lecture series on HBO Max with psychologist/sociologist researcher Brene Brown discussing how our emotions are first and foremost above our thoughts. And to connect to others we must at the same time connect to ourselves, and know ourselves, and so many of us don't.
The episode that I tried - focused on Anguish and Awe. And I found it moving, frustrating and irritating, and ultimately went elsewhere. I don't tend to like lectures.
At any rate, watching it just made me feel lonely, adrift, and isolated.
Apart. As if no one cared if I lived or died. Which of course is not true, but this overwhelming feeling of ...anguish? Fell upon me. It's the feeling of being apart. And spending most of my time - with my co-workers each week. And my co-workers care but don't. The problem with work - is we can't choose our bosses or our co-workers, and yet we spend 40 hours a week with them. Also the 15 hours I spend with those I commute to and from work with weekly.
This series - starts out with the premise that we've never been more disconnected from each other and ourselves than we are now. And that kind of hit home, a bit. I try not to think about it too much. This feeling of being disconnected.
Also, I think it was Brown's statement that we can't walk in each other shoes...that bothered me? Because I'm not sure I agree. I can imagine. I can feel it. To the point in which, it confuses me. But it's also the place from which I write. And I wonder sometimes if people like Brene lack imagination?
***
On a separate note? FB asked what modern phrases irritate you the most?
I don't know if they are modern, but for me -
* Sometimes you just have to show up! (or) "It's called showing up!"
The words showing up, and those phrases tend to bring out the rage demon inside me. I want to punch that person in the mouth. I think it's because people use it in judgement of others. The statement is always blaming people for not (fill in the blank). Don't blame people for not being able to find what you were gifted with. Instead be grateful and pray that they will find it too. Send positive thoughts out to the world.
* Not my Job.
* Just saying
I can't stand those phrases. I want to hit the person.
***
4. Watching the Grammy's mainly for Trevor Noah, and got surprised by it. (Came in around 9:30 pm). The tribute to the musicians who passed away last year (and there were a lot of them, some I forgot about), was truly moving and beautiful. I particularly liked Sheryl Crow, Mick Fleetwood, and Bonnie Raitt's tribute to Christine McVine of Fleetwood Mac.
Madonna came out - and she wasn't recognizable. So much botux. I did not recognize her at all. Also she was wearing a suit dress, with brunette hair in braids.
They also in the commercials - advertised MGM + (does this mean that HBO Max is losing MGM films? Noooo!). Also do we need another streaming service? Because I don't know about anyone else? But this is getting to be ridiculous. I can't keep track of the ones I already have.
Wales: Do you want to see Pockerface? I really want to see it! Do you have it?
ME: No. It's on Peacock.
Wales: Don't you want to see it?
Me: I can't access it - it's on Peacock!
Wales: But it looks great and it has Natasha Lyonne.
Me: I don't care. It's on Peacock. I do not need another streaming service. I have too many as it is. (Although I do have the free version, but it's not available on that. Nor are all the movies. But I refuse to get Peacock.)
5. I didn't get much done this weekend. I kind of crashed. Just going grocery shopping and taking out the trash was an effort. I think I slept through or dozed through most of Saturday - it got away from me, at any rate. And today? I did FaceBook Church (watched it stream live on FB - or rather listened to it, watching people on the computer isn't my thing). The sermon was about not demonizing the other - which started out well enough, with the excellent Rodgers and Hammerstein song "You Have to Be Carefully Taught", but then went downhill with an analogy with spiders. She kind of lost me with the whole be friendly to the spiders bit. Clearly this woman has never seen a brown recluse spider bite. Or been chased by someone with a huge tarantula (the size of a foot). Or had someone dump a jar of Daddy Long Legs on their head. So, I'm not sure "carefully" taught to fear spiders is the right phrase. Also I don't hate them - I'm legitmately terrified of them. It's not that I want them dead, I just don't want to see them or have them anywhere near me. Some of them are deadly. (POC, etc are not dangerous, spiders are. So I did not appreciate the analogy.)
Last night...I dreamed about my Dad. He was telling me about a lovely black dress that I should get - and he'd lease it for me. His words slurred slightly, and it was as if the Alzheimers was slowly coming in - but not there yet. It was an odd dream. It started with a fight with my uncle, I took a long lonely walk, seeing a lot of children from Korea or China? And a family from Korea. It was overcast. There was a lot of grass. And trees.
Then I came back and walked past family members talking in the living room - and there was my Dad. Live and in living color. I stopped. Did a double take and walked back to him. He had returned from a trip. He was in his sixties, the Dad I remembered - before the Altzheimers kicked in along with all the other health issues that bent him double. We chatted briefly and then I woke up. And I lay there for a while...wishing I could go back to sleep and see him, hear him again.
Anguish. I think sometimes that's the best word to describe grief.
Weirdly heard back from AH today - expected to wait three more months. She tackled everything in my letter, and said something rather touching about my Dad. I am so sorry. I know you were close and he was a pretty amazing guy who apparently lived many lives in reality and later in his own head. It's incredible, really. That he passed in his sleep is a blessing. Loss is always so hard and I feel for you and your family.
There are people that...come and go, and then there are people as Wales puts it are always part of your life somehow. They come and go and come again, crossing our paths time and time again.
Wales: AH is kind of like my Jean, someone you just have to accept will always somehow be a part of your life - even if from a distance.
My father told me something once that continues to haunt me...that maybe I was born a loner? I wonder. Sometime. Maybe. I'm okay with it, I guess. But today, I kind of wished he had been able to walk me down the aisle and give me away at my wedding. But it's not surprising this never happened. I'm not mainstream. I'm left of center. Always have been. An oddball who attracts others similar to myself. My life was never going to be paint by numbers or what many describe as traditional or normal. Not that I'm judging those whose are...just that mine isn't and never will be.
The series stars and focuses on Jean-Luc Picard, but has guest appearances from Data, Seven of Nine, etc. And introduces various new and interesting characters. It's about ten episodes per season and the final, third season, is being released on Paramount Plus soon.
2. Reading X-Men Red - it's become kind of like the Marvel version of Game of Thrones. The X-men series feels like Game of Thrones meets Terminator at the moment, but more interesting and better written? Weird, but there it is. Plus lots of interesting art.
3. Been feeling sorry for myself today. Looked at or tried Brene Brown's Atlas of the Heart - which is a documentary/self-help lecture series on HBO Max with psychologist/sociologist researcher Brene Brown discussing how our emotions are first and foremost above our thoughts. And to connect to others we must at the same time connect to ourselves, and know ourselves, and so many of us don't.
The episode that I tried - focused on Anguish and Awe. And I found it moving, frustrating and irritating, and ultimately went elsewhere. I don't tend to like lectures.
At any rate, watching it just made me feel lonely, adrift, and isolated.
Apart. As if no one cared if I lived or died. Which of course is not true, but this overwhelming feeling of ...anguish? Fell upon me. It's the feeling of being apart. And spending most of my time - with my co-workers each week. And my co-workers care but don't. The problem with work - is we can't choose our bosses or our co-workers, and yet we spend 40 hours a week with them. Also the 15 hours I spend with those I commute to and from work with weekly.
This series - starts out with the premise that we've never been more disconnected from each other and ourselves than we are now. And that kind of hit home, a bit. I try not to think about it too much. This feeling of being disconnected.
Also, I think it was Brown's statement that we can't walk in each other shoes...that bothered me? Because I'm not sure I agree. I can imagine. I can feel it. To the point in which, it confuses me. But it's also the place from which I write. And I wonder sometimes if people like Brene lack imagination?
***
On a separate note? FB asked what modern phrases irritate you the most?
I don't know if they are modern, but for me -
* Sometimes you just have to show up! (or) "It's called showing up!"
The words showing up, and those phrases tend to bring out the rage demon inside me. I want to punch that person in the mouth. I think it's because people use it in judgement of others. The statement is always blaming people for not (fill in the blank). Don't blame people for not being able to find what you were gifted with. Instead be grateful and pray that they will find it too. Send positive thoughts out to the world.
* Not my Job.
* Just saying
I can't stand those phrases. I want to hit the person.
***
4. Watching the Grammy's mainly for Trevor Noah, and got surprised by it. (Came in around 9:30 pm). The tribute to the musicians who passed away last year (and there were a lot of them, some I forgot about), was truly moving and beautiful. I particularly liked Sheryl Crow, Mick Fleetwood, and Bonnie Raitt's tribute to Christine McVine of Fleetwood Mac.
Madonna came out - and she wasn't recognizable. So much botux. I did not recognize her at all. Also she was wearing a suit dress, with brunette hair in braids.
They also in the commercials - advertised MGM + (does this mean that HBO Max is losing MGM films? Noooo!). Also do we need another streaming service? Because I don't know about anyone else? But this is getting to be ridiculous. I can't keep track of the ones I already have.
Wales: Do you want to see Pockerface? I really want to see it! Do you have it?
ME: No. It's on Peacock.
Wales: Don't you want to see it?
Me: I can't access it - it's on Peacock!
Wales: But it looks great and it has Natasha Lyonne.
Me: I don't care. It's on Peacock. I do not need another streaming service. I have too many as it is. (Although I do have the free version, but it's not available on that. Nor are all the movies. But I refuse to get Peacock.)
5. I didn't get much done this weekend. I kind of crashed. Just going grocery shopping and taking out the trash was an effort. I think I slept through or dozed through most of Saturday - it got away from me, at any rate. And today? I did FaceBook Church (watched it stream live on FB - or rather listened to it, watching people on the computer isn't my thing). The sermon was about not demonizing the other - which started out well enough, with the excellent Rodgers and Hammerstein song "You Have to Be Carefully Taught", but then went downhill with an analogy with spiders. She kind of lost me with the whole be friendly to the spiders bit. Clearly this woman has never seen a brown recluse spider bite. Or been chased by someone with a huge tarantula (the size of a foot). Or had someone dump a jar of Daddy Long Legs on their head. So, I'm not sure "carefully" taught to fear spiders is the right phrase. Also I don't hate them - I'm legitmately terrified of them. It's not that I want them dead, I just don't want to see them or have them anywhere near me. Some of them are deadly. (POC, etc are not dangerous, spiders are. So I did not appreciate the analogy.)
Last night...I dreamed about my Dad. He was telling me about a lovely black dress that I should get - and he'd lease it for me. His words slurred slightly, and it was as if the Alzheimers was slowly coming in - but not there yet. It was an odd dream. It started with a fight with my uncle, I took a long lonely walk, seeing a lot of children from Korea or China? And a family from Korea. It was overcast. There was a lot of grass. And trees.
Then I came back and walked past family members talking in the living room - and there was my Dad. Live and in living color. I stopped. Did a double take and walked back to him. He had returned from a trip. He was in his sixties, the Dad I remembered - before the Altzheimers kicked in along with all the other health issues that bent him double. We chatted briefly and then I woke up. And I lay there for a while...wishing I could go back to sleep and see him, hear him again.
Anguish. I think sometimes that's the best word to describe grief.
Weirdly heard back from AH today - expected to wait three more months. She tackled everything in my letter, and said something rather touching about my Dad. I am so sorry. I know you were close and he was a pretty amazing guy who apparently lived many lives in reality and later in his own head. It's incredible, really. That he passed in his sleep is a blessing. Loss is always so hard and I feel for you and your family.
There are people that...come and go, and then there are people as Wales puts it are always part of your life somehow. They come and go and come again, crossing our paths time and time again.
Wales: AH is kind of like my Jean, someone you just have to accept will always somehow be a part of your life - even if from a distance.
My father told me something once that continues to haunt me...that maybe I was born a loner? I wonder. Sometime. Maybe. I'm okay with it, I guess. But today, I kind of wished he had been able to walk me down the aisle and give me away at my wedding. But it's not surprising this never happened. I'm not mainstream. I'm left of center. Always have been. An oddball who attracts others similar to myself. My life was never going to be paint by numbers or what many describe as traditional or normal. Not that I'm judging those whose are...just that mine isn't and never will be.
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Date: 2023-02-06 01:53 pm (UTC)no subject
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Date: 2023-02-06 05:26 pm (UTC)Re: MGM+ the good news is that it's not a new streaming network. It's just a rebrand of Epix. It may end up aggregating more MGM films over time. I watched a number of TV series on it, but we've been getting lots of free access via DStream to different pay channels (they're current running one for HBO/Cinemax) so I doubt I'll subscribe.
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Date: 2023-02-06 05:43 pm (UTC)Since we was holding a sort of riding crop, my first thought was that Madonna was wearing a poorly-designed side-saddle outfit. But I guess she was just meant to look like a dominatrix?
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Date: 2023-02-07 12:44 am (UTC)I give up.
I kind of miss renting things. It was easier. And cable.
I thought Madonna was going for a kind of riding habit/dominatrix hybrid? What threw me was how much work she had done on her face - to the point that all definition was gone from it. It looked like she was wearing a mask. It was kind of jarring.
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Date: 2023-02-06 11:03 pm (UTC)The Grammys are the only award show that I really enjoy because of all the performances, instead of going from one speech to the next. I like Trevor Noah and he was a good host.
What she said about your dad does sound very nice. The way Wales described how people come and go also is right. Not everyone can or will be in your day to day or regular life and that's okay.
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Date: 2023-02-07 01:13 am (UTC)Yeah, I agree - at least with the Grammys you get performances as opposed to clips and speeches.
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Date: 2023-02-07 10:01 am (UTC)Not that I ever did much camping, though, you know. So I guess...
... well, you know.