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shadowkatWales: Do you know if there is such a thing as a compensation counselor, who advises based on your experience, etc and the market, if a person is being underpaid?
Me: No, there is no such thing. ;-) Who would pay them? But there are web sites that calculate pay, and determine how much you are worth.
Sigh.
I live in a society in which money is on everyone's mind, and no one has enough.
Oh and Carrie Fisher got a Star on the Hollywood Walk of Fame.
ETA...
ME: Want to see Oppenheimer?
Wales: What's it about?
ME: The guy who did the atomic bomb, by Chris Nolan, stars Cillian Murphy?
Wales: No.
ME: Why?
Wales: too depressing. [This from the woman who enjoys watching CNN and political Twitter, loved TAR, and thought the Handmaid's Tale was entertaining.]
ME: See, this is our problem, we do not have the same taste in movies and stuff. [ Personally I think the movie would be fun - also Cillian Murphy!]
Wales: yes we do.
Me: I'm seeing Guardians of the Galaxy this coming weekend with moviebuddy (or at least I think I am, we've not made firm plans.)
Wales: See, there's no way in hell I'd see that.
Me: I rest my case. We don't have the same taste in movies. (She wanted to see Megan (the evil robot film) - which no. Hard pass. Wales loves horror. I love superhero flicks. We can occasionally see art flicks, but that's it. She also love White Lotus, the appeal of which is completely lost on me, while I loved Game of Thrones, which she has no patience for. She's not into fantasy at all.)
***
Artist Way - pointed out three blocks that are problematic for me.
1. Fame - I'm not famous, but the internet has made it possible to share my art with people. Which is not necessarily advantageous. And I have a tendency to keep checking for their reactions and if I don't see any - get shut down. Or if I get negative reactions - shut down. The Artist Way states what I should do is focus on the work, and not read or look at the reactions. (It's dated, also the person writing it is in the film business - so she uses People Magazine as an example. Or Variety. I will never appear in People Magazine (and god, who'd want to? That's a gossip rag.))
2. Competition - a tendency to compare progress against others. "Oh, they are ahead of me and will get the book deal and I won't." Etc. This is another problem. Instead of looking at someone else's success as "hope" that I will get there too - if they did it, so will I. I look at it as the opposite - that there's only room for one of us, and it's a race. This is apparently common. The way out of it - is not to compare, and to focus on the work, the art, don't think about anyone else.
3. Also look at things we turn to - to aid in blockage. For me, it's food. I binge eat. I did it a bit today. Mainly because I fasted for five hours. Ate little until 2. (Basically I had breakfast - two poached eggs over spinach at 6:16 am, then didn't eat again until 12:00 - and it was just an energy drink, Kind energy bar, and well that was it. I got home around 1 pm and had sushi. Then some things I shouldn't - like macaroons (they were small but still), chocolate (small amount, but still), and a date sweetened chocolate flourless cake (which was low in sugar and gluten free and organic) but still. Oh well, at least blood sugar stayed even at 135-142 most of the day, then went up to 187, and is now down at 168, and going down. I feel at my best between 127-142. My worst at 55-110, and horrid at 200 and above. That's when I get the hot flashes, perspire, and feel dizzy - when it's between 50-100.
But still. Sweets are my weakness. Not alcohol - I can live without it. I'm not addicted to alcohol at all. Nor drugs - I don't get the appeal and hate how I feel. I can't take THC. The only one I've been able to handle is CBD and maybe alcohol. That's it. Can't smoke - don't understand the appeal of it either. I'm allergic to smoke.
But sugar and chocolate? Gimme. And I tend to binge when I'm frustrated, tired, depressed, or restless. Or artistically blocked.
Okay, bed time. I'm tired. I didn't sleep well last night and its making me cranky.
Me: No, there is no such thing. ;-) Who would pay them? But there are web sites that calculate pay, and determine how much you are worth.
Sigh.
I live in a society in which money is on everyone's mind, and no one has enough.
Oh and Carrie Fisher got a Star on the Hollywood Walk of Fame.
ETA...
ME: Want to see Oppenheimer?
Wales: What's it about?
ME: The guy who did the atomic bomb, by Chris Nolan, stars Cillian Murphy?
Wales: No.
ME: Why?
Wales: too depressing. [This from the woman who enjoys watching CNN and political Twitter, loved TAR, and thought the Handmaid's Tale was entertaining.]
ME: See, this is our problem, we do not have the same taste in movies and stuff. [ Personally I think the movie would be fun - also Cillian Murphy!]
Wales: yes we do.
Me: I'm seeing Guardians of the Galaxy this coming weekend with moviebuddy (or at least I think I am, we've not made firm plans.)
Wales: See, there's no way in hell I'd see that.
Me: I rest my case. We don't have the same taste in movies. (She wanted to see Megan (the evil robot film) - which no. Hard pass. Wales loves horror. I love superhero flicks. We can occasionally see art flicks, but that's it. She also love White Lotus, the appeal of which is completely lost on me, while I loved Game of Thrones, which she has no patience for. She's not into fantasy at all.)
***
Artist Way - pointed out three blocks that are problematic for me.
1. Fame - I'm not famous, but the internet has made it possible to share my art with people. Which is not necessarily advantageous. And I have a tendency to keep checking for their reactions and if I don't see any - get shut down. Or if I get negative reactions - shut down. The Artist Way states what I should do is focus on the work, and not read or look at the reactions. (It's dated, also the person writing it is in the film business - so she uses People Magazine as an example. Or Variety. I will never appear in People Magazine (and god, who'd want to? That's a gossip rag.))
2. Competition - a tendency to compare progress against others. "Oh, they are ahead of me and will get the book deal and I won't." Etc. This is another problem. Instead of looking at someone else's success as "hope" that I will get there too - if they did it, so will I. I look at it as the opposite - that there's only room for one of us, and it's a race. This is apparently common. The way out of it - is not to compare, and to focus on the work, the art, don't think about anyone else.
3. Also look at things we turn to - to aid in blockage. For me, it's food. I binge eat. I did it a bit today. Mainly because I fasted for five hours. Ate little until 2. (Basically I had breakfast - two poached eggs over spinach at 6:16 am, then didn't eat again until 12:00 - and it was just an energy drink, Kind energy bar, and well that was it. I got home around 1 pm and had sushi. Then some things I shouldn't - like macaroons (they were small but still), chocolate (small amount, but still), and a date sweetened chocolate flourless cake (which was low in sugar and gluten free and organic) but still. Oh well, at least blood sugar stayed even at 135-142 most of the day, then went up to 187, and is now down at 168, and going down. I feel at my best between 127-142. My worst at 55-110, and horrid at 200 and above. That's when I get the hot flashes, perspire, and feel dizzy - when it's between 50-100.
But still. Sweets are my weakness. Not alcohol - I can live without it. I'm not addicted to alcohol at all. Nor drugs - I don't get the appeal and hate how I feel. I can't take THC. The only one I've been able to handle is CBD and maybe alcohol. That's it. Can't smoke - don't understand the appeal of it either. I'm allergic to smoke.
But sugar and chocolate? Gimme. And I tend to binge when I'm frustrated, tired, depressed, or restless. Or artistically blocked.
Okay, bed time. I'm tired. I didn't sleep well last night and its making me cranky.