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Been suffering from lower and upper back pain the last couple of days. The massage last week helped a little bit. Debating doing another one. It's not cheap, folks. About $120 with tip. Which is why I'd rather not. Really rather not. Been alternating heat and cold, also had a watermelon cranberry peach lemonade ice tea with vodka - which numbed me but didn't do much about the pain. Dulled the ache, that's about it. I've had problems with back pain since I was 15. So, am somewhat used to it. It's never going to get better, but really have to lose weight - since the curvature of the back I have requires...a smaller bust and belly. And the constant thunderstorms/barometric pressure drops aren't helping - they just make me hurt more. If you ever get an injury - drops in pressure = PAIN! Doesn't matter if it has healed. Also must go back to gym and get in shape, walking everywhere isn't quite cutting it. But I can't quite convince myself to do it. I drag my feet. Afraid of yoga - I always strain my back in yoga, too competitive and anxious a personality - I can't get the damn breathing thing down - it stresses me out. Yes, it is really odd, I know, to stress about breathing. I know why. I intellectualize it. You think about breathing, you can't breath. It's like walking, you think about walking - you can't walk. You can't think too much about it.

Work...is actually going well. Frustrating at times, but got several compliments this week. My workplace likes me. Nice. And I get along with the people. We understand each other. It's odd.
Not what I ever expected. But I do think this may be the best place for me - at least at the moment. Church is the other thing that is working - it non-demonitional, Christian but not really, Jewish but not really...very into questioning things. I need a spiritual life, not everyone does.
We find what we need, I think. My family lives very far away from me, so I need something that is stable and provides a sense of community, with likeminded folks - which is what the Unitarian Church provides for me, at least at the moment. I'm wary and leery though...waiting always waiting for it all to disappoint.

Wicked thunderstorm...the fourth this week. Thank god it has finally started. I was so much pain prior to it. Could feel the electricity in the air, the pressure, as if the sky wanted to explode. I hate thunderstorms and even more so the part before them.

As an aside, why do we writers feel a need to brutally torture our characters? And more to the point, why do we readers enjoy it?

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* Finally found the soundtrack to The Wire - All the Pieces that Matter - Music from Five Years of The Wire. The Wire is one of those rare television series where everything more or less works, acting, direction, writing, and music. Oh and I figured out where I'd seen Clark Peters who played Lester before, he went on for a bit part in Covert Affairs, as well as Treme.

Loved the Wire.

* Started watching S5 Dexter and have come to the conclusion that this is meant to be bridge season, it has that feel to it. So far, pretty slow. I feel as if we're treading water. Although the first episode is a fairly apt exploration of grief. Everyone keeps saying it looks like he's not feeling anything, okay...so he's not crying. Big whoop. Not everyone cries, people in shock don't cry. So that did not work for me. Other than that...good episode, just my attention kept wandering.

No real plans for the weekend, outside of nursing my back and trying to get my ass to the gym and to church. Oh and write, want to do some fictional creative writing if I can. Even if it doesn't quite go anywhere. Wish I could go hiking - but...well back issues, and no hiking boots.

* The new tv season doesn't look that lame to me...of course I like weird stuff.

There's some interesting takes on fairy tales. Apparently writers finally got bored of super-heroes, vampires, forensic scientists, alien invasion and time travel, so are going the fairy tale and witch route. ( five tv shows that look rather intriguing and different )