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shadowkatI got distracted with Blue Sky this morning and was almost late to my dermatologist appointment. It's the skin cancer screening - I've inherited my family's propensity towards moles. And was in the sun a lot as a kid.)
The appointment was at 11 AM in Park Slope. I intended on leaving around 10:15, and double-checking its location. But alas, I looked up from the computer and it was 10:31. I raced to throw on socks and sneakers. Then, out the door, down the steps - only to realize I forgot my subway pass. Back in, up the elevator, grab the subway pass. It's 10:36. Race down the steps, out the door, run (literally) down the block, walk, run, walk (fast) down the subway steps, catch the F train, five minutes to Park Slope. Dash off walk rapidly get off. Get lost. Figure out I have to go north not south, and...well I'm at 348, and it is 76. So about twenty blocks north.
I jog most of the way, darting around cars, people, bikes, strollers, etc.
And manage to get there at 11:06 am. I'm dripping in sweat. Damn menopause. Although it probably would have happened anyhow. And there's folks with sweatshirts, long sleeves, and jackets. Also short sleeves and shorts. I'm wearing a t-shirt and capris.
ME: Sorry, I was running late - so I literally ran here. I have the 11 AM.
Receptionist: No worries. In the future? You don't have to be on time - you have a fifteen minute window, and if running late? Just call and we'll hold your appointment for you.
Also apparently they were running fifteen minutes late. I got in to see the Doctor at 11:30, and was out around 11:45. Got home by 12:30.
Also managed to walk/run two point six miles round trip.
Good news? No skin cancer or anything that requires removal. I have a mole on my lip - had it since my late twenties early thirties. Been told not to have it removed - since it is half on the lip and half off - and would leave a noticeable scare in the center of the lip. It's better to stick with the mole. So, unless I can find a really good affordable cosmetic surgeon, and my insurance would cover it? I'm not doing it. I'm used to the mole and so is everyone who knows me.
***
Wales is driving me nuts again. We'll see if we're still friends by 2024. I may kick her to the curb yet. I swear she's beyond high maintenance, also someone needs to take away her cell phone and give her one that only allows her to make phone calls with it. The woman should not be permitted to text message anyone.
Wales: A co-worker got COVID.
Me: Oh that's horrible. Hope you can stay safe. Vaxs help some but not others.
Several days later.
Me: Good luck next week. And a soap opera character is reading The Other Black Girl on the soap.
Wales: Have you seen that yet?
Wales: And why would I need any luck? Why would you wish me that? Seriously, I'm tired of apologizing. I'm fine with us not being friends. And your anger can be scary sometimes.
ME: I thought you were visiting your father next week and was just wishing you luck on your travels. Why are you attacking me again by text message? Seriously, WTF?
Wales: I'm angry at everyone, the world, all things. And I'm tired of apologizing all the time. I'm horrible and I should most likely be alone, as my punishment.
Me: Well, if you stopped attacking people via text you wouldn't have to apologize all the time. Stop apologizing. Just stop attacking via text. I am not your verbal punching bag. How would you feel if people did it to you? If you get angry - go punch a wall. I genuinely wish you safe travels - but if you get angry, don't text me, take a walk and kick a car instead. I have my own issues.
I apparently don't care about cars and walls. They can take it. So can Wales limbs. I don't give a shit if she breaks her hand or foot at this point, the woman has serious anger management issues.
She does this. And has been doing it for years now. She texts me in anger. It's either a paranoid rant or an attack. It usually makes no sense and is out of the blue. Then profusely apologizes. A few weeks, maybe a month goes by, and it happens again. She does it again.
I don't need this. Seriously? Nobody needs that. This is how people get estranged. Don't text when mad. I cannot emphasize this enough - do not text, post, respond on the internet or your phone or via email when angry, upset, or furious. It never ends well.
The words "I'm sorry" are kind of meaningless, aren't they? They are just words. It's the action that matters. Someone can say they are sorry over and over again, but if they keep doing it, it doesn't really matter.
Wales' behavior is abusive. She knows it is. But won't stop. And I may be enabling it by putting up with it.
Sigh. Friendship is overrated.
****
I tried Foundation again - and fell asleep during it. I think the problem may be trying to watch it during the day? Also, I'm kind of sleep deprived. I go to sleep. I wake up. I fall back. I wake up. I fall back again. I wake up.
Also working my way through Good Omens S2 - have three episodes left. It makes me laugh. I don't care about the plot. The banter between Crowley and Arizaphale is hilarious. And I have a crush on Tennant.
Whomever did the credits sequence is brilliant - I love that credits sequence.
I'm friending all these comic book artists and illustrators on Blue Sky - mainly because I adore comic book art. I do. That's why I read them. I adore illustrations. It's my favorite type of art. I like drawing and painting people - as you've no doubt figured out by now. And love anime.
Cartoons...I'm iffy about. Mainly because a lot of them are kind of similar and not that creative. I feel like the same person drew Family Guy, King of the Hill, Bojack Horseman, Daria, Rick and Morty...and personally, I prefer Chuck Jones style with the Looney Tunes. I am also not a fan of Matt Groening's style - which is the Simpsons and Disenchantment. Everyone looks the same. Art is a subjective thing.
****
I've been very tired lately - most likely work and not getting enough sleep. Also possibly side effects from various meds? However, I was able to jog down about ten blocks without being winded, so I'm apparently in better shape than I thought? Racing to down a train platform every day possibly has an effect? (I have to walk half jog down a long train platform in about three to five minutes flat each day to catch a train. I clock out between 3:51-3:54 and have to catch a 4 pm train. It takes five to six minutes to get to it. Down five flights of steps (faster than an elevator) across the air train lobby, up four flights, with a long platform between and then
down the equivalent of ten blocks to get to the front of the train. It's clearly getting me into shape - far more useful than riding a bike at a gym or doing aerobics. There's something to be said for a commute that requires a lot of walking, going up and down steps, and jogging.
Now if I can just add yoga to it.
The appointment was at 11 AM in Park Slope. I intended on leaving around 10:15, and double-checking its location. But alas, I looked up from the computer and it was 10:31. I raced to throw on socks and sneakers. Then, out the door, down the steps - only to realize I forgot my subway pass. Back in, up the elevator, grab the subway pass. It's 10:36. Race down the steps, out the door, run (literally) down the block, walk, run, walk (fast) down the subway steps, catch the F train, five minutes to Park Slope. Dash off walk rapidly get off. Get lost. Figure out I have to go north not south, and...well I'm at 348, and it is 76. So about twenty blocks north.
I jog most of the way, darting around cars, people, bikes, strollers, etc.
And manage to get there at 11:06 am. I'm dripping in sweat. Damn menopause. Although it probably would have happened anyhow. And there's folks with sweatshirts, long sleeves, and jackets. Also short sleeves and shorts. I'm wearing a t-shirt and capris.
ME: Sorry, I was running late - so I literally ran here. I have the 11 AM.
Receptionist: No worries. In the future? You don't have to be on time - you have a fifteen minute window, and if running late? Just call and we'll hold your appointment for you.
Also apparently they were running fifteen minutes late. I got in to see the Doctor at 11:30, and was out around 11:45. Got home by 12:30.
Also managed to walk/run two point six miles round trip.
Good news? No skin cancer or anything that requires removal. I have a mole on my lip - had it since my late twenties early thirties. Been told not to have it removed - since it is half on the lip and half off - and would leave a noticeable scare in the center of the lip. It's better to stick with the mole. So, unless I can find a really good affordable cosmetic surgeon, and my insurance would cover it? I'm not doing it. I'm used to the mole and so is everyone who knows me.
***
Wales is driving me nuts again. We'll see if we're still friends by 2024. I may kick her to the curb yet. I swear she's beyond high maintenance, also someone needs to take away her cell phone and give her one that only allows her to make phone calls with it. The woman should not be permitted to text message anyone.
Wales: A co-worker got COVID.
Me: Oh that's horrible. Hope you can stay safe. Vaxs help some but not others.
Several days later.
Me: Good luck next week. And a soap opera character is reading The Other Black Girl on the soap.
Wales: Have you seen that yet?
Wales: And why would I need any luck? Why would you wish me that? Seriously, I'm tired of apologizing. I'm fine with us not being friends. And your anger can be scary sometimes.
ME: I thought you were visiting your father next week and was just wishing you luck on your travels. Why are you attacking me again by text message? Seriously, WTF?
Wales: I'm angry at everyone, the world, all things. And I'm tired of apologizing all the time. I'm horrible and I should most likely be alone, as my punishment.
Me: Well, if you stopped attacking people via text you wouldn't have to apologize all the time. Stop apologizing. Just stop attacking via text. I am not your verbal punching bag. How would you feel if people did it to you? If you get angry - go punch a wall. I genuinely wish you safe travels - but if you get angry, don't text me, take a walk and kick a car instead. I have my own issues.
I apparently don't care about cars and walls. They can take it. So can Wales limbs. I don't give a shit if she breaks her hand or foot at this point, the woman has serious anger management issues.
She does this. And has been doing it for years now. She texts me in anger. It's either a paranoid rant or an attack. It usually makes no sense and is out of the blue. Then profusely apologizes. A few weeks, maybe a month goes by, and it happens again. She does it again.
I don't need this. Seriously? Nobody needs that. This is how people get estranged. Don't text when mad. I cannot emphasize this enough - do not text, post, respond on the internet or your phone or via email when angry, upset, or furious. It never ends well.
The words "I'm sorry" are kind of meaningless, aren't they? They are just words. It's the action that matters. Someone can say they are sorry over and over again, but if they keep doing it, it doesn't really matter.
Wales' behavior is abusive. She knows it is. But won't stop. And I may be enabling it by putting up with it.
Sigh. Friendship is overrated.
****
I tried Foundation again - and fell asleep during it. I think the problem may be trying to watch it during the day? Also, I'm kind of sleep deprived. I go to sleep. I wake up. I fall back. I wake up. I fall back again. I wake up.
Also working my way through Good Omens S2 - have three episodes left. It makes me laugh. I don't care about the plot. The banter between Crowley and Arizaphale is hilarious. And I have a crush on Tennant.
Whomever did the credits sequence is brilliant - I love that credits sequence.
I'm friending all these comic book artists and illustrators on Blue Sky - mainly because I adore comic book art. I do. That's why I read them. I adore illustrations. It's my favorite type of art. I like drawing and painting people - as you've no doubt figured out by now. And love anime.
Cartoons...I'm iffy about. Mainly because a lot of them are kind of similar and not that creative. I feel like the same person drew Family Guy, King of the Hill, Bojack Horseman, Daria, Rick and Morty...and personally, I prefer Chuck Jones style with the Looney Tunes. I am also not a fan of Matt Groening's style - which is the Simpsons and Disenchantment. Everyone looks the same. Art is a subjective thing.
****
I've been very tired lately - most likely work and not getting enough sleep. Also possibly side effects from various meds? However, I was able to jog down about ten blocks without being winded, so I'm apparently in better shape than I thought? Racing to down a train platform every day possibly has an effect? (I have to walk half jog down a long train platform in about three to five minutes flat each day to catch a train. I clock out between 3:51-3:54 and have to catch a 4 pm train. It takes five to six minutes to get to it. Down five flights of steps (faster than an elevator) across the air train lobby, up four flights, with a long platform between and then
down the equivalent of ten blocks to get to the front of the train. It's clearly getting me into shape - far more useful than riding a bike at a gym or doing aerobics. There's something to be said for a commute that requires a lot of walking, going up and down steps, and jogging.
Now if I can just add yoga to it.
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