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Year 2 - Day 118...Working Remotely
Jul. 14th, 2021 05:24 pmBack in the office tomorrow. And I'm this-close to smacking new organization upside the head. Crazy Org decided after 180 some years of operating as separate agencies, to merge everyone into one agency - and to top it off - during a pandemic no less. Actually it wasn't Crazy Org who came up with this stellar idea - it was the NY Legislature and the Governor, along with a dingbat consulting firm.
Sometimes I wish I was a witch or had magical powers - so I could curse the bejeesus out of them. But alas, no. Just rage impotently in my apartment, then raise hands in surrender and give up.
I could leave Crazy Org of course, and yes, I've thought about it. But it would mean giving up quite a few necessary benefits, plus my raise comes through next month, along with two years and eight months of back pay.
And I'm older and I require my health insurance to stay put. It is actually a lot harder to quit a job than stick with it - at a certain point in one's life. And no, this is not a job that works well as "independent contractor" or "entrepreneur" nor do I have the personality type to run my own business. (I figured that out fifteen years ago. If I did, I'd have done it already.)
When one complains about their job - folks are quick with the advice. It's not really advice though - it's basically what "they" think they would do in the given situation. Not what would work best for that individual but what worked best for them. Forgetting the old axiom - that often what works best for one person, really really doesn't for another. But for some reason - a lot of folks don't quite get that? Not everyone has occupational or vocational skills that are easily transferable. Also, not everyone interviews well.
I've learned not to tell folks what to do or give advice in this regard. I'll ask questions. But, I try to back away from it. Or I'll give support or commiserate.
Everyone is different, with different needs. Some like houses with rose gardens. Some prefer to live in a 3rd floor apartment in a major city, look out at trees, and visit the rose gardens.
***
Yeah, I don't feel like complaining about my job tonight. After I wrote all that, just the idea of doing so - made me feel tired. Also I vented enough about it today to my empty apartment and my mother on the phone.
Mother is tired. She told me today that she'd be perfectly happy if death was just an ending. No afterlife. Nothing. You just stop. Kind of like being put out for surgery. No thought. No feelings. Just stop. The whole idea of an afterlife sounds rather exhausting to her. I can't help but agree. I'm tired too apparently. The whole immortality thing isn't something either of us are interested in. I guess it would be nice - if you were physically fit, had no health issues, and didn't age. But being a vampire - is not at all appealing - I don't like blood that much, or killing things, or going without sunlight. I'd also miss garlic.
***
Back in the office tomorrow - which is a good thing - since I need to print off stuff. The design project that I was kind of hoping would evaporate, ricocheted back to me like a bloody boomerang, complete with various complications and annoyances. I need to print it off to figure it out. And it would kill my little home printer. [It's about 100-200 pages.]
BYT Manager is also in the office tomorrow - but at least Boss is waiting until Friday to pop in. If I had to choose between them, I'd pick BYT. BYT was complaining about how the weather had killed her roses. Apparently roses prefer a slightly cooler and far less humid climate. It's been a tad on the tropical side this year. (Last year was dryer and cooler - I know because the roses thrived last year.)
***
Fandom
Regardless of the fandom that I happen to be in...we end up, eventually, with the following interactions..
( Read more... )
***
I'm not liking the changes this year. But alas, what can one do but go with the flow and surf the waves as best they can? Boss told me today when I was laughing at Crazy Org - that I had the right idea - to laugh at it. He quote Joni Mitchell of all people - " As Joni Mitchell would say, either cry or laugh - both are an excellent release." Laughter is better.
I knew these changes were coming - because hello, watershed years. Also all the signs were in place as early as 2017. And I knew 2020 and 2021 were going to be hard years for me. But sigh. Co-workers feel somewhat the same - they are also trying to navigate all the changes.
I don't feel like looking at the news. I'm taking a media break for my own continued mental health. I'm sure someone will tell me if something major happens.
Sometimes I wish I was a witch or had magical powers - so I could curse the bejeesus out of them. But alas, no. Just rage impotently in my apartment, then raise hands in surrender and give up.
I could leave Crazy Org of course, and yes, I've thought about it. But it would mean giving up quite a few necessary benefits, plus my raise comes through next month, along with two years and eight months of back pay.
And I'm older and I require my health insurance to stay put. It is actually a lot harder to quit a job than stick with it - at a certain point in one's life. And no, this is not a job that works well as "independent contractor" or "entrepreneur" nor do I have the personality type to run my own business. (I figured that out fifteen years ago. If I did, I'd have done it already.)
When one complains about their job - folks are quick with the advice. It's not really advice though - it's basically what "they" think they would do in the given situation. Not what would work best for that individual but what worked best for them. Forgetting the old axiom - that often what works best for one person, really really doesn't for another. But for some reason - a lot of folks don't quite get that? Not everyone has occupational or vocational skills that are easily transferable. Also, not everyone interviews well.
I've learned not to tell folks what to do or give advice in this regard. I'll ask questions. But, I try to back away from it. Or I'll give support or commiserate.
Everyone is different, with different needs. Some like houses with rose gardens. Some prefer to live in a 3rd floor apartment in a major city, look out at trees, and visit the rose gardens.
***
Yeah, I don't feel like complaining about my job tonight. After I wrote all that, just the idea of doing so - made me feel tired. Also I vented enough about it today to my empty apartment and my mother on the phone.
Mother is tired. She told me today that she'd be perfectly happy if death was just an ending. No afterlife. Nothing. You just stop. Kind of like being put out for surgery. No thought. No feelings. Just stop. The whole idea of an afterlife sounds rather exhausting to her. I can't help but agree. I'm tired too apparently. The whole immortality thing isn't something either of us are interested in. I guess it would be nice - if you were physically fit, had no health issues, and didn't age. But being a vampire - is not at all appealing - I don't like blood that much, or killing things, or going without sunlight. I'd also miss garlic.
***
Back in the office tomorrow - which is a good thing - since I need to print off stuff. The design project that I was kind of hoping would evaporate, ricocheted back to me like a bloody boomerang, complete with various complications and annoyances. I need to print it off to figure it out. And it would kill my little home printer. [It's about 100-200 pages.]
BYT Manager is also in the office tomorrow - but at least Boss is waiting until Friday to pop in. If I had to choose between them, I'd pick BYT. BYT was complaining about how the weather had killed her roses. Apparently roses prefer a slightly cooler and far less humid climate. It's been a tad on the tropical side this year. (Last year was dryer and cooler - I know because the roses thrived last year.)
***
Fandom
Regardless of the fandom that I happen to be in...we end up, eventually, with the following interactions..
( Read more... )
***
I'm not liking the changes this year. But alas, what can one do but go with the flow and surf the waves as best they can? Boss told me today when I was laughing at Crazy Org - that I had the right idea - to laugh at it. He quote Joni Mitchell of all people - " As Joni Mitchell would say, either cry or laugh - both are an excellent release." Laughter is better.
I knew these changes were coming - because hello, watershed years. Also all the signs were in place as early as 2017. And I knew 2020 and 2021 were going to be hard years for me. But sigh. Co-workers feel somewhat the same - they are also trying to navigate all the changes.
I don't feel like looking at the news. I'm taking a media break for my own continued mental health. I'm sure someone will tell me if something major happens.