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Mom just called.

My Dad passed away this morning.

I thought I was handling this well. But the grief just hit me like a Mac Truck barreling down the highway at 100 miles per hour. Right in the gut. I knew he'd pass this weekend.

Brother is flying down tomorrow.

I've a doctor's appointment tomorrow. A physical. I have to fast for. Not that I feel like eating anyhow. I may call in a personal day or sick day. And have the doctor fill out the SL8 form.

I just talked to my brother - who convinced me to wait until the end of the week if I want to fly down. Or come down later if that's what Mom wants. He thinks I should take the next three days off work - but I think I'd be better off working and not thinking about it.

My brother is handling it a bit better than I am - but he handles grief differently and is in different situation than I am. Also he helped his wife handle the arrangements for her mother. So not really comparable. But as my brother matter of factly put it - "Mom wants everything taken care off, settled right away. She wants it all put in place. And I can do that." (And he can't do it - if I'm in the way. He doesn't want me to come down this week - because he'd have to find another place to stay at the height of the tourist season - and it's really hard to find places right now. My parents live on an island that is a major beach resort.)

He's staying from Monday to Monday.

If I come down at all - it will either be Saturday or Sunday of this week then until maybe Wed of next week.

I may just take tomorrow off as a personal day. Sick days count against you unless it is COVID or you can get your doctor to fill out the SL8 form.

I don't want advice right now. So disabled comments.