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State of me, kind of...
Nov. 2nd, 2022 09:42 pmChidi: You blew me away with your analysis on the film TAR.
Me: Really? Okay...( Read more... )
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Ex-college boy friend keeps posting pictures of himself in a blond whig, and velvet blue suite with cravat. I think he went as Fred from Scooby Doo for Halloween? In actuality he looks like Keanu Reeves pretending to be a 1960s rock star from the Glam Days.
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Everything aches. I'm considering a hot shower. I blame being hunched over my computer and phone all day long under pressure.
I feel overwhelmed by the world and my life at the moment. There's too much of everything it seems, and not enough of anything that provides true comfort. Also far too much change, constantly. It's as if everyone is constantly trying to improve things - I wish they'd just stop for a bit. Things are getting worse. It's not working. Stop trying to fix it or improve it. You are fucking it up. And just making it worse.
I woke up at 5:37 am this morning, before the alarm at 5:45 am. I decided to just get up, going back to sleep wasn't going to help. I keep waking up two or three times in the night. I think it was just twice last night - so progress. Combination of digestive issues, leg cramps (most likely related to digestive issues) and hot flashes (which may or may not be related to digestive issues.) Also shooting pain in bunion just below left big toe during the day. And inside left knee - clearly the digestive nerve. And restless legs now - also digestive issues. Sigh - the gut causes all my worries. I need to re-evaluate what I'm eating.
Need to figure out doctor's appointments next Tuesday. I had to move my eye doctor from October to November 8, election day, right after the primary care doctor - or rather an hour and a half after. They are an 11 minute walk from each other, so there's that. But, I have to fast for the primary care - so I'll need to get something to eat immediately afterwards, then jog down to the other doctor. I wanted to take the following day off work as well - but can't. Doing the Monday before Election Day, and hopefully this Friday instead. Fudge, work is making it tough to plan vacation or personal time. I can't even schedule my days any longer. I feel as if I'm caught in the middle of a gale storm at work and can't maneuver my way out.
Me: Really? Okay...( Read more... )
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Ex-college boy friend keeps posting pictures of himself in a blond whig, and velvet blue suite with cravat. I think he went as Fred from Scooby Doo for Halloween? In actuality he looks like Keanu Reeves pretending to be a 1960s rock star from the Glam Days.
( Read more... )
***
Everything aches. I'm considering a hot shower. I blame being hunched over my computer and phone all day long under pressure.
I feel overwhelmed by the world and my life at the moment. There's too much of everything it seems, and not enough of anything that provides true comfort. Also far too much change, constantly. It's as if everyone is constantly trying to improve things - I wish they'd just stop for a bit. Things are getting worse. It's not working. Stop trying to fix it or improve it. You are fucking it up. And just making it worse.
I woke up at 5:37 am this morning, before the alarm at 5:45 am. I decided to just get up, going back to sleep wasn't going to help. I keep waking up two or three times in the night. I think it was just twice last night - so progress. Combination of digestive issues, leg cramps (most likely related to digestive issues) and hot flashes (which may or may not be related to digestive issues.) Also shooting pain in bunion just below left big toe during the day. And inside left knee - clearly the digestive nerve. And restless legs now - also digestive issues. Sigh - the gut causes all my worries. I need to re-evaluate what I'm eating.
Need to figure out doctor's appointments next Tuesday. I had to move my eye doctor from October to November 8, election day, right after the primary care doctor - or rather an hour and a half after. They are an 11 minute walk from each other, so there's that. But, I have to fast for the primary care - so I'll need to get something to eat immediately afterwards, then jog down to the other doctor. I wanted to take the following day off work as well - but can't. Doing the Monday before Election Day, and hopefully this Friday instead. Fudge, work is making it tough to plan vacation or personal time. I can't even schedule my days any longer. I feel as if I'm caught in the middle of a gale storm at work and can't maneuver my way out.