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Both The Artist Way and the audio book I Thought it was just me (it isn't)(aka the book about Shame) decided to talk about "perfectionism" at the same time. This is what I call..."Kind of drilling home the point, Universe".
The gist as I remember it, because I don't feel like hunting down the passages and reprinting them here - is we're not perfect. It's not going to be perfect. This need to be perfect - is (per the Artist's Way) "egotism". Per the Shame book, it's well the same thing, but more nicely put. Revising revising revising that first chapter and never getting any further, or erasing, erasing, erasing and never drawing the picture, or trying to constantly fix it...there comes a point in which you let it go and move on.
( rambling on about perfectionism and using George Lucas's Star Wars as an example )
And, I saw a video on Instagram - where Mark Hamil is stating in an interview in the late 1970s/early 1980s that the dialogue in Star Wars was challenging at times, and actually their biggest challenge. There was one line for example that he begged Lucas to change. It gave him nightmares. He still remembers it to this day. (I do not. So I looked it up.)
( The line Hamil got Lucas to cut out of the film )
Anyhow - that's an example of how something extraordinary is deeply flawed at the same time. And not extraordinary to everyone. The only way to create is to muddle through, and leave the ego at home. Also admit that I have no control over anything but my reactions to things, and even that is ...questionable. But hey, good news, everyone else is in the same boat.
Actually this is how I reassure myself when I sit on the stool struggling with a big poop - everyone goes through this. ( the joy of pooping )
***
I posted more watercolors on FB, and my Aunt (who is a professional artist - she has a degree in Fine Arts) told me to keep doing these paintings - since I could make a really good book out of them. (I was planning on switching to drawing and painting people and dogs. However, the Universe apparently has other plans - since I ended up coming home and drawing two more pictures of people on the subway.)
I now have completed three sketches, waiting for paints to be applied. And just when I thought I was done with the subway people - more pop up. ( more about art )
***
I've chosen not to worry about my workplace this year. At all. I'm not going to stress over it. I've no control. None. So I'm going to focus my energy on other things - things I can control. My New Year's Resolution was not to worry about the uncontrollables.
( work discussions )
I figure I'll let Crazy Workplace take care of itself. So far that's kept my blood pressure down this year. Also, I'll let the future take care of itself. This means ignoring fretful co-workers - who insist on making everyone around them paranoid.
Will state that the switch in train times and platforms is resulting in more cardio - that new train platform is insanely long, also the new stair case is longer and steeper.
So far? It's working, I'm not worrying about it. Any of it. Go me. I honestly think all of that meditating during the pandemic paid off. (The pandemic is technically still going on - the virus hasn't exactly gone away -new cubicle aisle mate was out sick with it for about five days. She's quiet. Barely speaks a word to anyone.)
Wales meanwhile keeps texting that she is furious at her workplace for being conservative anti-feminist assholes. All these horrible things happening to women world-wide and in our country and she's working with these people. I don't know what she is doing at work - but I hope it's not discussing abortion rights. Honestly, there are just certain things that are not safe for the work place. Politics of any stripe is among them.
Does remind me of the transphobic discussion I had with a coworker awhile back. The discussion haunts me, because I didn't say half the things I wanted to say. I thought about them after the fact - like two months after the fact.
( Transphobia is actually just the fear of strange penis sightings and/or presence of in the girl's restrooms )
***
In other news, or going back to Star Wars. Mark Hamil posted a picture of himself, Harrison Ford, and Eric Idle partying in the 1970s or early 80, in London while filming The Empire Strike's Back (which came out in 1980 - so it would have to have been either 1978 or 1979.). Apparently the Rolling Stones also showed up at the party, but aren't in the picture which was taken by Carrie Fisher.
My response to Hamil was:
"So basically the Star Wars cast, the Rolling Stones and Monty Python partied in the late 1970s (I'm guessing 1979?) - gotta love the 70s."
It is kind of cool. To have your fav's cross paths. I mean Hamil crossed paths with George Harrison, who were fans of each other.
The gist as I remember it, because I don't feel like hunting down the passages and reprinting them here - is we're not perfect. It's not going to be perfect. This need to be perfect - is (per the Artist's Way) "egotism". Per the Shame book, it's well the same thing, but more nicely put. Revising revising revising that first chapter and never getting any further, or erasing, erasing, erasing and never drawing the picture, or trying to constantly fix it...there comes a point in which you let it go and move on.
( rambling on about perfectionism and using George Lucas's Star Wars as an example )
And, I saw a video on Instagram - where Mark Hamil is stating in an interview in the late 1970s/early 1980s that the dialogue in Star Wars was challenging at times, and actually their biggest challenge. There was one line for example that he begged Lucas to change. It gave him nightmares. He still remembers it to this day. (I do not. So I looked it up.)
( The line Hamil got Lucas to cut out of the film )
Anyhow - that's an example of how something extraordinary is deeply flawed at the same time. And not extraordinary to everyone. The only way to create is to muddle through, and leave the ego at home. Also admit that I have no control over anything but my reactions to things, and even that is ...questionable. But hey, good news, everyone else is in the same boat.
Actually this is how I reassure myself when I sit on the stool struggling with a big poop - everyone goes through this. ( the joy of pooping )
***
I posted more watercolors on FB, and my Aunt (who is a professional artist - she has a degree in Fine Arts) told me to keep doing these paintings - since I could make a really good book out of them. (I was planning on switching to drawing and painting people and dogs. However, the Universe apparently has other plans - since I ended up coming home and drawing two more pictures of people on the subway.)
I now have completed three sketches, waiting for paints to be applied. And just when I thought I was done with the subway people - more pop up. ( more about art )
***
I've chosen not to worry about my workplace this year. At all. I'm not going to stress over it. I've no control. None. So I'm going to focus my energy on other things - things I can control. My New Year's Resolution was not to worry about the uncontrollables.
( work discussions )
I figure I'll let Crazy Workplace take care of itself. So far that's kept my blood pressure down this year. Also, I'll let the future take care of itself. This means ignoring fretful co-workers - who insist on making everyone around them paranoid.
Will state that the switch in train times and platforms is resulting in more cardio - that new train platform is insanely long, also the new stair case is longer and steeper.
So far? It's working, I'm not worrying about it. Any of it. Go me. I honestly think all of that meditating during the pandemic paid off. (The pandemic is technically still going on - the virus hasn't exactly gone away -new cubicle aisle mate was out sick with it for about five days. She's quiet. Barely speaks a word to anyone.)
Wales meanwhile keeps texting that she is furious at her workplace for being conservative anti-feminist assholes. All these horrible things happening to women world-wide and in our country and she's working with these people. I don't know what she is doing at work - but I hope it's not discussing abortion rights. Honestly, there are just certain things that are not safe for the work place. Politics of any stripe is among them.
Does remind me of the transphobic discussion I had with a coworker awhile back. The discussion haunts me, because I didn't say half the things I wanted to say. I thought about them after the fact - like two months after the fact.
( Transphobia is actually just the fear of strange penis sightings and/or presence of in the girl's restrooms )
***
In other news, or going back to Star Wars. Mark Hamil posted a picture of himself, Harrison Ford, and Eric Idle partying in the 1970s or early 80, in London while filming The Empire Strike's Back (which came out in 1980 - so it would have to have been either 1978 or 1979.). Apparently the Rolling Stones also showed up at the party, but aren't in the picture which was taken by Carrie Fisher.
My response to Hamil was:
"So basically the Star Wars cast, the Rolling Stones and Monty Python partied in the late 1970s (I'm guessing 1979?) - gotta love the 70s."
It is kind of cool. To have your fav's cross paths. I mean Hamil crossed paths with George Harrison, who were fans of each other.