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shadowkatHad a lovely walk to the bookstore this afternoon, crystal clear spring day, with everything in bloom. You know that old saying that April showers bring May flowers? Apparently now it is March showers bring April flowers. Was so warm this week - the trees and plants decided it was May or June. Now watch - it will get really cold towards the end of April and everything will freeze.
Bought Changes at B&N for twenty-five percent off, which was still about ten to eleven dollars more than what I would have paid if it was delivered to the Kindle. Am reading the Rachel Morgan novel and am frustrated by the writing, which seems lacking somehow. Maybe I've been reading too much well - written fanfiction. It's a sad thing when unpublished fanfiction writers are writing better than the published ones. That's what the information age has done - it's given us too many choices. Too much content. To the point that we are almost overwhelmed by it. Also the media advertising machine is in overdrive - I can't get away from I-Pad ads, the news, the newspapers, the magazines, everything is telling me to buy the I-Pad. I don't want the I-PAD. I have enough info as is, I don't need more apps and things.
Watched some brilliant tv tonight.
Being Erica - I just adored. It's really resonating with me right now. Erica's mid-life crisis fits my own. In the series finale - which my DVR did not tape on Wed and I had to hunt down - Erica regrets that she didn't get a Ph.D and become an academic. A regret that I recently discussed in great detail with both parents - who'd talked me out of it back in the day. My professors had persuaded them to push me elsewhere. The reason for this - was multi-faceted and unimportant. Because I'm the sort of person who is stubborn enough to go against others advice if I really want to do something. Erica, like myself, makes excuses - she believes she didn't go on to get her Ph.D and become an academic because of chance or fate or her bad advisor, etc - much like I blame my difficulty with languages or tendency to mispronounce words. But those are stupid reasons - because people with those difficulties go on and become academics. The truth is? I did not want it. I hate academia. I hate the politics.
The specialization in one field. I love the knowledge, the intellectual debate, the idea of it, but the reality would have driven me insane. I know this. The job I have now is in some ways more interesting, and challenging for me, it's not really a speciality, and it changes constantly. But part of me wonders like Erica - what if? Maybe I'd be happier as an academic.
Finding who we are - Being Erica states, is a continuous process. Being Erica does for a women's 30s, what the tv series Buffy did for a woman in her teens.
The other excellent piece of television that I saw tonight -- The Good Wife. It once again reminded me of why I chose not to be a criminal defense attorney or prosecutor - another choice I struggled with. I struggled with the decision not to become a lawyer - after investing so much time and energy into trying to become one. It was painful. I still bear the wounds and tend to be somewhat defensive about it. There's nothing worse than the someone asking me why I'm not one. People don't get it - well some do, the ones who have struggled with it like I have, who gave it up - for similar reasons. They get it. And I have turned the law degree into a career - I got the job and career that I have now because of that degree. At any rate there's this great line or exchange in the episode that made me laugh - because it hit the frustration of human interaction on the nutshell:
Diane ( an older attorney played by Christine Baranski) is out to dinner with her ballastics expert, with whom she's been engaging in a bit of a flirtation. She calls him The Marlboro Man.
He's played by Gary Cole.
Diane: I can't do this. You love Sarah Palin and I think she is the devil incarnate.
Marlboro Man: Yup.
Diane: I mean how can you justify backstreet abortions..
Marlboro Man (states the percentage of people killed by legal abortions each year)
Diane: Don't, don't speak..
Marlboro Man: okay. (he kisses her)
Diane (springs up): I want to stay, I really do, but I can't do this - over three generations of Democratic ancestors are screaming at me to leave. (she pauses , then kisses him. And I laugh!!!)
Oh I adore The Good Wife. Three tough women. Kalinda, Alicia, and Diane. Mostly from their perspectives. Great tv.
In Plain Sight - the third great tv show saw today...the episode was when Marshal Mann
first met Mary Shannon...and their back and forth is the meat of the series. This season has wisely gotten rid of the family or pushed them on the back-burner for a bit, and gotten back to Marshal and Mary's partnership and friendship. The family is still there, but it's not overshadowing the heart of it.
Bought Changes at B&N for twenty-five percent off, which was still about ten to eleven dollars more than what I would have paid if it was delivered to the Kindle. Am reading the Rachel Morgan novel and am frustrated by the writing, which seems lacking somehow. Maybe I've been reading too much well - written fanfiction. It's a sad thing when unpublished fanfiction writers are writing better than the published ones. That's what the information age has done - it's given us too many choices. Too much content. To the point that we are almost overwhelmed by it. Also the media advertising machine is in overdrive - I can't get away from I-Pad ads, the news, the newspapers, the magazines, everything is telling me to buy the I-Pad. I don't want the I-PAD. I have enough info as is, I don't need more apps and things.
Watched some brilliant tv tonight.
Being Erica - I just adored. It's really resonating with me right now. Erica's mid-life crisis fits my own. In the series finale - which my DVR did not tape on Wed and I had to hunt down - Erica regrets that she didn't get a Ph.D and become an academic. A regret that I recently discussed in great detail with both parents - who'd talked me out of it back in the day. My professors had persuaded them to push me elsewhere. The reason for this - was multi-faceted and unimportant. Because I'm the sort of person who is stubborn enough to go against others advice if I really want to do something. Erica, like myself, makes excuses - she believes she didn't go on to get her Ph.D and become an academic because of chance or fate or her bad advisor, etc - much like I blame my difficulty with languages or tendency to mispronounce words. But those are stupid reasons - because people with those difficulties go on and become academics. The truth is? I did not want it. I hate academia. I hate the politics.
The specialization in one field. I love the knowledge, the intellectual debate, the idea of it, but the reality would have driven me insane. I know this. The job I have now is in some ways more interesting, and challenging for me, it's not really a speciality, and it changes constantly. But part of me wonders like Erica - what if? Maybe I'd be happier as an academic.
Finding who we are - Being Erica states, is a continuous process. Being Erica does for a women's 30s, what the tv series Buffy did for a woman in her teens.
The other excellent piece of television that I saw tonight -- The Good Wife. It once again reminded me of why I chose not to be a criminal defense attorney or prosecutor - another choice I struggled with. I struggled with the decision not to become a lawyer - after investing so much time and energy into trying to become one. It was painful. I still bear the wounds and tend to be somewhat defensive about it. There's nothing worse than the someone asking me why I'm not one. People don't get it - well some do, the ones who have struggled with it like I have, who gave it up - for similar reasons. They get it. And I have turned the law degree into a career - I got the job and career that I have now because of that degree. At any rate there's this great line or exchange in the episode that made me laugh - because it hit the frustration of human interaction on the nutshell:
Diane ( an older attorney played by Christine Baranski) is out to dinner with her ballastics expert, with whom she's been engaging in a bit of a flirtation. She calls him The Marlboro Man.
He's played by Gary Cole.
Diane: I can't do this. You love Sarah Palin and I think she is the devil incarnate.
Marlboro Man: Yup.
Diane: I mean how can you justify backstreet abortions..
Marlboro Man (states the percentage of people killed by legal abortions each year)
Diane: Don't, don't speak..
Marlboro Man: okay. (he kisses her)
Diane (springs up): I want to stay, I really do, but I can't do this - over three generations of Democratic ancestors are screaming at me to leave. (she pauses , then kisses him. And I laugh!!!)
Oh I adore The Good Wife. Three tough women. Kalinda, Alicia, and Diane. Mostly from their perspectives. Great tv.
In Plain Sight - the third great tv show saw today...the episode was when Marshal Mann
first met Mary Shannon...and their back and forth is the meat of the series. This season has wisely gotten rid of the family or pushed them on the back-burner for a bit, and gotten back to Marshal and Mary's partnership and friendship. The family is still there, but it's not overshadowing the heart of it.
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