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shadowkatBad day. Or rather long day. Work continues to frustrate me. And I feel lonely, lj occasionally makes me feel really lonely - like this week, it's this feeling that you are the only one adrift, single, sitting in an apartment, typing away, or a cubicle, surrounded by co-workers - apart. I think sometimes I feel more lonely when I'm aware of others lives than I am when I am not. Odd that. Don't mind me, it's that time of month again for irrational crankiness - I blame it on the moon and maybe the snow falling quietly below...where being alone feels more like a festering wound than a blanket.
The meetup group ads sent to me are amusing and rather reassuring, yet at the same time oddly sad:
*Shy Singles - this is a meetup for shy singles to do activities together. This reminds me of the Introvert meetup group. Don't see it being successful. Also not sure if it's meant to be a support group or a dating group. My difficulty? I'm not really that shy. I get with groups of people where everyone doesn't know each other - and I talk up a storm (as those who have met me in person can most likely attest to. I babble. I can be witty about it. I am in person a bit like I am here - except funnier, since wit works better with an actual voice and body language attached. ) If I went to this group - I'd be the only one talking - it would not be pretty.
*Best Friends Forever - sick of transitional friends, want something more long term, feel adrift, meet people to form long-lasting relationships with. Who knows, you might find your mate?
Nice to know I'm not the only one out there who feels incredibly lonely at times, isn't it?
Oh and it is snowing dang it. Which means another 7-10 inches. I've been wearing knee high boots for two weeks. And I'm sick of it. I walk quite a bit during my commute. And take two trains. Could be worse, could be driving.
Have not been in a tv watching mood - which is unfortunate because tv is piling on top of me. By that, I mean - my DVR. I got ten episodes of Breaking Bad to watch. Two of House. Two of The Cape - which I may just delete and get rid of. Harry's Law, the US version of Being Human, Lights Out, Gossip Girl, Pioneers of TV : The Western. It's insane. I have got to stop using the DVR to sample anything that looks mildly interesting. TV junkie big time. I don't get people who tell me - there's nothing on tv or they only watch one show. How can you do that? There's so many cool things on.
Yes, the challenge of having eclectic taste.
Saw Downton Abbey last night - brilliant. Absolutely Brilliant. I rather adore it. The whole entail bit fascinates me, partly because of my law background and how it reminds me of similar laws on Missouri books. Although not quite to that degree. Had a lengthy conversation about British/European class issues vs. American class issues with Momster over the phone last night. Momster stated that while Americans do have similar class issues - it is far subtler. We don't have the royalty of course, or the titles - which makes a huge difference. Also as time has worn on - old wealth does not quite have the same degree of cloute it once did - back in the 17-1800s, and early 1900s, with the Ton. Where you run into it - is with education. Those who went to Har-Vard. Or YALE, or PRinceton, or the IVY League East Coast schools - which are not only difficult for anyone beneath a certain social status to get into, but extreemly expensive. And many of the higher paying, more high profile employment opportunities in NY are reserved for these people. In NY - education is key and the best education is still reserved mainly for those who can afford it - with their vouchers, etc. This is a big difference between NY and Kansas City and much of the mid-west. Although my mother ran into it in Chicago. New Wealth is still frowned upon a bit here. Also, we do have derogatory terms for the lower working class - blue-collar (is the nice one), white trash, honky, trailer-trash, redneck, all come to mind. Many members of my own extended family have been called these names. So I am familar with them. Another is "Hillbilly" - which I was called by a third grade teacher because of a speech impediment she did not understand, she met my parents - and realized how idiotic she was. Downton Abbey though is more advert as was Misfits. But again we don't have Dukes, Duchesses, and Kings and Queens. We fought a bloody war to not have them. (Which is rather amusing, considering we are so enamored of them in culture and tend to romanticize - just see the Disney films. Actually that war like all wars was mostly about economics...and not really about the feudal system.)
Anyhow, Downton Abbey fascinates me. It's very female centric. The majority of the characters are women and it's central issue is about women's rights during that time period. Finely structured and with great detail. I love detailed stories, as you may have gathered. Somewhat detail oriented.
Haven't watched much else though. I think watching the Misfits marathon on my laptop on Saturday burned me out a bit? I don't know. Having troubles focusing. Mostly due to the weather - I suspect, and well work being a frustrating nightmare. We can't do anything. We stare at our work piling up and it stares back. Boring and frustrating. We keep trying to find work-arounds, because highly analytical problem solvers - we can't not hunt for a way to make it work. It's insane. Yet, apparently working for the defense contracting industry is much much worse - since I'm a pacifist and think war is idiotic and weapons more trouble than they are worth (although I admit, we'd be idiots not to have them when everyone else does including folks who really hate us), this is probably a good thing - because I won't be tempted to try it out.
Don't suppose anyone scrolling by has any cyberhugs handy? Could use a few. (yes, shameless plug for hugs, sorry about that.)
The meetup group ads sent to me are amusing and rather reassuring, yet at the same time oddly sad:
*Shy Singles - this is a meetup for shy singles to do activities together. This reminds me of the Introvert meetup group. Don't see it being successful. Also not sure if it's meant to be a support group or a dating group. My difficulty? I'm not really that shy. I get with groups of people where everyone doesn't know each other - and I talk up a storm (as those who have met me in person can most likely attest to. I babble. I can be witty about it. I am in person a bit like I am here - except funnier, since wit works better with an actual voice and body language attached. ) If I went to this group - I'd be the only one talking - it would not be pretty.
*Best Friends Forever - sick of transitional friends, want something more long term, feel adrift, meet people to form long-lasting relationships with. Who knows, you might find your mate?
Nice to know I'm not the only one out there who feels incredibly lonely at times, isn't it?
Oh and it is snowing dang it. Which means another 7-10 inches. I've been wearing knee high boots for two weeks. And I'm sick of it. I walk quite a bit during my commute. And take two trains. Could be worse, could be driving.
Have not been in a tv watching mood - which is unfortunate because tv is piling on top of me. By that, I mean - my DVR. I got ten episodes of Breaking Bad to watch. Two of House. Two of The Cape - which I may just delete and get rid of. Harry's Law, the US version of Being Human, Lights Out, Gossip Girl, Pioneers of TV : The Western. It's insane. I have got to stop using the DVR to sample anything that looks mildly interesting. TV junkie big time. I don't get people who tell me - there's nothing on tv or they only watch one show. How can you do that? There's so many cool things on.
Yes, the challenge of having eclectic taste.
Saw Downton Abbey last night - brilliant. Absolutely Brilliant. I rather adore it. The whole entail bit fascinates me, partly because of my law background and how it reminds me of similar laws on Missouri books. Although not quite to that degree. Had a lengthy conversation about British/European class issues vs. American class issues with Momster over the phone last night. Momster stated that while Americans do have similar class issues - it is far subtler. We don't have the royalty of course, or the titles - which makes a huge difference. Also as time has worn on - old wealth does not quite have the same degree of cloute it once did - back in the 17-1800s, and early 1900s, with the Ton. Where you run into it - is with education. Those who went to Har-Vard. Or YALE, or PRinceton, or the IVY League East Coast schools - which are not only difficult for anyone beneath a certain social status to get into, but extreemly expensive. And many of the higher paying, more high profile employment opportunities in NY are reserved for these people. In NY - education is key and the best education is still reserved mainly for those who can afford it - with their vouchers, etc. This is a big difference between NY and Kansas City and much of the mid-west. Although my mother ran into it in Chicago. New Wealth is still frowned upon a bit here. Also, we do have derogatory terms for the lower working class - blue-collar (is the nice one), white trash, honky, trailer-trash, redneck, all come to mind. Many members of my own extended family have been called these names. So I am familar with them. Another is "Hillbilly" - which I was called by a third grade teacher because of a speech impediment she did not understand, she met my parents - and realized how idiotic she was. Downton Abbey though is more advert as was Misfits. But again we don't have Dukes, Duchesses, and Kings and Queens. We fought a bloody war to not have them. (Which is rather amusing, considering we are so enamored of them in culture and tend to romanticize - just see the Disney films. Actually that war like all wars was mostly about economics...and not really about the feudal system.)
Anyhow, Downton Abbey fascinates me. It's very female centric. The majority of the characters are women and it's central issue is about women's rights during that time period. Finely structured and with great detail. I love detailed stories, as you may have gathered. Somewhat detail oriented.
Haven't watched much else though. I think watching the Misfits marathon on my laptop on Saturday burned me out a bit? I don't know. Having troubles focusing. Mostly due to the weather - I suspect, and well work being a frustrating nightmare. We can't do anything. We stare at our work piling up and it stares back. Boring and frustrating. We keep trying to find work-arounds, because highly analytical problem solvers - we can't not hunt for a way to make it work. It's insane. Yet, apparently working for the defense contracting industry is much much worse - since I'm a pacifist and think war is idiotic and weapons more trouble than they are worth (although I admit, we'd be idiots not to have them when everyone else does including folks who really hate us), this is probably a good thing - because I won't be tempted to try it out.
Don't suppose anyone scrolling by has any cyberhugs handy? Could use a few. (yes, shameless plug for hugs, sorry about that.)
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Date: 2011-01-28 02:16 am (UTC)Or even better two. hee.