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shadowkatTaking five day weekend Memorial Day Weekend - parents offered for me to come down to Hilton Head, my father even offered to pay for it. But I declined, as my mother knew I would - too frigging stressful to travel and I want to complete things that I've been procrastinating around my apartment, see a few movies in the theaters, and get away from people. Hilton Head is sort of boring, with decrepit parents - mother is recovering from a hip replacement and padre is making due. I adore them. But they aren't as active as they used to be. But neither am I.
At the physical therapists - the scheduler refused to look into June and schedule more appointments, because she didn't want to deal with her birthday, which was in June - she was ...wait for it...turning 30, and she JUST couldn't handle it. I mentioned this to co-worker who is 62, who rolled his eyes.
Merlin - rather adore Merlin, particularly the actor portraying him. I empathisize with the character. I know what it is like to hold back or hide parts of myself from others for fear of how they will relate to me. I empathize with the other, always have, because I know what it is like to be bullied, teased, and hated for being different, not mainstream, not like the majority. Left of Center. Different. Separate. Which is why I adored the X-men, Merlin, and Buffy. Also why the majority of my friends often fall into that category - they too know what it is like to want to hide or to hide a part of themselves. Most of, if not all of my friends know from personal experience what it is like to be treated as the other. And I initially went to law school to fight for the other - for our rights, but failed in achieving that. I have not succeeded in doing any of the things I set out to do. I don't know why. I keep thinking it's a flaw deep in my character that I can't quite figure out how to fix. But enuf. I only tell this shit to the people who read my lj. On the off chance you'll get it.
Anyhow that's possibly why I have a weakness for the Merlin legend, because neither does Merlin. He doesn't quite succeed in achieving what he set out to do either and wonders if it is a flaw in his character. I've always adored the Merlin story. My hope is before the season is over, Merlin will reveal himself to Arthur and Gwen and the others. I don't hold out much hope that Arthur will survive the series. He never does. Why should this version be any different? In each version - Mordred kills him.
* Mordred wants Arthur to forgive his long-lost love, Kara, who wants to destroy Arthur and believes like Morgana that Arthur is the root of all evil. This is reminiscient of when Merlin attempted to save a girl - only to lose her in the first season. The two stories are oddly parallel to each other. In both cases the girl is dangerous. In both cases she must die. How Mordred and Merlin deal afterwards is vastly different.
* Mordred unlike Merlin is more consumed with emotion, and has troubles seeing the bigger picture. He can't see that Arthur has no choice in regards to Kara - who vows to kill him and destroy Camelot and is vehement with her hatred.
* Merlin's big mistake is not keeping Mordred's confidence and telling Arthur that Mordred was helping Kara escape. He was so afraid of what he foresaw that he oddly engineered it's actuality. He would have been better off keeping the confidence. But you can see why he chose not too - too many times he made similar mistakes. And well, the vision and other's statements about not trusting Mordred haunted him. Now he's guaranteed Mordred's betrayal of himself and Arthur to Morgana. Mostly himself.
* And Mordred's actions make sense. All along Mordred has been testing Merlin and Arthur, never quite trusting them. Sooner or later they would fail. Mordred also was stuck between two worlds and lusted after power...unlike Merlin, he couldn't be a servant, he had to be a knight. There's a certain amount of arrogance in the character. You can see him expecting the other's to trust Kara because of him.
So the story worked, even if it was at times frustrating to watch. In some respects the Mordred and Morgana in this tale work better for me than they do in the original versions.
Their motivation is more complicated and they are more multi-dimensional.
I'll miss this series when it ends, it has gotten better as it goes along. With a few missteps here and there, but that's true of most tv serials.
At the physical therapists - the scheduler refused to look into June and schedule more appointments, because she didn't want to deal with her birthday, which was in June - she was ...wait for it...turning 30, and she JUST couldn't handle it. I mentioned this to co-worker who is 62, who rolled his eyes.
Merlin - rather adore Merlin, particularly the actor portraying him. I empathisize with the character. I know what it is like to hold back or hide parts of myself from others for fear of how they will relate to me. I empathize with the other, always have, because I know what it is like to be bullied, teased, and hated for being different, not mainstream, not like the majority. Left of Center. Different. Separate. Which is why I adored the X-men, Merlin, and Buffy. Also why the majority of my friends often fall into that category - they too know what it is like to want to hide or to hide a part of themselves. Most of, if not all of my friends know from personal experience what it is like to be treated as the other. And I initially went to law school to fight for the other - for our rights, but failed in achieving that. I have not succeeded in doing any of the things I set out to do. I don't know why. I keep thinking it's a flaw deep in my character that I can't quite figure out how to fix. But enuf. I only tell this shit to the people who read my lj. On the off chance you'll get it.
Anyhow that's possibly why I have a weakness for the Merlin legend, because neither does Merlin. He doesn't quite succeed in achieving what he set out to do either and wonders if it is a flaw in his character. I've always adored the Merlin story. My hope is before the season is over, Merlin will reveal himself to Arthur and Gwen and the others. I don't hold out much hope that Arthur will survive the series. He never does. Why should this version be any different? In each version - Mordred kills him.
* Mordred wants Arthur to forgive his long-lost love, Kara, who wants to destroy Arthur and believes like Morgana that Arthur is the root of all evil. This is reminiscient of when Merlin attempted to save a girl - only to lose her in the first season. The two stories are oddly parallel to each other. In both cases the girl is dangerous. In both cases she must die. How Mordred and Merlin deal afterwards is vastly different.
* Mordred unlike Merlin is more consumed with emotion, and has troubles seeing the bigger picture. He can't see that Arthur has no choice in regards to Kara - who vows to kill him and destroy Camelot and is vehement with her hatred.
* Merlin's big mistake is not keeping Mordred's confidence and telling Arthur that Mordred was helping Kara escape. He was so afraid of what he foresaw that he oddly engineered it's actuality. He would have been better off keeping the confidence. But you can see why he chose not too - too many times he made similar mistakes. And well, the vision and other's statements about not trusting Mordred haunted him. Now he's guaranteed Mordred's betrayal of himself and Arthur to Morgana. Mostly himself.
* And Mordred's actions make sense. All along Mordred has been testing Merlin and Arthur, never quite trusting them. Sooner or later they would fail. Mordred also was stuck between two worlds and lusted after power...unlike Merlin, he couldn't be a servant, he had to be a knight. There's a certain amount of arrogance in the character. You can see him expecting the other's to trust Kara because of him.
So the story worked, even if it was at times frustrating to watch. In some respects the Mordred and Morgana in this tale work better for me than they do in the original versions.
Their motivation is more complicated and they are more multi-dimensional.
I'll miss this series when it ends, it has gotten better as it goes along. With a few missteps here and there, but that's true of most tv serials.
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Date: 2013-05-19 09:00 am (UTC)unlike Merlin, he couldn't be a servant, he had to be a knight. There's a certain amount of arrogance in the character.
Yes. When I rewatched the first series I was struck by how arrogant Merlin was in the early episodes, but he learnt to suppress his arrogance (mostly) and be Arthur's servant. Mordred's different life experiences mean he's never needed to do that and, in the end, can't.
What's so utterly tragic is that Arthur did give Kara a second chance when he didn't need to, but Mordred never knew that.
I'll miss this series when it ends
I'm still missing it :(