This 'n That...
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shadowkatA huge thanks to everyone who responded to the late night pangs post. Your support is greatly appreciated. Also thanks for putting up with the whining - which only about thirty people get to witness, since I friend's lock all whining posts. A girl needs some privacy, you know. Granted posting on the internet can feel like shouting from a loud speaker at times, but with friend's lock and on livejournal, it feels a little more intimate.
Sorry haven't responded. Sort of in low-profile mode this week, after my emotional breakdown at the start of the week...feeling much better. Partly because I actually applied to six jobs this week so far. Partly because I was reminded today at a lovely lunch with two friends, (editor friend and S), that I'm not alone and there are others out there who have been struggling without a word for as long as I have. Job-hunting sucks. The only people who are any good at it are natural salesmen and enterprenurs who could probably make a living running their own business.
Oh that reminds me, fortune cookie at lunch today stated: "When Feeling Low, Try Contacting An Old Friend", I remember thinking, actually the new friends have been the most helpful lately - by new, the one's I've meet over the last two years through the wacky world of the internet. Course friendship is a transistory thing, people pass in and out of our lives periodically. It's up to us to take notice of them when they are in it.
Spending a quiet 4th of July weekend/Canada Day...all by my lonesome. Wales is off visiting family. CW visiting a friend and her mother. CJL at the ATPO board meet - lucky boy, beginning to feel envious of ATPO Board meet people - not for the BTVS/ATS stuff so much as the chocolat, cookies, and other sweets - oh and of course the actual face to face interaction.
Ah well. Que Sera Sera, as they say. Promise not to mope. Might actually try to write something creative for a change of pace. Started something tonight - spurned off of an idea I got watching a bad soap opera. See bad TV can give us good ideas.
Also might rent movies. Can't take self to Spiderman, promised CJL (okay he didn't actually receive my promise since stupid aol bounced my response, but hey, I wrote it and sent it), I'd see it when he gets back. The Trailer looks fantastic and it's gotten good reviews from my FL who I trust, well sort of trust.
Some of those people liked Van Helsing - so I am wary. There are other movies I wish to see - Bourne Supremacy (yes, Ludlum Spy-Espionage geek, sue me), and King Arthur (the people are so pretty and Guienvere actually seems to be a warrior here instead of a wimpering damsel). But one must be careful with finances especially since I need to buy new contacts and see the eye doctor next month.
At any rate, wishing those lurking out there or who are reading me on FL, a wonderful 4th of July Weekend.
PS: TV is getting more interesting - we have Roswell on at 4pm on Sci-Fi, Farscape on in the day, new Nip/Tuck episodes on at 10 pm on F/X, West Wing re-runs at 7pm on Bravo, Coupling on BBC America Sundays at 9pm, Arrested Development Sundays at 8:30Pm, and DS9 reruns at 1 pm all week on Spike. Also Star Gate SG1 Atlantis starts next week. This works wonderfully if you haven't seen all these episodes or not in a while at any rate. Enjoying Rosewell, better than I remembered it. Going to try a Farscape episode tomorrow during the day. Atlantis looks sort of intriguing, not a huge fan of SG1, but I like the previews for it's spin-off. Interesting scripted TV isn't dead - it's just hidden itself in bizarre timeslots, channels and re-runs.
Sorry haven't responded. Sort of in low-profile mode this week, after my emotional breakdown at the start of the week...feeling much better. Partly because I actually applied to six jobs this week so far. Partly because I was reminded today at a lovely lunch with two friends, (editor friend and S), that I'm not alone and there are others out there who have been struggling without a word for as long as I have. Job-hunting sucks. The only people who are any good at it are natural salesmen and enterprenurs who could probably make a living running their own business.
Oh that reminds me, fortune cookie at lunch today stated: "When Feeling Low, Try Contacting An Old Friend", I remember thinking, actually the new friends have been the most helpful lately - by new, the one's I've meet over the last two years through the wacky world of the internet. Course friendship is a transistory thing, people pass in and out of our lives periodically. It's up to us to take notice of them when they are in it.
Spending a quiet 4th of July weekend/Canada Day...all by my lonesome. Wales is off visiting family. CW visiting a friend and her mother. CJL at the ATPO board meet - lucky boy, beginning to feel envious of ATPO Board meet people - not for the BTVS/ATS stuff so much as the chocolat, cookies, and other sweets - oh and of course the actual face to face interaction.
Ah well. Que Sera Sera, as they say. Promise not to mope. Might actually try to write something creative for a change of pace. Started something tonight - spurned off of an idea I got watching a bad soap opera. See bad TV can give us good ideas.
Also might rent movies. Can't take self to Spiderman, promised CJL (okay he didn't actually receive my promise since stupid aol bounced my response, but hey, I wrote it and sent it), I'd see it when he gets back. The Trailer looks fantastic and it's gotten good reviews from my FL who I trust, well sort of trust.
Some of those people liked Van Helsing - so I am wary. There are other movies I wish to see - Bourne Supremacy (yes, Ludlum Spy-Espionage geek, sue me), and King Arthur (the people are so pretty and Guienvere actually seems to be a warrior here instead of a wimpering damsel). But one must be careful with finances especially since I need to buy new contacts and see the eye doctor next month.
At any rate, wishing those lurking out there or who are reading me on FL, a wonderful 4th of July Weekend.
PS: TV is getting more interesting - we have Roswell on at 4pm on Sci-Fi, Farscape on in the day, new Nip/Tuck episodes on at 10 pm on F/X, West Wing re-runs at 7pm on Bravo, Coupling on BBC America Sundays at 9pm, Arrested Development Sundays at 8:30Pm, and DS9 reruns at 1 pm all week on Spike. Also Star Gate SG1 Atlantis starts next week. This works wonderfully if you haven't seen all these episodes or not in a while at any rate. Enjoying Rosewell, better than I remembered it. Going to try a Farscape episode tomorrow during the day. Atlantis looks sort of intriguing, not a huge fan of SG1, but I like the previews for it's spin-off. Interesting scripted TV isn't dead - it's just hidden itself in bizarre timeslots, channels and re-runs.
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Date: 2004-07-02 08:58 am (UTC)My sister has been out of work for a year and a half, her COBRA has run out and she's depleting her bank account. Every day she checks the newspapers and the internet, faxes and e mails resumes and cover letters but rarely gets a call from the employers. When she does go on an interview she's all excited but I've learned not to say much because after they don't call back she's terribly depressed. She told me recently she's had thoughts about suicide. I find myself things of things for us to do just so she doesn't sit home and brood.
Oh god. That is a perfect description of my situation as well. Cobra run out - check. Depleted my funds - check. Hunting through papers, emails, jobsites, friend recommendations, network, - check. Getting geared up for an interview - working your ass off for it - not getting it, check. Considering suicide as a way out - check.
The problem is you feel a bit like a rat in a maze, you keep hunting ways out and hit barriers. Meanwhile you hear tales of other rats who have found part-time jobs, working temp, and doing freelance or have found a job they love. You wonder - what the heck is wrong with you that you can't get this. Or is it where you are living? Then you wonder, would everyone be better off if you weren't here, including you? Of course not. But they say dogs in traps are known to eat their own paws to get out.
The problem is - after 9/11, and the economy crashed, employers decided that they could use one employee for three jobs. They call this increased productivity. The President and US Govt. hoping to help businesses thrive created legislation that permitted employers to outsource work overseas - so you can have a customer service center for a US based company and US based customers in India. US jobs started going to other countries. The Telemarketing jobs I could get in the 1990s now are done outside my country. As a result you have over 300 resumes sent for every job announcement. The employers can pick who they choose, pay whatever they want and provide a low benefits package. Ugh. If you have a job feel lucky. This is probably the worst time since the Great Depression to be unemployed.