Y2/D323...Sigh, February Uglies
Feb. 2nd, 2022 08:50 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
shadowkatEvery time I'd complain in February, my father would say, "you have a case of the February uglies."
Gloomy, glum, ugly day. The sky was the color of sleet or granite. So was the snow. And the pavement. And the trees. In fact that dull gray color hung over everything.
I forgot to take my meds this morning. Luckily it didn't mean much except that I felt off until I got to work and was able to eat something else for breakfast (blood sugar was low), and apparently I had some sinus congestion which in combination with the weather was causing a little wooziness - that was quickly fixed with tynenol sinus headache meds. I also shook slightly more than usual. (It was my tremor and diabetic meds, plus vitamins.) I realized this when I got to the train - and it was far too late to turn back and take them. Almost panicked, until I remembered I'd done the same thing the previous Sunday, yet managed somehow to survive the experience.
Brain fog this morning. Too tired. Hadn't slept that well the night before, and work is stressing me out at the moment.
Anyhow, on the train about twenty minutes away from work, super calls me to ask if they can paint my apartment today.
ME: Uh, I'm on the train to work at the moment.
Super: That's okay, can we paint your apartment today. The right color paint came in.
Me: I've not moved anything -
Super: we can move stuff.
Me: I have clothes laying out...
Super: They are painting other apartments today, they may not finish - and will have to do tomorrow too.
Me: Well that won't work - since I'm working from home tomorrow. Can they do it next week - I'm in the office Tuesday and Thursday of next week.
Super: Okay, but I will have to reschedule with them all..Did you not get my text?
ME: Sorry, I didn't check my texts yesterday. (I rarely check them, because hardly anyone texts me, and I don't get notifications.)
Had similar interaction with Wales, who is thinking things are getting better with COVID, since no one at her workplace has gotten it since she came down with it. Wish I could say the same about mine - every week, it's someone else. On Twitter someone asked if anyone had been vaxxed and boosted that didn't have it - they were looking for a bit of hope. I tweeted well, Myself and my entire extended family with just a few exceptions, has been vaxxed and boosted and not tested positive for COVID. (We've had colds but not COVID - according to various tests.) So 20 people?
Latest co-worker to come down with it - had a mild case. So far 85% of my co-workers appear to have had it. Along with their entire families.
Meanwhile according to mother, niece is off to Southern Portugal with her roommate. They plan on staying at a hostel. (Yes, during a pandemic no less - but then again, it is Portugal - which is possibly the safest place you can be at the moment - since it's 100% vaccinated.) They got a deal on air fair - $50 tickets to and from Portugal. (I'm guessing its cheaper to travel from Britain to Europe than well anywhere in the US or the US to anywhere else. I'm thinking of retiring to Europe. Hmm, maybe Wales. I'd do Scotland, but I think Wales has more trees. I have both heritage, along with Irish - so they'd probably let me in.)
****
In case no one has figured it out by now? (Not sure how, it should be obvious.) I have a self-deprecating wit. I beat myself up before anyone else can or put myself down before they get the chance. It can back fire, when they don't correct me - which they don't, so 98% of the time, still works nicely as a shield. Been doing that at work a lot lately, mainly because I feel like a colossal hypocrite for complaining about things.
Used to drive my father nuts - mainly because it's hard to be critical of someone who has beat you to it. He does the same thing, so he should at least know where I learned it from.
***
Crazy Workplace had the all hands on deck town hall meeting - basically a huge group meeting with everyone in the specific agency. New York State decided to merge all the transportation agencies by creating yet another agency to put all the functions into. This is why I don't think socialism can work - politicians make horrid business decisions. Not that the private sector is necessarily much better.
Actually, I've been through various corporate and organizational mergers and transformations, across industries, and they always make the same mistakes. It's quite astounding actually how they manage that. You'd think they would make different mistakes or learn from each other - but no.
Every time - the same result. Poor morale. Marketing folks putting a positive spin. Burned out and overworked and understaffed employees. Lots of meetings where the leaders tell everyone how great everyone is doing, when they know that's a lie. Questions being side-stepped. Lots of new hires at the big-whig level, lots of resignations.
It's enough to make you think we're all doomed. Maybe we are? And Maybe that's not a bad thing? At any rate, I'm not sure they know what they are doing - but they certainly are good at putting on a dog & pony show to make it look like they do.
I feel like I live in bizarro world - where what I see in front of me, touch, taste, and hear is not what everyone is saying it is. It's as if the world is trying to gaslight me?
***
I decided to take Friday off as a vacation day - rather than brave the icy sleety mix that is being predicted for Friday. Plus I wanted a mental health day.
I told Breaking Bad that I had decided to take vacation day as opposed to putting my life at risk. He seemed to agree, considering he took Monday off to dig his car out of snow drifts.
***
Do you have dreams that you remember from a long time ago that feel vaguely like memories...and you wonder if they are real, but realize there's no possible way that they can be? I wonder if this what my father feels like most of the time?
***
The brain fog is definitely back - and it makes it hard to hold onto thoughts at times. Or remember crap.
Like what I was going to write next.
***
Oh...soap opera.
Media Critic - GH is the best written soap, best cast, best writers, and it just keeps getting better and better.
GH fandom: Huh? Are we even watching the same show? Are you stoned? Definitely A+ cast...but huh?
Also, we're beginning to think we're in an abusive relationship with this television show. It keeps promising us a great fun-filled hour of romance, and hijinks - and we keep tuning in, and it doesn't deliver.
***
And COVID
COVID cases are way down in the city, and state. All the way down to 5%. So we're headed back into the office en mass on February 14. Because management who has big offices, not cubicles, misses seeing everyone in the office and likes coming into the office. Apparently they don't like being in their big offices surrounded by a ghost town. Go figure.
They are going to run into some problems - since other workplaces and agencies have gone remote. And they just aren't competitive any longer.
People are getting lax again about the virus. Also subways are getting more crowded as are the trains.
And I'm flirting with books on my phone kindle. It's between a historical romance and Left Hand of Darkness. Also in paperback, Evelyn Waugh's A Handful of Dust.
***
I don't know about anyone else? But I'm exhausted.
So here, have a picture:
[Hmm, I should figure out how to do an icon of that photo.]
Gloomy, glum, ugly day. The sky was the color of sleet or granite. So was the snow. And the pavement. And the trees. In fact that dull gray color hung over everything.
I forgot to take my meds this morning. Luckily it didn't mean much except that I felt off until I got to work and was able to eat something else for breakfast (blood sugar was low), and apparently I had some sinus congestion which in combination with the weather was causing a little wooziness - that was quickly fixed with tynenol sinus headache meds. I also shook slightly more than usual. (It was my tremor and diabetic meds, plus vitamins.) I realized this when I got to the train - and it was far too late to turn back and take them. Almost panicked, until I remembered I'd done the same thing the previous Sunday, yet managed somehow to survive the experience.
Brain fog this morning. Too tired. Hadn't slept that well the night before, and work is stressing me out at the moment.
Anyhow, on the train about twenty minutes away from work, super calls me to ask if they can paint my apartment today.
ME: Uh, I'm on the train to work at the moment.
Super: That's okay, can we paint your apartment today. The right color paint came in.
Me: I've not moved anything -
Super: we can move stuff.
Me: I have clothes laying out...
Super: They are painting other apartments today, they may not finish - and will have to do tomorrow too.
Me: Well that won't work - since I'm working from home tomorrow. Can they do it next week - I'm in the office Tuesday and Thursday of next week.
Super: Okay, but I will have to reschedule with them all..Did you not get my text?
ME: Sorry, I didn't check my texts yesterday. (I rarely check them, because hardly anyone texts me, and I don't get notifications.)
Had similar interaction with Wales, who is thinking things are getting better with COVID, since no one at her workplace has gotten it since she came down with it. Wish I could say the same about mine - every week, it's someone else. On Twitter someone asked if anyone had been vaxxed and boosted that didn't have it - they were looking for a bit of hope. I tweeted well, Myself and my entire extended family with just a few exceptions, has been vaxxed and boosted and not tested positive for COVID. (We've had colds but not COVID - according to various tests.) So 20 people?
Latest co-worker to come down with it - had a mild case. So far 85% of my co-workers appear to have had it. Along with their entire families.
Meanwhile according to mother, niece is off to Southern Portugal with her roommate. They plan on staying at a hostel. (Yes, during a pandemic no less - but then again, it is Portugal - which is possibly the safest place you can be at the moment - since it's 100% vaccinated.) They got a deal on air fair - $50 tickets to and from Portugal. (I'm guessing its cheaper to travel from Britain to Europe than well anywhere in the US or the US to anywhere else. I'm thinking of retiring to Europe. Hmm, maybe Wales. I'd do Scotland, but I think Wales has more trees. I have both heritage, along with Irish - so they'd probably let me in.)
****
In case no one has figured it out by now? (Not sure how, it should be obvious.) I have a self-deprecating wit. I beat myself up before anyone else can or put myself down before they get the chance. It can back fire, when they don't correct me - which they don't, so 98% of the time, still works nicely as a shield. Been doing that at work a lot lately, mainly because I feel like a colossal hypocrite for complaining about things.
Used to drive my father nuts - mainly because it's hard to be critical of someone who has beat you to it. He does the same thing, so he should at least know where I learned it from.
***
Crazy Workplace had the all hands on deck town hall meeting - basically a huge group meeting with everyone in the specific agency. New York State decided to merge all the transportation agencies by creating yet another agency to put all the functions into. This is why I don't think socialism can work - politicians make horrid business decisions. Not that the private sector is necessarily much better.
Actually, I've been through various corporate and organizational mergers and transformations, across industries, and they always make the same mistakes. It's quite astounding actually how they manage that. You'd think they would make different mistakes or learn from each other - but no.
Every time - the same result. Poor morale. Marketing folks putting a positive spin. Burned out and overworked and understaffed employees. Lots of meetings where the leaders tell everyone how great everyone is doing, when they know that's a lie. Questions being side-stepped. Lots of new hires at the big-whig level, lots of resignations.
It's enough to make you think we're all doomed. Maybe we are? And Maybe that's not a bad thing? At any rate, I'm not sure they know what they are doing - but they certainly are good at putting on a dog & pony show to make it look like they do.
I feel like I live in bizarro world - where what I see in front of me, touch, taste, and hear is not what everyone is saying it is. It's as if the world is trying to gaslight me?
***
I decided to take Friday off as a vacation day - rather than brave the icy sleety mix that is being predicted for Friday. Plus I wanted a mental health day.
I told Breaking Bad that I had decided to take vacation day as opposed to putting my life at risk. He seemed to agree, considering he took Monday off to dig his car out of snow drifts.
***
Do you have dreams that you remember from a long time ago that feel vaguely like memories...and you wonder if they are real, but realize there's no possible way that they can be? I wonder if this what my father feels like most of the time?
***
The brain fog is definitely back - and it makes it hard to hold onto thoughts at times. Or remember crap.
Like what I was going to write next.
***
Oh...soap opera.
Media Critic - GH is the best written soap, best cast, best writers, and it just keeps getting better and better.
GH fandom: Huh? Are we even watching the same show? Are you stoned? Definitely A+ cast...but huh?
Also, we're beginning to think we're in an abusive relationship with this television show. It keeps promising us a great fun-filled hour of romance, and hijinks - and we keep tuning in, and it doesn't deliver.
***
And COVID
COVID cases are way down in the city, and state. All the way down to 5%. So we're headed back into the office en mass on February 14. Because management who has big offices, not cubicles, misses seeing everyone in the office and likes coming into the office. Apparently they don't like being in their big offices surrounded by a ghost town. Go figure.
They are going to run into some problems - since other workplaces and agencies have gone remote. And they just aren't competitive any longer.
People are getting lax again about the virus. Also subways are getting more crowded as are the trains.
And I'm flirting with books on my phone kindle. It's between a historical romance and Left Hand of Darkness. Also in paperback, Evelyn Waugh's A Handful of Dust.
***
I don't know about anyone else? But I'm exhausted.
So here, have a picture:
[Hmm, I should figure out how to do an icon of that photo.]
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Date: 2022-02-03 10:36 am (UTC)Yeah, it's often trivially cheap to be flown from the UK to mainland Europe, the price of rail in England can be such that, if one's friend's in a different city, it can be cheaper to grab dinner with them somewhere like Madrid or Malaga than for one to take a train across England to the other's city! Absurd and sad, really.
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Date: 2022-02-03 12:54 pm (UTC)It is absurd and sad, I prefer rail.