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Finds me taking a very brief walk around the block - too nervous about going much further. It's cool but not cold. I didn't wear a jacket and was okay, but wished I had one. Still wearing the mask I got from the friend in Arizona everywhere - mainly because it's the only I have that doesn't fall off the ears and feels thick enough. I also wear the blue and white dental surgical masks that I got from Amazon and just about every other person is wearing.
I hadn't left my apartment in four days. Well, except to take the trash to the shoot, which doesn't quite count. The new neighbors keep leaving assorted things with what appears to be a furniture transporter device in the hallway. I keep circling around it and keep wishing they'd remove it.
Today it had a debilitated cardboard box and plastic wrapping next to it.
The apartment that is catty corner to mine - which is where it was - gets a lot of turn over. It's had four different people in it since I moved in.
It's not that big. But it does have a nice kitchen and bath set up, although I think that shower/bath set up is rather hard - I struggled with it - when the super let me take a shower in there about five years ago, when it was vacant and pipes had frozen and they were trying to fix mine.
Anyhow, I'd edgy and irritable today. So I made banana nut muffins from a banana bread mix - Breads from Anna - Gluten Free/Allergy Free mixes. It required 1/3 cup oil (coconut oil), 3 large eggs (well beaten), 3 ripe bananas, chopped nuts, and the mix.
Rather easy. I prefer mixes because making my own allergy/grain free flour is hard. This also was yeast free.
It's good, but I think a bit too sweet? Maybe too many bananas? I don't know. I'm hormonal this weekend, and I have the typical headaches, hot flashes, and hormonal fluctuations that come this time of month. Unfortunately some of those symptoms fit COVID-19 - so I get confused and have to remind myself that I had the same ones not that long ago, and long before the stupid COVID thing existed. Allergies have similar issues. If you are plagued by peri-menopause, menopause, PMS, migraines, vertigo headaches, allergies, hot flashes, or ashma - the stupid pandemic is going to be ever so slightly crazy inducing.
Also did church via Zoom, or as my parents would call it music and a lecture. Not quite true, we do have rituals - such as candle lighting for a joy or concern, offertory - to give to people in need, a wisdom story - usually a book with pictures, and lots of great music and a sermon. I really can't handle more ritual than that. Rituals and organized religion makes me twitchy. Did put up cousin's name for prayers. The sermon was about generational divides and divisiveness and how we need to get over that.
Between talking to mother, jumping about on social media, torturing myself with the NY Times and the COVID MAP OF DOOM (I draw the line at Twitter - the people on Twitter have a mean sense of humor and think too highly of themselves, I keep wanting to smack them), I've been binge watching television shows. Was going to read, but can't get myself to do it.
( Mother and I discuss why I hate Twitter )
Anyhow, television. Because what else is there to do when you live alone in a small apartment with no deck, no terrace, no backyard, and a big 55 inch television set?
* Nancy Drew - finished watching this season, which had a nifty twist that actually tracked back to the beginning of the season and explained a lot of things. Not to mention how it set up some new conflicts. And, they killed off a semi-major character that not only kept the lead character in town, but also, set the series firmly in the category of femme noir meets paranormal hijinks.
( non-spoilery review )
The other thing I've binge watched and may or may not go back to - six episodes in at the moment, is Money Heist - this is the thing that all the critics and people love. It's a European Crime drama about a bunch of people who take the Spanish Mint in Madrid hostage. The actors are all European, although it appears to be filmed in English. It's gritty and compelling, even though I wouldn't say the characters are necessarily likable or that attractive. But it is so different from our current situation and so normal - it feels nicely escapist - it's a thriller, and we can escape into it, without worries. But, alas it is also violent, and I don't feel a desperate need to pick it up again.
I may try "Catherine the Great" or "Avatar: The Last Airbender" instead.
New York's email is taking a break for Memorial Day, although the Governor did his live-briefing from Jones Beach. My parents were impressed since he was in Albany yesterday and that's a long ride. I informed them that he has his own private plane - I know because I saw a picture of him and his daughter asleep on it on Facebook.
I kind of envied him - Jones Beach, while windy, would have been nice today.
He didn't really say anything new - except that we need to focus on rebuilding a better world after this is over and concentrate on infrastructure. I don't know - right now, I focusing on one day at a time - I think beyond that, I freak out and want to curl in a ball in the middle of my bed. My mother lives in fear of me calling her in tears and informing her that I have COVID, and there's nothing she can do to help me. While I live in fear that a hurricane will hit them in the middle of this crisis and there's nothing I can do. Life loves to bring new and interesting anxieties our way usually in the form of news reports on television that we could live without.
Oh, in case you missed it... This was the Front Page of the New York Times Today - ( Read more... )
I reach for normalcy. And when I watch taped television for a bit - I push what is happening outside to bay. I had to hunt a Nancy Drew episode on streaming because the one I taped was pre-empted by a news conference on COVID-19 - back then we had a mere 296 cases and the Doofus was setting up a task force to combat it, now with a 100,000, he's abandoned it and is playing golf, and telling churches they can reopen and hold services. It feels odd.
Sitting alone now in the silence. I find myself weary and fatigued. And wondering...what the world will bring upon the morrow, with the sun high in the air and the sky a pristine blue. Today it was cool and overcast. Now it is finally dark, with the nightlights on in various area houses, where people sit much like myself either alone or with their families...wondering much the same thing, when will this be over? And what will our world look like when it is? I wish I was more hopeful, but I've seen too many horror films...the endings aren't always that clear.
I hadn't left my apartment in four days. Well, except to take the trash to the shoot, which doesn't quite count. The new neighbors keep leaving assorted things with what appears to be a furniture transporter device in the hallway. I keep circling around it and keep wishing they'd remove it.
Today it had a debilitated cardboard box and plastic wrapping next to it.
The apartment that is catty corner to mine - which is where it was - gets a lot of turn over. It's had four different people in it since I moved in.
It's not that big. But it does have a nice kitchen and bath set up, although I think that shower/bath set up is rather hard - I struggled with it - when the super let me take a shower in there about five years ago, when it was vacant and pipes had frozen and they were trying to fix mine.
Anyhow, I'd edgy and irritable today. So I made banana nut muffins from a banana bread mix - Breads from Anna - Gluten Free/Allergy Free mixes. It required 1/3 cup oil (coconut oil), 3 large eggs (well beaten), 3 ripe bananas, chopped nuts, and the mix.
Rather easy. I prefer mixes because making my own allergy/grain free flour is hard. This also was yeast free.
It's good, but I think a bit too sweet? Maybe too many bananas? I don't know. I'm hormonal this weekend, and I have the typical headaches, hot flashes, and hormonal fluctuations that come this time of month. Unfortunately some of those symptoms fit COVID-19 - so I get confused and have to remind myself that I had the same ones not that long ago, and long before the stupid COVID thing existed. Allergies have similar issues. If you are plagued by peri-menopause, menopause, PMS, migraines, vertigo headaches, allergies, hot flashes, or ashma - the stupid pandemic is going to be ever so slightly crazy inducing.
Also did church via Zoom, or as my parents would call it music and a lecture. Not quite true, we do have rituals - such as candle lighting for a joy or concern, offertory - to give to people in need, a wisdom story - usually a book with pictures, and lots of great music and a sermon. I really can't handle more ritual than that. Rituals and organized religion makes me twitchy. Did put up cousin's name for prayers. The sermon was about generational divides and divisiveness and how we need to get over that.
Between talking to mother, jumping about on social media, torturing myself with the NY Times and the COVID MAP OF DOOM (I draw the line at Twitter - the people on Twitter have a mean sense of humor and think too highly of themselves, I keep wanting to smack them), I've been binge watching television shows. Was going to read, but can't get myself to do it.
( Mother and I discuss why I hate Twitter )
Anyhow, television. Because what else is there to do when you live alone in a small apartment with no deck, no terrace, no backyard, and a big 55 inch television set?
* Nancy Drew - finished watching this season, which had a nifty twist that actually tracked back to the beginning of the season and explained a lot of things. Not to mention how it set up some new conflicts. And, they killed off a semi-major character that not only kept the lead character in town, but also, set the series firmly in the category of femme noir meets paranormal hijinks.
( non-spoilery review )
The other thing I've binge watched and may or may not go back to - six episodes in at the moment, is Money Heist - this is the thing that all the critics and people love. It's a European Crime drama about a bunch of people who take the Spanish Mint in Madrid hostage. The actors are all European, although it appears to be filmed in English. It's gritty and compelling, even though I wouldn't say the characters are necessarily likable or that attractive. But it is so different from our current situation and so normal - it feels nicely escapist - it's a thriller, and we can escape into it, without worries. But, alas it is also violent, and I don't feel a desperate need to pick it up again.
I may try "Catherine the Great" or "Avatar: The Last Airbender" instead.
New York's email is taking a break for Memorial Day, although the Governor did his live-briefing from Jones Beach. My parents were impressed since he was in Albany yesterday and that's a long ride. I informed them that he has his own private plane - I know because I saw a picture of him and his daughter asleep on it on Facebook.
I kind of envied him - Jones Beach, while windy, would have been nice today.
He didn't really say anything new - except that we need to focus on rebuilding a better world after this is over and concentrate on infrastructure. I don't know - right now, I focusing on one day at a time - I think beyond that, I freak out and want to curl in a ball in the middle of my bed. My mother lives in fear of me calling her in tears and informing her that I have COVID, and there's nothing she can do to help me. While I live in fear that a hurricane will hit them in the middle of this crisis and there's nothing I can do. Life loves to bring new and interesting anxieties our way usually in the form of news reports on television that we could live without.
Oh, in case you missed it... This was the Front Page of the New York Times Today - ( Read more... )
I reach for normalcy. And when I watch taped television for a bit - I push what is happening outside to bay. I had to hunt a Nancy Drew episode on streaming because the one I taped was pre-empted by a news conference on COVID-19 - back then we had a mere 296 cases and the Doofus was setting up a task force to combat it, now with a 100,000, he's abandoned it and is playing golf, and telling churches they can reopen and hold services. It feels odd.
Sitting alone now in the silence. I find myself weary and fatigued. And wondering...what the world will bring upon the morrow, with the sun high in the air and the sky a pristine blue. Today it was cool and overcast. Now it is finally dark, with the nightlights on in various area houses, where people sit much like myself either alone or with their families...wondering much the same thing, when will this be over? And what will our world look like when it is? I wish I was more hopeful, but I've seen too many horror films...the endings aren't always that clear.