Spontaneous Musings

Decided to just do it in three parts instead of four. Altogether it's approximately 41 pages and 20,531 words - or a novella. And it's not the best thing I've ever written. But I want to share it and preserve it. So if you do read it? Treat it like you'd have someone treat something you've written just for fun.

( No Regrets - part III. Finale. )

Apologies for typos and errors. At some point, when have time, will try to proof.

Three years ago, I tried my hand at fanfiction. The story that follows, was completed in January of 2006, before my lap-top was stolen, most of it was written bit by bit in my lj much like I write my posts - unbetaed by anyone but me. The final chapter however, was posted along with the rest of it on a scholary fanboard, which kept the story "private" or only available to the moderators and members of the board - I have no idea why. It wasn't my intent at any rate. So am posting it again here - so I can find it - and share it with those who read my lj.

I've written two fanfictions. This is the one I completed. The other may never be completed, but I will post it - hopefully in it's rough entirety after I finish posting this one.
This one is in four parts.

People write fanfiction for numerous reasons. But usually it is because they've fallen in love with a character or aspect of a work of art and wish to play with it further. The reason I did it was : 1)To see if I could sustain a dialogue between two people for a length of time. If I could move a story purely through conversation and description - no real action. And if I could make the two people sound different from one another, so you could tell who was talking without needing a "he said/she said" device. It was my response to a friend's critique of my last novel - she said everyone in it sounded alike. This critique niggled at me and I wanted to see if I could overcome it. 2) I fell in love with a television character, it happens, and his story felt incomplete to me or left me wanting more. I wanted to explore him in greater detail. This story in some ways explores my love for this character and may explain why I fell in love.

The story is not a romance. There is no sex. It is rated PG-13, mostly for language and adult themes. It has two characters - Buffy and Spike. It takes place ten-fifteen years after the events of Not Fade Away. In it a 40 year old Buffy has journeyed to a mountain in Colorado to visit a shan-shued Spike; he has in short become human finally. What follows is their conversation - the first one they've had since the day Buffy watched Spike give his life to close the hellmouth in Chosen.

( Part I of No Regrets, a fanfiction story in four parts )

TBC - in next post.