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After my shower, meditation, breakfast, etc this morning - I filled up a medium size, bright metallic blue water bottle. Its metal. And fairly noticeable or so one would think. I mean it's not something one can easily misplace. Besides I filled it with water and screwed on the top. Then I put it down beside my computer and went about my business - or so I thought.
When I went to turn on my computer, I could not find the water bottle any where. It was if it had mysteriously disappeared or someone had absconded with it - I live alone on the third floor, with no access to the apartment besides my double locked front door. So the absconding part is kind of impossible. I searched the entire apartment. The bathroom, around the toilet, underneath vanity, under the bed, behind the night stand, beneath the night stand. In the shower. In the toilet. Underneath the Television. Under the kitchen counters. In the sink. In the fridge. Every where. I had not left the apartment. And I live alone. It was no where to be found.
At lunch time, I inform mother that I have somehow misplaced my water bottle - it has mysteriously disappeared and I'm finding it more than a little unsettling. It has to be somewhere. Mother commiserated.
Then around about 8PM, I mention it again.
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I realized today why the sexual harassment scandal against the Governor is getting on my nerves. I'm afraid of him leaving. (I have a love/hate relationship with our Governor, I'm guessing I'm not alone in this.) He's actually done a good job to date. My job and workplace is kind of wrapped up with whatever the Governor does. When Spitzer left - we were spun into chaos. (Why has the Me#Too Movement only taken out moderate liberals who've helped the world, and not the equally guilty evil alt-right Republicans? Can someone explain that to me?]
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I started out the day in a great mood by the way. Then I lost the water bottle, and it spiraled down hill from there.
On a brighter note? I did get two of my three packages - the big boxes from Brooklyn Linen showed up. FedEx delivered them - and left them downstairs. FedEx is interesting. They will bring upstairs and leave by my door - small little packages. But big packages that are hard to carry, they leave downstairs. Because they are too lazy to cart them upstairs in their carts. (I have an elevator - two actually, there's no excuse.)
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The binoculars are coming tomorrow - which is cool, because I can use them on my walks around Greenwood Cemetery and Prospect Park over the weekend and on my days off.
***
Dentist called.
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Seriously, people need to learn how to accept the word "no". Also, since when does a dentist call you? It should be the other way around? That stinks of a desperate dentist. Desperate dentists make me nervous. And if I'm not willing to eat at a restaurant, get a massage, or have a hair cut - I'm not going to a dentist unless absolutely necessary. It can wait until the fall.
So did a few scammers. The extended warranty guys will not give up. It must be a profitable scam on some level?
***
I also did laundry. ( Read more... )
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I got into it with folks on Facebook. Apparently I was wrong - the City is not mis-managing the sites. And is as well-run as the state. A friends ...I'm not sure friend is the right word? Acquaintance?( Read more... )
***
As you can see it's been a bit of a day. Also it's cold again. But it supposed to warm up over the weekend in time to hit fifty for my birthday.
So maybe I'll be able to walk?
Mother told me at lunch that my brother was feeling empathy for me today. (Which apparently surprised her for some reason - and she felt the need to convey it to me.) That he was telling her how while listening to all these stories about people living alone, he realized that's what I've been doing. While he has a family. Or about people feeling lonely with roommates or spouses, but how I'm actually alone during this with no real relief from it.
It's not that bad. I get along well on my own for the most part. Much as I love people they can be taxing at times. Also my job is people intensive - via email and teams and the phone. And I live in an apartment in the middle of a city - I see people. I interact with them on some level. It could be worse - I could be stuck with someone who is driving me nuts.
I feel for my poor mother more. She misses my Dad so much. And worries about him. Her cousin was driving her nuts over the phone today - trying to talk her into convincing my brother or I to drop everything and move in with her until the crisis was over.( sigh )
So here we are.
I've not shared any of this with my extended family members or on FB - because honestly, I don't need the judgement and the opinions of people who think they know what's best. Or feel the need to impose their own situation onto us. I've also stopped going to the Bible Study Group - because I don't need their judgement either. I don't share it with my co-workers for much of the same reasons, although a few know the gist of it.
No, it's just you - you poor souls on Dreamwidth who've stuck with me through all of this, that I tell. The one's who were judging me - at the beginning, have long since gone or wisely just stopped saying anything. I thank you for just listening, occasionally commenting in support or commiseration, or merely scrolling on by. I need to have somewhere and someone to tell it to besides my mother... and well, Wales, who can't help but unload her insanity onto me at the same time.
One more month I tell myself. Just one.
I just have to make it past March.
The spring will be better. Things will get better.
I'm not alone in this I think...since I see the same statements repeatedly on the Governor's emails - we all just have to get to April.
Everyone seems to be saying this - hold out until April, when more people are vaccinated.
And more are getting the vaccine now. My doctor's office announced that it now had both the Pfizer and the Johnson & Johnson. The Johnson & Johnson is a potential game-changer - since it can get more of the population vaccinated much faster. It's just one dose, and no side-effects. Also no cold storage. Similar to the flu shot. Crazy Org has gotten 12,000 vaccinated and is trying to get to 20,000, they have 75,000 employees.
So I've hope that things will get better soon. Just have to get past March.
That's all. And..hey, I found the water bottle.
When I went to turn on my computer, I could not find the water bottle any where. It was if it had mysteriously disappeared or someone had absconded with it - I live alone on the third floor, with no access to the apartment besides my double locked front door. So the absconding part is kind of impossible. I searched the entire apartment. The bathroom, around the toilet, underneath vanity, under the bed, behind the night stand, beneath the night stand. In the shower. In the toilet. Underneath the Television. Under the kitchen counters. In the sink. In the fridge. Every where. I had not left the apartment. And I live alone. It was no where to be found.
At lunch time, I inform mother that I have somehow misplaced my water bottle - it has mysteriously disappeared and I'm finding it more than a little unsettling. It has to be somewhere. Mother commiserated.
Then around about 8PM, I mention it again.
( Read more... )
***
I realized today why the sexual harassment scandal against the Governor is getting on my nerves. I'm afraid of him leaving. (I have a love/hate relationship with our Governor, I'm guessing I'm not alone in this.) He's actually done a good job to date. My job and workplace is kind of wrapped up with whatever the Governor does. When Spitzer left - we were spun into chaos. (Why has the Me#Too Movement only taken out moderate liberals who've helped the world, and not the equally guilty evil alt-right Republicans? Can someone explain that to me?]
( Read more... )
***
I started out the day in a great mood by the way. Then I lost the water bottle, and it spiraled down hill from there.
On a brighter note? I did get two of my three packages - the big boxes from Brooklyn Linen showed up. FedEx delivered them - and left them downstairs. FedEx is interesting. They will bring upstairs and leave by my door - small little packages. But big packages that are hard to carry, they leave downstairs. Because they are too lazy to cart them upstairs in their carts. (I have an elevator - two actually, there's no excuse.)
( Read more... )
The binoculars are coming tomorrow - which is cool, because I can use them on my walks around Greenwood Cemetery and Prospect Park over the weekend and on my days off.
***
Dentist called.
( Read more... )
Seriously, people need to learn how to accept the word "no". Also, since when does a dentist call you? It should be the other way around? That stinks of a desperate dentist. Desperate dentists make me nervous. And if I'm not willing to eat at a restaurant, get a massage, or have a hair cut - I'm not going to a dentist unless absolutely necessary. It can wait until the fall.
So did a few scammers. The extended warranty guys will not give up. It must be a profitable scam on some level?
***
I also did laundry. ( Read more... )
***
I got into it with folks on Facebook. Apparently I was wrong - the City is not mis-managing the sites. And is as well-run as the state. A friends ...I'm not sure friend is the right word? Acquaintance?( Read more... )
***
As you can see it's been a bit of a day. Also it's cold again. But it supposed to warm up over the weekend in time to hit fifty for my birthday.
So maybe I'll be able to walk?
Mother told me at lunch that my brother was feeling empathy for me today. (Which apparently surprised her for some reason - and she felt the need to convey it to me.) That he was telling her how while listening to all these stories about people living alone, he realized that's what I've been doing. While he has a family. Or about people feeling lonely with roommates or spouses, but how I'm actually alone during this with no real relief from it.
It's not that bad. I get along well on my own for the most part. Much as I love people they can be taxing at times. Also my job is people intensive - via email and teams and the phone. And I live in an apartment in the middle of a city - I see people. I interact with them on some level. It could be worse - I could be stuck with someone who is driving me nuts.
I feel for my poor mother more. She misses my Dad so much. And worries about him. Her cousin was driving her nuts over the phone today - trying to talk her into convincing my brother or I to drop everything and move in with her until the crisis was over.( sigh )
So here we are.
I've not shared any of this with my extended family members or on FB - because honestly, I don't need the judgement and the opinions of people who think they know what's best. Or feel the need to impose their own situation onto us. I've also stopped going to the Bible Study Group - because I don't need their judgement either. I don't share it with my co-workers for much of the same reasons, although a few know the gist of it.
No, it's just you - you poor souls on Dreamwidth who've stuck with me through all of this, that I tell. The one's who were judging me - at the beginning, have long since gone or wisely just stopped saying anything. I thank you for just listening, occasionally commenting in support or commiseration, or merely scrolling on by. I need to have somewhere and someone to tell it to besides my mother... and well, Wales, who can't help but unload her insanity onto me at the same time.
One more month I tell myself. Just one.
I just have to make it past March.
The spring will be better. Things will get better.
I'm not alone in this I think...since I see the same statements repeatedly on the Governor's emails - we all just have to get to April.
Everyone seems to be saying this - hold out until April, when more people are vaccinated.
And more are getting the vaccine now. My doctor's office announced that it now had both the Pfizer and the Johnson & Johnson. The Johnson & Johnson is a potential game-changer - since it can get more of the population vaccinated much faster. It's just one dose, and no side-effects. Also no cold storage. Similar to the flu shot. Crazy Org has gotten 12,000 vaccinated and is trying to get to 20,000, they have 75,000 employees.
So I've hope that things will get better soon. Just have to get past March.
That's all. And..hey, I found the water bottle.