Comfortably Numb...

Here is where I'm archiving things to - in case anyone else feels the need to archive their essays, meta, fanfiction, fanworks - Archive of Our Own. I currently have over 188 works. (I'd explain all of this further - but from what I've seen in my past posts? I kind of have already? Repeatedly. About five to six times a year. It's getting repetitive. Also, I've reached the age now, in which I'm thinking why do I need to explain myself to anyone? Answer? I don't. Why I feel the need to - bewilders me.)

Yet I do...Sigh.

Ice Cream

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Comfortably Numb

There's a song by Pink Floyd... Comfortably Numb about this feeling of just being shut off.

I told mother tonight that I felt numb. It's the weirdest feeling. I just feel very little about anything. I'm not depressed. I'm just floating about...and happy to do so. And I don't really dwell on anything too long.

Mother told me that I'd most likely find most people would state the same. With COVID lasting so long, along with everything else...they have become comfortably numb.

Entertainment Conversations

Chidi: I saw Top Gun over the weekend - the sequel. It was amazing. So good.
Me: Okay.
Chidi: You should see it - everyone loved it!
Me: Eh, I've really no interest in Top Gun. I saw the original ages ago, and have no interest in the sequel.
Chidi: It was really entertaining!
ME: If you like watching people flying about in planes? (And Tom Cruise.)

Chidi has way too much energy for one person.

Twitter: The worst two romances are The Hating Game and the Unhoneymooners.
Me: Agree on the Hating Game (tried the book and the movie - could not get through either) never heard of the Unhoneymooners. But I'd definitely put Me Before You up there with worst romance novels ever written. (I keep wanting to call it Me Before You Except After Two for some reason - my mind feels this weird need to rhyme it off.)

Feel free to list yours. (I may live to regret that?)

Dreamwidth May Meme: Name a television show that you can't watch or have no interest in ever watching.
ME: The Bachelor and all of its spin offs. Ugh. The bits that I see due to commercials are painful enough. I asked someone once why they liked it - their response was that "as bad as things get - at least I'm not them".
Also I can't watch the Office. I've tried. Both the UK and US version - it's not happening. No interest whatsoever.

When it comes to reality shows - the only ones I've been able to watch or liked are the singing competitions (talent shows), dance competitions (except the interviews get on my nerves), home improvement (design a room or house such as Trading Spaces), baking competitions (Great British Bake Off), pottery competition, flower competition, basically anything where they are "building" or "making something" or performing a song.

What I can't watch is the "Drama" - real life soap opera does not work for me at all. I've zero patience for it.

Twitter: Worst father in television history?
Soap Twitter: Frisco - he wouldn't be able to find his grandkids in a lineup.
ME: Oh come on. On television dead beat Dad's are a dime a dozen. Frisco has nothing on the sadistic ones - such as Jamie, Cerise, and Tyrion's father on Game of Thrones, or the serial killer in Prodigal Son. I'd much prefer the absentee father to the sadistic one. But that's just me.

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Latest book that I'm reading - which I got for free on Kindle Unlimited, kind of reminds me why it was free. The writer clearly self-published this baby. I can't imagine a traditional publisher doing it - she gets a touch explicit in the sex scenes, and a touch...over the top? There's all these reviews damning the book as the worst thing ever - and I'm thinking, I still am not seeing anything that comes close to the ( spoiler from hell that you can't unsee, you were warned )

in Brett Easton Ellis' American Psycho.

So, maybe it was traditionally published? It's actually easier to read and write sadistic crap than it is to well watch it. And considering there's a lot of horror film writers out there who are making a good living filming it...actually they are filming far worse stuff than I've seen in books or fanfic. (Don't believe me - go look up Human Centipede - another description you can't un-see.) Let's face it - human beings have a sadistic side.

I don't know if I'll make it through this gothic novel. ( Read more... )