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2025-12-19 08:47 pm
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Friday took the day off for physical therapy and watched Buffy to comfort itself

Took the day off, had physical therapy ("PT") at 2 pm. Slept until 8 am, took a shower, made breakfast (fried eggs - sunny side up, fresh raw spinach, and grits), iced leg, did knee exercises, and watched several Buffy S5 episodes. (I'd forgotten a lot of it - so it was bingeable.)
Me rambling on about Buffy S5 episodes Fool for Love through Into the Woods )

Someone on Twitter asked - if you could only pick one vampire series from these four vampire series to keep - "Buffy, Angel, Vampire Diaries, and Interview with a Vampire" - which would it be? Read more... )

Listened to a bit more of the Juliet Landau Revamped podcast - and what works for me are her interviews with fellow castmates, producers, directors, writers, etc. She's an excellent interviewer. Also her insight on backstage tricks of the trade, and the process of filming. What does not work are the "Dru" commentary (which is annoying - a little Dru, goes a long ways), and the navel-gazing regarding her dysfunctional parents. Read more... ) But other folks are loving it, subscribe to it, and pay for it, so what do I know?

Latest on the reboot - is no, no one else in the original cast has been contacted. They have to get the pilot off the ground first. They do it differently now? They shoot and air the pilot, as a movie, if it takes off, then they order more episodes, and air those, usually just six to ten episodes, if they work, then so on. Right now - they just asked for the pilot.

I don't know. What they may not realize - is the fandom loves the original cast and has their own ideas what they want to see? And it may be diametrically opposed to what the fans writing and producing the pilot and continuation want to see? The Buffy fandom like all fandoms is kind of fractious?
***

Finished the Paul Newman Memoir and onto the Larry Silverstein one about the fight to rebuild the world trade center. Larry is 93 years of age. I didn't realize that, until I started listening to the book and realized he met his wife Klara in the 1954. He was 70 when the Twin Towers fell. He's writing about the struggle he had to rebuild them - in his 70s. So far, my main take away, is there has to be a specific spot in hell just for all the real estate developers on the planet. Although it is interesting - learning all about real estate development in the 1950s and 1990s, also the pitfalls of working with big government agencies like the NY State Port Authority.

***

PT was frustrating. Read more... )

Did manage to make it to Union Grocery on Court St. Read more... )

And it rained heavily this morning between 6am and 10 am. Then stopped. Sun came out. Then got gloomy and rained briefly after 3pm. It's windy now. I'm staying in and off the knee the rest of the weekend, except for knee exercises.


Off to bed.
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2025-12-17 09:07 pm

Neurodivergent Rights...

Found on Face Book of all places:

Apparently, I'm neurodivergent - since I have a grab bag of a lot of these:



For those who can't see it? It breaks down visual and audio coordination issues into categories:

1. Dyscalculia - Difficulty with visual/spatial coordination, counting, doing numbers in sequence or sequencing (example? Unable to count by sevens), difficulty working word problems...

2. Dyslexia - difficulty reading aloud, mis-pronouncing words (often substituting words or finding another word), difficulty reading aloud, problems retrieving words, difficulty with writing or spelling, slow and labor intensive reading

3. Dysgraphia - symptoms include cramped/sore hand, poor spatial planning of sentences and margins, frequent erasing, inconsistent letter and word spacing, poor spelling and missing words and letters

4. Dyspraxia
Symptoms include: difference in speech, perception problems, poor hand-eye coordination, poor balance and posture, clumsiness, fatigue.

Better late than never, I guess? But I wish this information was more accessible and prevalent in the 20th Century and early 00s? Along with the advocacy.
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2025-12-15 08:18 pm

Monday is just getting by and that may be enough considering

On the subway this morning - it was hard to find a seat - not because seats weren't available - but that they were occupied by the homeless, who are mentally unstable and can be violent. They also smell. And may carry illness. So everyone attempts to give them a wide berth.

I did sit near one man, who was putting on a ratty old pair of old boots. Read more... )

On the way home, after disembarking from the subway at Church Avenue, and climbing the steps to exit near Denny's Pub, I stumbled upon a street filled with pigeons. Their heads tucked under their wings, all sleeping on the sidewalk beneath the overhang. There must have been at least thirty or forty of them sitting there.

**
Whoa. A lot of folks died this weekend, and rather tragically. The news was...depressing this morning, more so than usual? On social media and on ABC.

What the actor who played Luke Spencer, Rob Reiner and his wife, Brown University students, and Bondi Beach celebrants...all have in common..they died this weekend. )
Damn. No wonder I'm depressed.

***

I don't know if anyone else feels this way? But sometimes, I feel as if I have no control over anything? My art, my writing, my life.

I bought two gifts for my mother, slippers and the Paul Newman memoir - neither have been delivered and both are stuck in transit. I looked up the Paul Newman gift - it tells me that weather delays are responsible. I looked up the slippers - it's stuck with FedEX in Georgia. So frustrated, and worried that Momma wouldn't have anything under her tree - I bought her a Suduko Calendar and a 2026 book of Sudoku puzzles.

I also spent a portion of the day - fighting to get Crazy Org to provide payment for two Union perks owed to me. I succeeded with one (which was admittedly the more important and greater of the two), and am making some headway on the other (which granted is just $100 (post taxes - $50), but that $100 could pay for this month's PT).

Iced my knee. Did exercises. Tried not to overdo.

And at home, worked on a drawing of a homeless man that I saw on the subway, and surrounded him with pigeons.

Me: I feel I've accomplished little in my life. I'm second guessing all of it.
Mother: You've survived

And I suppose that's something? There but for the grace of God go I?

I'm grateful for what I have, every single day, my City reminds me of that. It thrusts those who have far less under my nostrils.

Charisma Carpenter (played Cordy on Buffy and Angel) stated recently on a podcast that she loved New York City, because no matter how down or depressed you felt, you could always see somebody who was worse off - not only that but you could watch them find a way to keep on trucking. Thinking to yourself, if they can do that...then well, so can I.
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2025-12-14 07:27 pm
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Mainly reviews and nattering on about television shows...

1. Still doing the Buffy/Angel rewatch. Watched Episodes 4, 5, and 6 of Angel S2, and episodes 5, 6, and 7 of Buffy S5.

Takeaways?

Whomever designed Joyce's bedroom has no sense of design. Also it appears to be stuck in the 1970s? It's the worst set in the show, which is saying something, since we have Tara's entirely black bedroom. Joyce's entirely red bedroom vs. Tara's black one, decisions decisions.

Angel/Darla sequence in the Convent Basement in Dear Boy (Episode 5) is similar to Buffy/Spike sequence in the alley behind the Bronze in Fool for Love (Episode 7). Read more... )

Another thing I didn't previously pick up on? In Fool For Love - Spike's interaction with each slayer he is trying to kill - involves mothers, not sure the extent to which he's aware of it, though. Read more... )

Spike does actually provide some insightful information to Buffy and the audience, not necessarily intentionally - and from his perspective, it's relatively obvious. He doesn't appear to understand why Buffy and her friends don't get it. Read more... )

What doesn't quite work in the episode is Riley and her friends. It's also clear from the episode why the writers intend to write out Riley and how. Read more... )

2. Watched the 1968 film Rachel, Rachel yesterday on Apple + for $2.99. I rented it. It starred Joanne Woodward, Estelle Parsons, and Jim Olsen and was directed by Paul Newman. Read more... )

3. Finished Down Cemetery Road - the series by Mike Heron based on his book of the same name, on Apple +. Apple + has an annoying interface, that is similar to HBO's, in that it is hard to select episodes to watch on it. It automatically kicks you to the next one or makes you rewatch the one you just saw. Also, I can't always tell how many episodes there are, or if I've seen the last one. I looked it up - it only has eight episodes, the last one aired this week, on December 10.

Read more... )

4. Re-started S2 of The Morning Show on Apple + - it's okay. Doesn't really start to take off until Episode 3, Read more... )

***

Other than that, and doing knee exercises, and icing my knee, and figuring out how to use my new cooking appliance (the NOSH steam/air fryer/bake/toaster oven) - I've not done much. I have tried out a few more video puzzle games - Royal Match (which starts simple then gets hard and feels rigged for money), various attempts at Mahjong games that don't have ads (they seem to acquire them after a certain point) and I have to delete the game entirely because the pop up ads freeze the phone. There's a nasty AI cleaner ad that really froze the phone and had me worried, but once I deleted the game - it went away.

Did manage to cook a biscuit (American version not the British - think small scone), and crisp some gluten free french bread in the oven.

It's easier to use than expected and meets my needs. Also smaller than expected and doesn't take up as much space as I feared. This may work. I'd been holding off getting one due to the spacing issue. But it doesn't appear to be a problem.

***

A little lonely this Xmas. Be happy when it's over. Mother is a little lonely too. Crazy Org is the reason I'm not spending it with Mother, which is annoying me to no end. (I'll save you the gory details.)

Oh, well, I have nice lights up, the lobby is well decorated, there's some snow on the ground, and presents wrapped in Amazon gift bags under the tree. I'd say I miss the other wrapping, but this is actually easier to recycle.
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2025-12-13 10:48 am
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Buffy S5 and Angel S2 Rewatch Family & Untouched

It's cold, and gray, and gloomy outside. The Oak Tree outside my window is finally shrugging off it's leaves.

Me: the tree outside my window is holding onto its leaves and stubbornly not letting go of them.
Mother: Is it an oak?
Me: An oak?
Mother: Oaks tend to hold onto their leaves for a long time.

Re-watched Buffy S5, Episode 6 "Family" written and directed by Whedon, and Angel S2, "Untouched", written by Mere Smith and directed by Whedon - and I thought whoa, both these episodes feature characters who have abusive and controlling fathers. And some of the same dialogue? Whedon literally took dialogue from Smith and inserted it in Family. The dialogue exchange between Bethany (the victim of the week in Angel) is the same as the exchange between Tara and her father in Family.

Whedon definitely has a thing for "abusive fathers" in his stories.

Family is a better episode than I remembered - if you ignore Tara and her abusive family. Read more... )

I'd forgotten Untouched completely, and hadn't realized Whedon directed it, while Mere Smith wrote it. Or how various themes in it were similar to Family. Of course I hadn't watched them closely together either.
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2025-12-12 09:52 pm

I'm just glad it's Friday...

Should go to bed. But my IBS is acting up, and going to see if it settles?

On Threads, at least I think it was threads, it might have been Twitter - someone asked, how do you respond if someone states "I don't like you."
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***

Speaking of liking things? Tried to read a negative review on Good Reads about a new Illona Andrews novel coming out. But half-way in, I realized the reviewer a) had only read 35% of the book, b) didn't really like Illona Andrews writing style all that much, c) wasn't much of a fan of the high fantasy or portal fantasy genre, d) hated a series of novels that I had enjoyed in that specific genre, and after checking their previous reviews/likes, discovered they loved Peter Watts' Blindsight - which I can't seem to read or listen to more than five percent of without going to sleep. (They also adore Martha Wells books and Miss Marple Mysteries (which I read when I was a kid and liked well enough.) In short, the reviewer is a hard speculative sci-fi fan, parlor room mystery reader, and Illona Andrews novels are NOT hard speculative science fiction or parlor room mysteries. That's not their genre. And outside of the Murderbot series and possibly Miss Marple, we do not like the same novels.

In short, I couldn't tell from their review whether I'd like the novel or not. Just that I don't tend to share their taste, and we'd most likely clash if we ever interacted online or off. Read more... )

That said? I admittedly read a lot of reviews - because I'm curious to see what folks thought about xyz, and have often seen or read the work prior to reading their review of it.

I'm a curious soul, and it often gets me into trouble - as being curious tends to do.

**

Off to bed, now that the IBS has quieted down.
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2025-12-11 08:05 pm
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Thursday is tired and wishes it was Friday

I don't know what it is like elsewhere? But this is turning out to be a bitterly cold December in the Northeastern US, specifically New York. It felt like 18 degrees F or -7 C with windchill today, in actuality 34 degrees F or 1 degrees C. Bitter, bitter wind. But sunny and pretty outside with a blue sky and scattered white puffy clouds.

Mememage - Question a Day (because I'm slightly behind, too busy writing about Buffy for the upteenth time. You'd think I'd get bored of it eventually, but apparently not? I can't remember where I left off? I had to go back and check - can't have any repetition, can we? I might contradict myself.)

8. Today is Green Monday: the most lucrative shopping day of the year. This is usually the last day that people can shop online so that the purchases can still arrive in time for the holidays. What’s the last thing you bought from an online retailer?

Sudoko Book and Calendar for my mother, and I did on Thursday (as in today), but it can still arrive in time for the holidays.

9. If you have a battery smoke alarm in your home, do you check the batteries regularly?

No, it's one of those newfangled ones that has batteries which last ten years. Combo smoke/carbon dioxide detector. Although, now that I no longer have a gas stove/oven, less chance of carbon dioxide poisoning.

10. Do you have a blanket you can snuggle under on your couch/sofa?

Yes, but I don't own a couch or sofa. I own armchairs. And an ottoman/coffee table.
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11. How often do you chew gum (or bubble gum)?

I no longer do. I can't - high in sugar. Also it sticks to my teeth, and loses it's taste too quickly.

***

Knee was hurting last night, but it's better today. I've also been off of it more, giving it a rest. Did some exercises, but once it began to ache, pulled back a bit. Iced it as well.

***

Making headway through the Paul Newman Memoir - which is a lot better than the Ethan Hawk documentary, also a lot kinder to Newman. Making me think Hawk is a bit of a judgemental prick? Read more... )

Also making headway through "Lady's Guide to Mischief and Mayhem" which is more romance than mystery, and there's no mischief or mayhem. It's okay. I'll most likely finish it? But I wouldn't rec it to anyone?

***

Me: So where did you get that strap that we're using for the exercises?
PT: Amazon.
Me: What do you call it?
PT: Stretch Strap for exercises or stretching strap.

Sure enough that's what it is. Stretching Yoga Straps for Physical Therapy

I've noticed a pattern of late? I see something I want, I ask people where they got it, and they state: From Amazon.

Damn. Amazon is doing well.

I also bought humidifiers. My skin is drying out, I have a dry cough, and my lips are chapped. Time for humidifiers.

***

Saw a stray cat (at least I think it is - might not be) on the way home. It's fairly healthy for a stray, so may be just out and about. But thought, it's awfully cold for a cat. Granted they have fur but still.
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2025-12-10 09:03 pm
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Wednesday is tired, and nursing a bum knee

Per the PT, I've an irritated or nappy meniscus:
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***

Watched Buffy S5 episode 5, "No Place Like Home", which oddly, I liked better than Episode 4. (Hmm,as an aside, television writers seem to like annoying characters, and somewhat whiny characters, don't they?)
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Off to bed. I hope.
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2025-12-09 07:26 pm

Tuesday is cold but hanging in there...

Had another PT appointment on Monday, which...went okay, I guess? Read more... )

Work party and work in general made me want to walk out the door and retire today. But alas, I can't. I'm not positive, but I have a feeling Breaking Bad felt much the same way.
Read more... )
Today was my father's birthday - which FB decided to alert me to. Annoying considering my father was never on FB and disliked it. My father, had he lived, would have turned 90. He died in 2022 at the age of 86 just short of his 87th birthday.

So feeling a bit down and out today. Not helped by the bitter cold snap plaguing New York and the East Coast at the moment. It was 18 F degrees this morning, I think that is -6 C. Tomorrow it is supposed to get up to 45 and possibly rain, practically balmy.
****

Buffy S5 Rewatch

Episode S5.4 Out of My Mind

Definitely enjoying Angel more this go-around, probably because I've watched this season one too many times? That said, the dialogue in this episode for the most part is rather good. And there are some good bits here and there.

The episode is mainly about Riley and Spike.
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Off to bed and other things.
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2025-12-07 06:32 pm
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Sunday ran errands, laid about, and well memage...

I have to make dinner - but alas, I am procrastinating. Probably due to a late lunch of salad and snickerdoodles (gluten-free softbaked, tiny snickerdoodle cookies courtesy of Trader Joes). I did go grocery shopping and scored Beechers World Famous Mac and Cheese (gluten free), Capullo's frozen almond crust pizza, Capullo's almond dough spinach and cheese ravioli, spicey salad greens, grilled salmon, and almond/coconut creamer.

Managed to watch a bit more of Down Cemetery Road with Emma Thompson and Ruth Wilson, it's not as good as Slow Horses. By the same guy, Mike Herron. But it drags in places, Ruth Wilson (Sarah) is getting on my nerves and I can't decide if it is the actress or the role? She's gotten on my nerves on everything I've seen her in - so it may well be the actress? Emma Thompson on the other hand is excellent in it - I'm watching for her. I don't like the plot though. (I've seen it done one too many times, I think?)

Outside of that, haven't done all that much? I did manage to clear a space for the upcoming steam oven/air fryer. That I'm hoping works. It should.
It will help tremendously with the nutritious gluten free cooking - if it does. 98% of cooking nowadays is having access to the right appliance.

December Question a Day Mememage

2. Are there Christmas lights in your local town/city? Post a photo if you have one.

Weirdly enough, not. In previous years everyone lit up the outside of their houses in my area, but not this year.

I do have lights on in my apartment, and they have them on in the lobby of the building - which is insanely decorated. (Not sure that's the same thing, though?)

Insanely Large and Decorated Lobby of my apartment building )

Think 1920s Pre-War Art Deco, with Christmas Decorations.

3. Have you ever hand made a gift (or a card) for someone?

Yes. From the age of four roughly to the age of 21, my brother and I handmade all the Xmas cards that our family sent. My father joined us in later years, then eventually, my mother printed off a watercolor of my Dad's and sent that out. We were famous for our hand made cards.

We did block prints, finger paints, watercolors, drawings, everything. My brother, myself, and my Dad are all artistically inclined. My mother handled the mailing, addressing, signing, and printing if required, also the coordination of the effort.

I don't do it now. Don't have addresses for anyone to send them to - even if I wanted to do it. People just don't provide addresses any longer - hello social media and the internet.

YMMV.

4. International Day of Banks. Do you use more than one bank for your investments/savings/general bill paying, or is everything in one place?

One bank for all the bill paying. Savings/Investments is in more than one place.

5. Do you own anything with fake (or real) fur trim?

Fake fur trim. I don't own real - can't afford it, and...not a fan. I'd rather spend the money on travel or something/anything else.

6. Do you own a microwave oven? What do you use it for?

Yes, contemplating using it to heat up gluten free mac and cheese at the moment. I use it to defrost and heat up items. Sometimes to steam - but the steam oven will do away with that issue. I usually use it to melt butter, heat up stuff, and do it quickly. Don't use it that often.

7. Have you ever tried an alcoholic cocktail, or a non-alcoholic mocktail? Do you have a favourite?

Yes. Both. Favorite? Either a lime Margarita, or a Vodka Tonic with Lemon.
I used to like Cosmopolitians, and for a while Cranberry and Seltzer.

Now? I don't drink any of the above. Off sugary drinks and alcohol for the most part.
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2025-12-06 09:16 pm
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Saturday...is hanging loose or trying to?

The folks singing in the lobby - aka the apartment Christmas Party, can't sing. So, I put on my headphones and decided to listen to EMDR Bilateral Simulation to block it out, and to calm my nervous system, which is kind of keyed up.

The apartment building Christmas Party - was not what I'd expected? Instead of a party for the complex celebrating the building's 100th birthday, it was more a gathering of a select group of people and their kids to visit with Santa, get gifts, sing songs with audio equipment, and have a pizza party with cupcakes, brownies, cookies and snacks.
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So, having been weirdly triggered food wise, I came back up and had left-over chili (I make a mean vegetarian gluten-free chili, if I say so myself), gluten free NY Cheesecake (small) with berries, and some pumpkin latte ice cream with nuts. Oatmilk eggnog with a touch of brandy to drink.

Then watched the rest of Otto Preminger's classic adaptation of Leon Uris' epic "Exodus" on Amazon Prime, starring Paul Newman, Eva Marie Saint, Sal Mineo, John Derek, Sir Ralph Richardson, and Lee J. Cob. I'd been watching it off and on most of the day.

(The book was actually better - I read it in high school, but the film has some excellent and understated performances in it, even if it shows it's age - it was done in 1960.) Not to be confused with the Moses Story, this is the story of the battle to create Israel in 1948, after WWII during the British occupation. Read more... )

I watched it - because I remembered it being one my favorite Paul Newman films. Also I've been listening to the Newman memoir on audible. Newman keeps stating in his book that he wasn't a great actor, he was just good enough, and it didn't set his world on fire or anything. He hadn't found his calling. And he is convinced he probably had a learning disability - because he struggled with reading his entire life, and struggled to memorize lines - as if he didn't quite do it properly or something, but he didn't quite know why or how. (Sounds like dyslexia to me? I struggled with memorizing lines too for similar reasons.) I read well now - but I had to work at it, and still do, I have all sorts of tricks that I apply, most of which I'm no longer aware of doing, and couldn't explain to anyone.

It's astonishing that he actually thinks this - because his acting seems effortless. He's effortlessly charming, charismatic, and pulls in the audience - even in a film like Exodus. He also didn't think of himself as attractive to women or anyone. He reminds me of my brother - who didn't see it either. Often the most attractive people are the ones who are the most oblivious to it.

***

I'm enjoying S2 Angel much more than expected. [Even though, David Boreanze is not as thin and hot as he was in Buffy S1-3.] Most likely assisted by the fact that I couldn't remember most of it - having not watched it since it aired or shortly thereafter? I thought I remembered it better than I had? But I totally forgot about Angel's Darla dreams, or how Darla was seducing Angel in his sleep. I also forgot about the scenes with Cordelia and Gunn bonding. They have some nifty platonic scenes between Cordelia/Gunn, and Cordelia/Wes - indicating that Cordelia most likely gets along better with men than women? Cordelia is growing on me, and I don't remember liking Cordy this much when I watched the series back in the day? (I think the difficulty was I came in and out of it, and like all the characters, she has her ups and downs.)

Finished watching First Impressions - which is the third episode of Angel S2. It establishes Lorne's club as another new set. We've moved from the Bar that Angel met Kate at in S1, to Lorne's Demon Bar. In this episode, Angel dreams of singing Send in the Clowns and Tears of the Clown, at Lorne's club - apparently he was going for a medley (which was thankfully off screen - since David Boreanze can't sing to save his life. And I'd rather he didn't butcher one of my favorite Sondheim songs.) Believe it or not, Tears of the Clown is actually a song by Smokey Robinson and The Miracles with a lyric like "there's sad things around but nothing sadder than the tears of a clown when there's no one around".

I'm thinking okay, where are we going with this? Is this a dream? It is - he's meeting Darla at Lorne's bar, and starts dating her, and having a relationship with her in his dreams.
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Interesting episode, all things considered. Only quibble is sigh, Gunn.
He's annoyingly stereotypical, and kind of cringe. I've seen it done better elsewhere. I honestly don't think the writers knew what to do with the character?

**

On a final note?

My contacts came today. I was told they'd shipped on Friday. And they arrived today. That was fast. Considering they were ordered November 8.
How much you want to bet that they forgot to order them, and didn't do it until I reminded them to, this week?


Ah. As predicted the party in the lobby finally ended - and prior to 10 pm. The plus side of families with small children throwing a party - is it is never a late one.

Off to bed.
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2025-12-03 07:58 pm
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This that and Buffy S5 Rewatch...and book meme

Contemplating taking up chair yoga at home. All I need is my chair which I bought for the peddler that I got rid of. I don't know what it is about December and the Christmas season that seems to instill me with anxiety and depression - often at the same time. I'm fighting both at the moment.

Called the optometrist to find out what the status was on my contacts, which I'd ordered way back on November 8. I left two messages.

Optometrist: We didn't order any contacts for you.
Me: Yes, you did. Either that or it was an incredibly expensive exam.
Optometrist: Let me check - oh, wait, yes, we did. (flustered). My mistake. Sorry about that. I'll look into it and get back to you.
ME: Whew. You had me worried. Considering I ordered them way back on November 8 - they should be ready by now, that was over a month ago.
Optometrist: Yes, yes, we're so sorry. We'll get back to you.

How much you want to bet that that order hadn't gone through in November or they stupidly gave it to someone else and now have to order them again? Thank god, I have enough for another two-three months.

People are stressing me out. Work is always stressful at this time of year - our fiscal year ends in December, so there's this mad rush by all the idiotic procrastinators to send work my way. (I don't procrastinate at work, elsewhere yes, but not at work.) Honestly, sometimes I wish I could take off sometime around November to some exotic island somewhere, and not return until March 30. Solves the seasonal depression issue, and the anxiety issue. I am prone to seasonal depression because I need sunlight and blue skies. Drab, gray, rainy skies make me hurt and depress me. Hence the reason I don't live further north than NYC, nor in the Pacific Northwest, the Midwest, or Canada. I don't mind darkness at night? But I need sunshine.

**

Buffy S5 Rewatch ( Buffy is my mental health/comfort series, particularly the later seasons. I don't know why exactly? But something about it comforts me when I get stressed, frustrated or depressed. More than anything else. It's one of those things that you either get or you don't?)

The Replacement - Season 5, Episode 3. The first three episodes spend a lot of time setting the stage for what is coming, and setting up the characters, also depending on the previous year - placing the characters in either a good spot or a bad one. You can always tell how the season will end, based on where everyone is in the beginning of the season. If a character is isolated from everyone in the beginning of the season - they won't be at the end for example? Or if a character is happy, and in a relationship, and seemingly doing great - they won't be at the end. They also set the tone and the theme. It's pretty clear by the time we get to this episode that this season is about duality.
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Book Meme

1. Still reading "The Lady's Guide to Mischief and Mayhem" - which is spending way too much time developing a romance between a newspaper owner and a police inspector, and not enough time on the friendship between two female journalists, investigating the murder, and well the promised mischief and mayhem. I may jump over to the Ill-Manner Ladies Guide to Utter Ruin Book 2 instead. Or Gideon The Ninth.

2. Am making more headway listening to the Paul Newman memoir - which is all the transcripts of all the audio recordings. (Newman burned the audio recordings in a fit of self-revulsion and embarrassment (he was a private man, and not comfortable talking about himself), but, alas they were all transcribed by his best friend a year or so prior to the burning and his kids found them a few years after both he and his friend died, and after much hemming and hawing, decided to publish them in a book - they also gave them to the actor and director Ethan Hawk (for reasons that I fail to completely understand) to make a documentary. This by the way proves that I'm wrong about why Hawk didn't delve into Paul's relationships with his family and siblings and the Sporting Goods Store. It wasn't because he didn't have access or was necessarily forbidden? I think it was because it was already in the memoir and already out there and didn't interest Hawk, the actor and director, all that much? Actors and Directors tend to be somewhat introspective and self-involved? And like to well talk about their own field more than dysfunctional families and Sporting Goods Stores? Hawk focused on what interested Hawk and ignored everything else.)

I started this after I finished re-listening to Graphic Audio's dramatization of the entire Kate Daniels Magic Series - which is excellent by the way. It has a full cast. Like a movie in your mind.
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2025-12-01 10:04 pm
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Monday is just feeling grateful ...a few days late and a dollar short, but there you go

Leg and knee didn't hurt as much today as they did on Saturday, making me think arthritis may be a factor, and sigh shifts in the weather.

The Super decorated the lobby of the apartment in style - we have poinsettias, a tree, a mechanical elf climbing a ladder to decorate the tree, and a carousel on top of the mail boxes, among other things. It's quite festive. Never thought I'd say this?? But I actually prefer a pre-war building of 77 units to a brownstone. Also the building is older - it's 100 years old, and quite sturdy all things considered.

And Momma got a Xmas present for me - today - I know what it is - she got it on Cyber Monday before it went up in price. kitchen appliances and where to put them )

I did partake of Cyber Monday. Got shoes for $22 on Lands End, and a pair of pants fo $21. And some underwear via Amazon. Yesterday at Walgreens I bought a cup warmer for work - worked like a dream. Plugged it in and it kept the cups warm. My tea, decafe coffee, and matcha lattes kept getting cold fast. Now they stay warm. It was only $5.

I'm embracing my love of my city and neighborhood. I love NYC. I was talking to Breaking Bad today, and describing how my entire family is spread around the US and lives in suburban and rural areas (ie. you need a plane and car, or in the case of my brother, a train and car to get to them).

Breaking Bad: So you're the sole urbanite?
Me (I think about it): Yup pretty much. I like cities.

I read on Calm or somewhere recently that anxious folks tend to prefer walk in city streets or places where they know all the threats instantly than a nature walk outside of the city. They feel safer. Read more... )

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December Memage:

1. Do you use serviettes/napkins when you eat, or are they just for fancy meals/when you have guests?

When have guests or fancy. I rarely use them other than that. Don't have that many, and I can't find them?
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2025-11-30 06:41 pm

Sunday is busy pondering differing perspectives...

1.Could not manage to drag myself to my church today. It was cold and drizzling outside. The trees outside my window still have their leaves though. Did watch the sermon on my television set via You Tube. Once I figured out that I can still watch you tube videos on the big television set - I got hooked. They are free. There's ads. But still free. My tolerance for ads however is not high. But at least the ads don't interrupt church services - because that would be tacky?

The sermon was long and weirdly about combating racism, homophobia and xenophobia in Iowa. Read more... )

2. Watching Down Cemetery Road - the other series by Mick Herron, it's not as good as Slow Horses, although in a similar vein? It's British satire/mystery/thriller about the inept British Secret Service. (See people are the same everywhere - they are just as inept in Britain as they are in the US, and well everywhere else, national pride be damned. And British writers make fun of them.)

Emma Thompson is playing a private detective - who is sort of in the Gary Oldman role? With Ruth Wilson in the Jake Lowdon role, an art conservationist in over her head.

The set-up? Sarah (Ruth Wilson), after a building blows up near her house from an alleged gas explosion - she hunts for the little girl who survived the blast. When she gets a private investigator involved - things go a bit south, and she stumbles into more than she anticipated.

3. Inside with Michael Rosenbloom Podcasts (one of the better actor podcasters) interviewed Alison Mack, his former cast mate from Smallville, and former NXIUM cultist. She'd become the second in command. I watched it on Youtube on my television - and damn, it was moving. I cried during it.
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Alison Mack Interview with Michael Rosenbloom

Mack and Rosenbloom reiterate something I've long espoused - which is that people are more than one thing, and people for the most part aren't bad or good, they just do bad or good things? Our society has a tendency to demonize people not their actions. And Mack is right - our society is punitive and based on fear, and manipulates people with fear. I remember a prisoner at Leavenworth Federal Penitentiary telling me once that prison was about punishment not rehabilitation. And freeing folks from it - doesn't help, because we don't prep them for the outside world, and we don't provide them with employment.

That's not to say that there aren't people out there that are evil, and have a brain make up that is different than ours - sociopaths and psychopaths...are hard to understand. But even those are capable of good and bad things...it's never simple.

At any rate - it's an interesting podcast, and worth the watch.

[I've not watched the NXUIM documentary (but I know what it entailed), although I think I may have seen the Spieldberg one "Why We Hate".]

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It's been a quiet day. Did some watercoloring - didn't like the first painting, discarded it, working on another one. I don't know if I'll ever do anything with my paintings at the moment? Right now, just doing them for me.

Dinner was salmon, aspergus, celery and carrots - baked. Yesterday I made chili. This morning, a spinach, onion and feta cheese omelete with grits.
The grits took up the blood sugar.

End of November Mememage

30. Do you have any special plans for December?

Not really? I plan on taking some time off. And getting a PT evaluation next week. Also, maybe getting tickets to Brooklyn Botanical Gardens Light Show.

I don't do much for Xmas - so it's not that stressful for me. I have minimal decorations, and only a few gifts to buy.
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2025-11-29 05:55 pm

Saturday is accomplished despite a sinus headache

1. Managed to get the flu shot that I'd been procrastinating - I don't like the pharmacy, but I'm no longer working in Jamaica, so can't get it there. And not sure about getting it at City MD in the city.

Also, due to shifts in the jet stream combated another migraine, still lingering but not as bad as it was earlier - and it appears to be dissipating finally. My own fault for forgetting to take an antihistamine. A hot shower helped. I'd taken a walk to pick up batteries and get brandy (actually I was getting rum but all they had was brandy, which actually works better anyhow) for the egg nog that I'd bought. I can also use it for hot toddies, hot apple cider, and baking/cooking. I don't really drink any longer - so it's used more for well egg nog and toddies, and baking.

Put up my Xmas lights in my living room window - which is a miniature evergreen tree (plastic but looks real with snow on it) and yellow lights, and a burlap stand. I call it my Charlie Brown Christmas Tree. It's adorable and make me happy. That and the snowflake fairy lights, and the little Saturn light globe. I'll probably leave them there until well into February. I leave the Saturn Light Globe there year round, just only turn it on during the winter months. Removed the little pumpkin from the window.
My holiday decorations tend to be on the simple side, and mostly in my windows and window sills.

2. Was thinking about Angel today, and it occurred to me that in "Are You There Now or Have You Ever Been" that he doesn't tell his friends what actually happened in the hotel or what he was doing there or that he'd left that poor woman in the hotel to suffer since 1952. I'm not sure what he did with her body or if she was a ghost? But his friends didn't seem to know she was still there or that the bank money was there? Which begs the question how did Angel get all the money he appears to have stashed away? He's clearly not poor, and tends live rather well. Similar to Dracula in a way. The older vampires in Whedon's series live quite well. Or know how to?

Probably over-thinking it too. Mustn't overthink television series, and Disney superhero films. Doesn't keep me and others from doing it...

3. Former Sr. Minister (the Unitarian Minister who left the church to become a rabbi), is writing a blog on substack for subscribers - which she advertises on FB. I wouldn't mention it - except, she surprised me today with this blurb on FB.

"My son and I went to part of the Macy's Thanksgiving Day Parade yesterday. I love the marching bands, but the whole thing is increasingly lackluster. And I was struck, as I am every year, by the idolatry. Here's a 100-word reflection on it:

When the Pillsbury Doughboy balloon floated by in the Macy’s Thanksgiving Day Parade, the announcer informed the crowd that this was the parade’s most iconic balloon. Our response, I guess, was muted, because he reprimanded us: “When I say it’s the most iconic, you make the most noise!”

Theologian Neil Gillman taught: when people realize that something is a symbol (or need to be told to cheer for it), the symbol is broken. It no longer carries the magic.Maybe the symbols of consumerism are breaking. We’re finally figuring out that they’re giant idols. Impotent. Full of nothing but air."

I did a double take. [ETA: Sigh, for some reason my mind read Gaiman not Gillman. I have told you all that I'm dyslexic right? [I've certainly written multiple posts on it.] Thank god, I restrained myself from responding to her on FB. I think the reason my mind decided it was Gaiman, is it saw Neil and the similar sounding name, the quote, and the Sr. Minister's name and made that connection. ]


4. Tom Stoppard died. I've read and seen a lot of Tom Stoppard plays.
Known for: Rozencrantz and Guildestern are Dead, The Real Thing, Shakespeare in Love..
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5. Finished Slow Horses S5 - it's only six episodes and fairly tightly written - so it didn't take all that long to binge, unfortunately. By the time I got into it? It was alas, over. Very funny British satire about spooks.

November Memage

29. What types of fruit do you always have in the house to eat?

Granny Smith Green Apples, Raspberries and Blackberries.
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2025-11-28 07:10 pm

Friday forgot it was Black Friday, and did laundry instead

Somewhat accomplished? I managed to get laundry done, switched out my torn padded bed pad, for the new less padded but not torn one. The torn had to be thrown out - it's not salvageable, unfortunately. I loved it - but can't find a similar one. Took out the recyclables. Washed the linens - it was mainly just the linens. Only two loads. So not that expensive.

Played more Mahjong. I lied when I said I don't like games? I do, but it depends on the game, and who I'm playing with. I can play that one for hours. Except it lies when it says it doesn't have ads - it does. Worse, to get out of the ad, I often have to offload and reload the game.

I also managed to schedule my flu shot for tomorrow. (I don't get the side-effects outside of a sore arm - I think I have a VERY strong immune system? But I'm doing it on Saturday morning, just in case.) Other goal is to clean out foyer closet and put up my Xmas lights in the window (if I can find them, I may need to get new ones), and the little Xmas tree with its lights, and take away the Thanksgiving decorations. Sent off Xmas list to family members, waiting on theirs.

Apparently sisterinlaw and niece's Thanksgivings included a Nantucket Pie. It's basically a fruit upside down cake with cranberries. I don't like cake and I like it even less now that I require substitutions, so I'm glad I had my pecan and pumpkin choices.

Watching Dancing with the Stars - which has some excellent dancing this season. Read more... )

Dinner was left-overs. Breakfast was fried eggs over spinach leaves, lemon, and grits. I combined Breakfast and Lunch.

Angel S1 Re-Watch - Episode 2 - Are You Now or Have You Ever Been

I remember being less than thrilled with this episode the first two times I saw it. But now, I see a lot of interesting things in it that I'd not seen before. Weirdly, I find I appreciate it more without the echo of others in the background or my desire to compare it against Buffy. The two shows are very different series, with different goals and aims. Distance helps, I think?

cut for length )

Question a Day Mememage - November

Catching up on the Mememage - I'm dreadfully behind.

24. Do you have throw pillows/cushions around the house?

Yes. Although apartment.

25. Is lunch a snack, a light meal, or your main meal of the day?

Snack or light meal - I'm not a lunch person. I even skip it sometimes on weekends.

26. On National Cake Day – what is your favourite cake?

Flourless Chocolate Cake - which is technically the only cake I have any longer.

Or

Angel food, but I haven't found much in the Gluten Free versions. It's hard to find. I like it because it is light, and can serve it without icing. Also butter mochi cake, which is kind of similar.

27. Have you ever slept in socks at night?

Yes, and I always end up kicking them off in the middle of the night. So I don't.

28. November is part of World Vegan Month – have you tried any vegan food this month?

Yes. My chocolate chip cookies that I get from Insominac Cookies are vegan.
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2025-11-27 05:19 pm

Happy US Thanksgiving to those who celebrate.

Someone on Bluesky didn't understand the holiday, and stated as an immigrant they were struggling with it - why are we celebrating genocide?

Eh, no, that's actually Columbus Day. Which was about two months ago? You've confused the holidays.

Thanksgiving is for everybody - it's when the Pilgrims, immigrants from Europe, who fled for much the same reasons people flee to the US now, celebrated their first harvest after having half the population die out the winter before. The Native American tribe in the area allegedly joined them or so legend has it, history tends to be written by those who never experienced it. It also is a holiday that is in a lot of cultures, just celebrated at different times during the year. Usually, it is celebrated at Harvest Time and in the fall months right before Winter in the Northern Hemisphere.

But mainly, it is a holiday in which people are supposed to take a moment to be grateful for the things they have. And possibly find a way to give to those who don't. (Example giving to good will, donating, spending time in a soup kitchen, etc.) Again, it originated from the Pagan tradition - "Being Thankful to the Gods for the Harvest".

I'm grateful to have all the things that I have, and feel no need to list them off. There's too many to list anyhow. I have a lot to be thankful for this year.

Speaking of being thankful? I baked my little rock cornish game hen, did my green beans and the quinoa, with the dressing for the hen. Lovely little meal. Slice of pecan pie and pumpkin pie with a touch of whipped cream for desert. Was more than happy to be on my own.

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Touched base with immediate family - which is as unconventional as I am about the holidays.

Bro: Are you a Stranger Things or Football person?
Me: Well, at the moment a Slow Horses person. But yes, Stranger Things. I've neither the patience nor the attention span for football. You?
Bro: Sends me a screen shot of Stranger Things.

I think my mother is the only person in my immediate family who watches football regularly. Although she was enjoying Thanksgiving with friends for the day.

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Television

* The 99th Macy's Thanksgiving Day Parade was kind of ...tepid? It had only three Broadway show casts, and no real pop headliners. Same floats. And kind of lukewarm in that arena as well. While the Village Halloween Parade grows in volume each year, this one seems to diminish? I gave up on it around ten, after seeing the three Broadway Shows. Just in Time (which was the most enthusiastic), Buena Vista Social Club, and Ragtime. (Note they have space heaters on the stage, and it's only ten-to-fifteen minutes per act.).

* The Materialists - movie on HBO MAX, was briefly in theaters this year. (Didn't do that well, and kind of a blink and you missed it moment - I can see why? It's not a good movie.) It's a romantic comedy satire - written and directed by Celine Song, and stars Chris Evans, Dakota Fanning, and Pedro Pascale. And ...it is sleep inducing? I played Mahjong during it on my phone. The acting was very understated, to the point that I thought everyone was talking in monotone?
There were dramatic things that happened? But I couldn't care. It's a satire, and I don't like American Satire. It's about as subtle as a battering ram? And I like my satire subtle and dry like a fine wine.
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* Slow Horses S5 - it is S5. It's good. The second and third episode are hilarious. Slow to start as always, I kind of dozed off in the first episode.

This season the Horses have to help their dumb as toast incel hacker get out of MI5 prison for well...that would be spoiling things.

I admittedly like absurdist humor. And Slow Horses is an example of the type of satire that works for me? Biting, British, and Subtle.
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2025-11-25 06:17 pm

Tuesday is busy appreciating and being grateful for the little things...

1. Woo-hoo! The Ladies Road Guide to Utter Ruin (The Ill-mannered Ladies Book 2) by Allison Goodman has finally come out and is on sale at Amazon for $2.99 (Kindle Deal). I grabbed immediately. The first book ended on a cliff-hanger. It had been rec'd to me by a college friend who jumps in and out of my life, and resides in DC. We've not seen each other in years, but have corresponded over email during the pandemic, albeit briefly. I decided to send a quick email her way - to let her know it came out and was on sale. She'll probably never get it. But who knows.

Also grabbed The Violin Conspiracy for $1.99 - although this might be an audio book credit? It has violin music!! And if I can listen to violin music along with narration...

It's described as Queen's Gambit but with classical music and violins.

2. John Scalzi shares the Pond Rules from his local nature preserve in Ohio:

"The things you see at local parks...

Do not disturb the pond witch

Also don't ...feed the weretrout, if a hand comes out to beckon you? Walk away and don't look back, and those aren't ducks, run.

Scalzi: You know, I'm not sure I ever really read the Pond Rules at our local nature preserve all that closely before

3. Discovered Vita Mahjong as a new game on my phone - I appear to be good at it? It won't last long. I play puzzle games for about a year, then they want money from me, and I stop playing. Redecor lasted almost ten years, but I had to pay for it, and eventually got tired of it, and tired of spending money on a game that people vote on and is incredibly subjective.

I am not a vidder - hand/eye coordination skills are horrific, and you need good hand/eye to be a vidder. Also I like the puzzle games more? I did play a Grand Prix race track game - but it gave me anxiety, so I stopped finally, also again - rigged? You can play it for free up to a point, then they want you to spend money on upgrading your car in the game.

I swear video games like to nickle and dime me to death, which is why I rarely play them. My mother has jumped from bridge to Mahjong which she likes more. She has her own tiles, own game set, everything. And they play at each other's houses.

4. I got my pies! Got them from Meredith's Bakery at the Farmer's Market. Thanksgiving just isn't Thanksgiving to me without pie.

pies )

But hey? Pies! I love pie! I look forward to the fall for well...pie! Particularly pumpkin pie!

That and the Macy's Thanksgiving Day Parade - on television. (I won't go watch it - even if it is only forty-five minutes away - it's cold, and I can't see the Broadway show performances well.) NYC is parade happy - we have parades for every single Holiday and even make up occasions to have parades. NYC feels bereft if it isn't having a parade at least twice a month. If it doesn't? Don't worry, it'll find something to replace it with.
Crazy city likes parades.

Well, I also liked the leaves turning colors.

At any rate, kind of glad I didn't try to get them yesterday - got a better deal today. If I'd gotten it at Union or Trader Joes, it would have cost more, and been bigger. Also frozen.
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2025-11-24 05:17 pm

Monday is tired, but got through yet another doctor appointment

I don't know why I'm tired all the time. I actually did sleep eight hours last night, or so my watch informs me. But I also woke up periodically, and the leg did bother me, and IBS had its issues, but nothing major.

I had today off due to the doctor's appointment, but I was dragging.Read more... )

Coming home, I accidentally ended up on the M train, without realizing it, and had to switch at Marcy Avenue (it's somewhere in Queens and I've never heard of it), which meant going down six flights of steps, across a street, and up six flights of steps, taking the M back across the bridge into Manhattan, down more steps, and taking the F back. Read more... )

I'll try to get a pie tomorrow at work. I'm near Whole Foods, and the farmers market, which has a gluten free bakery vendor on Tuesdays.

Dinner was hearts of palm spaghetti, asperagus, and broccoli with pesto, grated parmesan, and pepper. Blood sugar was high, so went with a vegetarian dinner that was low in carbs.

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Television

I finished S3 of Dark Winds on Netflix. AMC is dumping seasons of shows that previously aired on AMC onto Netflix. They've also dumped Interview with a Vampire S1-2, Mayfair Witches, Breaking Bad, and This is Going to Hurt - to name a few.

Dark Winds was hard to follow in places, but overall entertaining. The problem it had - was four different mysteries, none of which were connected, two of which had happened some time ago, and in different locals. Also the mysticism, and a mystery solved during a dream sequence. (I am not a fan of dream sequences in television shows, films or books. I don't particularly like reading about my own dreams. It's also hard to do it well - I honestly think only David Lynch succeeded because he thinks that way.)

I liked the first two seasons better. Not sure if it is continuing or not?
It's based on the Tony Hillerman, Joe Leaphorn and Jim Chee mysteries which were written in the 1970s, and this takes place in the 1970s. (I read them in the 90s). What's unique about the series is it is filmed on Navajo reservations, and the cast is mostly Navajo, Native American, and it's written by Navajo and Native Americans. The executive producers are Robert Redford and George RR Martin, who both had a cameo, playing chess, during it.

Also started This is Going to Hurt - a fictionalized account of Adam Kay's non-fiction memoir on his experiences working as a Junior Doctor on an NHS maternity ward in London. I'd categorize it as hyper-realism, and it is a dramedy. Although I don't find it funny - it's a bit too dark for my sensibilities. There is however a somewhat funny bit about the doctor attempting to get a pregnant woman in and out of a lift that won't stop moving. I thought NYC's inner city hospitals were bad - they've nothing on London's NHS, as shown here.

It's gritty, grim, black humor. Ben Whinslaw is brilliant in it. I don't know if I'll make it through all the episodes? There are only seven in all.
It's written by Adam Kay, who wrote it as a 7 episode limited series, focused on himself and another doctor working in the maternity ward. Reminds me a little bit of The Pitt, but far more raw and a little bit more bloody, also we slant into the personal lives of the doctors. Adam Kay appears to be a gay doctor, who is still firmly in the closet at home and at work - causing issues with his significant other.

Made through two episodes so far.

Finally, rewatching Angel S2 and Buffy S5. Of the two, I've watched Buffy S5 quite a few times, but not since 2010.

Buffy vs. Dracula and the Real Me )

Over on Angel, we establish that Angel doesn't sing (or dance). And likes Barry Manilow. Specifically Mandy. Read more... )


Okay done for tonight, I think. Off to work tomorrow.
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2025-11-23 05:14 pm
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Sunday is hanging in there and wondering where the weekend went...

The Community UU Church of NY's sermon today (which I watched on my television set via Youtube - youtube kindly thrust it at me, as recommended, and I didn't have to look for it and I finally figured out how to watch my community's UU church services via youtube on my television set) - stated that we're all tired because there's so much happening constantly around us, and it's overwhelming.

I thought, okay, that's probably why I've been feeling exhausted lately, sleep deprived, and kind of ill? Too much happening all at once, none of which I have control over.

I've even stopped the good news posts, mainly because I can't seem to get myself to weed through the hundreds of comments and links on the social activist's facebook page or in the Nice News or Waging Non-Violence emails, any longer? I find it all to be overwhelming, even if it is good news? I just want to close off the news media and forget it all exists for a bit.

And, it's getting darker earlier now. Dark at 4:30 pm, and 5:19 feels like 8. Shorter and shorter days. I'm not a fan of darkness, I have a tendency towards seasonal depression and require light. It's why I can't live that far North and have veered away from the North Pacific. NYC is about as far North as I can reasonably get, I think.

Anyhow, the church services on Youtube motivated me to donate to the Food Bank of NYC today. So far, I've donated to Food Bank, ACLU, and National Parks Conservation Service this year.

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Tomorrow is the doctor's appointment. Read more... )

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Made Chili last night with Chili beans, Classico Marinara Sauce, Jasmine brown rice, red onions, dark chocolate, and chili seasoning. It was smooth and excellent. Served with shredded cheddar cheese, Mary's Gone Crackers, and chopped red onions. Also cheese and crackers on the side. I might do celery and carrots with it tonight.

I don't understand my body? I couldn't handle the idea of putting ground beef in it. The thought turned my stomach, so rice was used instead. I used to love ground beef. Now, I can't stomach it. Instead, I love celery sticks, which I used to hate. Now I eat celery constantly?

Also, I used to hate beans, and avoid them like the plague - because gas pains, now my stomach wants beans but not meat. Somethings happened. Doctors are happy. Cardiologist and Endcrinologist - want me on a plant based mediterrean style diet without red meat at all, and beans instead.
Meat is bad for high blood pressure and diabetes.

After hemming and hawing, over whether to buy a cornish game hen, a duck or a rainbow trout for Thanksgiving or order something premade via Fresh Direct, I finally caved and bought a Rock Cornish Game. Read more... )

I did learn that my church, the UUA of Brooklyn, not the Community Church of NYC, has about fifty people signed up for its annual Thanksgiving Gathering, and I thought, nope. Read more... )

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I don't know about anyone else? But the period between November 20 and March 20 is tough on me, emotionally and mentally? Between the shortening of the days, the cold, the stripping of the flowers and trees of leaves, and the holidays...I struggle with depression. Read more... )

I make little plans to get through it. Read more... )

Sometimes life is in the enjoyment and love of small things, small pleasures, small hobbies, completion of small tasks, and small moments.

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Question a Day Memage:

[Shout out to kazzy_cee who found/came up with all of the questions - I really appreciate it. I can not come up with them well at all. I've tried. It's not as easy as it looks. I appreciate and am grateful for those that do. Thank you.]

21. Do you have lots of layers of bedding on your bed?

Yes. Read more... )

22. It’s Jamie Lee Curtis’s birthday! What did you last see her in on TV/film?

The Bear - she's amazing in The Bear. Plays the abusive alcoholic mother of the chef. It's a raw vulnerable no holds barred realistic portrayal of a recovering alcoholic. It's a joy to behold. I've a crush on the actress, who just gets better with age. (The Bear is a hypo-realism series about the running of a Chicago Restaurant, and the lives of all of those involved in running it.)

23. It’s National Cashew Day – do you like cashews? Have you used them in a recipe?

Not really, they are really hard to digest and lead to stomach cramping. Again, not a fan. I tend to use almonds instead.